Author: macil

You are always at the "apex" of your cohesion as an individualized soul, even if this apex may appear a "less than you can imagine." I want you to consider not just your entire life, but all your prior lives. If you do not believe in reincarnation (or variants), then consider all the lives of your ancestors ; consider the "code" that you believe is in the DNA that was cultivated by the lives of your ancestors -- the material that provides some level of influence when you enter this world. There are things you know that are built-in -- not just behaviors, but preferences that seem to have no roots in your current life.

Now with this consideration in mind, consider how all of these experiences & knowledge would culminate into a lens, or a window, as they must. This is easy to do. If you are conditioned to thinking you are "all that is of this life" then just expand your scope to consider you are "all that has come before" as well.

With this mind, then, let us consider: Why are you here? This article is not about why we live or why we experience but why you are here in this moment and not somewhere else. But the more important question is: why can't you go somewhere else?

"Somewhere else." What does that mean? Well, you can easily conceive a place "other than here" can't you? I don't mean your home versus the grocery store. I mean a place that seems "other" than your "whole conception of the universe."

And you say, well, there is space and perhaps other dimensions-yet-to-be-discovered and so on and yet even if we accept these explanations there remains one truth in all of this: wherever you go, there you are.

Our consciousness follows us wherever we go and provides the means by which we experience "the outside." So even if we move, or travel, can we have said to have gone anywhere at all? Not really. Your joys and foibles will follow you wherever you go. You cannot see past your own perceptions. What you see is always you, even if it is reflected off another.

The common theme of the inverted world is that it looks outside of itself for definition, completion ; it has a "deep dependence" that makes it "mortal." Without sustenance, it sees the world as a hostile place, attempting to deprive it of life. So the inverted world always creates systems to control, protect, or consume/destroy life. The inverted world has no grounding in "God" or Creator, or Source, or whatever word resonates with you. And via this fixation of the external, it creates a kind of inverted shadow world that is overlaid upon the truth, or living world.

The living world is that which springs forth from consciousness eternal. It is effortless and there is an unmistakable connection and wonderment between you and "it" while the inverted world feels dead, empty, or damned. Nothing about these worlds is "physical" as in something outside of yourself or independent of consciousness -- both worlds are of consciousness, but one is a tangle of lies that distorts your perception. They are better identified through feeling, or heart, or intuition. The senses provide both truth & lies and cannot be relied upon in totality, especially with considerations to the Buffer.

The inverted world is based in artifice -- in artificial volition. It creates "excuses" or "reasons" or "justifications" for its own momentum in order to acquire the fuel it requires to maintain its continually dying universe. The inverted world is a closed system that must tempt willful energy into it. The inverted world is an entropy box of the highest order because, as far as I can tell, it is not a game ; it is intimately tied with the cohesion of consciousness -- the self-actualization process of a being.

All beings will find the holy grail -- in time -- but as far as I can discern, you move exactly as fast as you try or intend. A movie or a game can have a beginning & end -- an entropy box -- without drawing you into it, making you believe it real.

All of us are suffering from various degrees of corruption from the stories of the inverted world. Groundhog Day is real and if you utilize your will in this fashion, you

Let's elaborate a little more on our last post.

I'm going to help you understand how time doesn't exist.

So I'm going to just break the bad news to you right now. You are in a time loop. Actually, it isn't bad news at all -- it is divine design. The problem is that you have somehow locked your time loop into the Human/Earth game.

The linearity that you associate with your experience has more to do with One Worldism, or certain rules that would be common to maintaining continuity/stability -- rather than as a byproduct of being "less than divine." Any game requires sequence, so divine beings are not somehow "beyond" experiencing sequence, which would rather make them more limited, no?

Because the belief in One Worldism is pervasive, the human collective tracks its stories -- its daily dreams -- in sequence. Or rather sequence is being imposed giving rise even to the concept of a calendar or a clock. This also has the effect of "slapping you" or grabbing your chin and redirecting you into this One Worldism story even when you want to look away. In other words, your commitments to time keep coming back and dragging you down.

Because there is just "one world" instead of "many" this necessitates the need for sequence -- even if these sequences are themselves just close-copies of one another from which we are fooling ourselves. If I take a photo of a park and you take a photo of the same park, are they the same park? Only our agreement would make them so -- so we are agreeing to the verisimilitude (the rules we impart to the application of our will) to make it so and behave as if we are going to the same place. This allows for a kind of intersection & communication between realms, but can also represents a horrific binding. Fixation can make a "common place to meet" into a prison if it is the only place we believe in (One World)-- an interstice between beings that can becoming a binding (and blinding.)

First of all, I apologize for the extended absence. Other aspects of life were hoarding my attention and the situation, I hope, is becoming rectified.

I have been squirreling away a bunch of good articles, but they all need some love in order to be presentable. I want to start with a good recap, or rehash of "Ex Inanis" so far. You know, like ... "The Story So Far."

So, you think free will doesn't exist, or isn't absolute, eh? You think that perhaps you are the sum total of your parts -- that you are like a calculator and the variables of your life just add up -- your decisions output in perfect order? Mayhaps you think that your life feels like it is scripted, or that there are forces who have a hand in your pie.

"But Macil! Its true. You can't convince me. It is all determined! One state informs the next state, one feeling, one thought, like a row of domino's. You are powerless before this unfolding of events. You are just a complicated chemical reaction!"

You poor deluded fool. Let me instruct you on how wrong you are.

I want to point out that you are able to observe the forces that seemingly impact your decisions -- or result in your decisions -- which should give you a clue. The fact that you can observe them should give you immediate pause.

Or perhaps you haven't ever considered that "something" is observing all of this activity unfold for you to even talk or complain about? In which case that alone would be quite the revelation. If you "see from something other than your eyes", then is someone other than you controlling this "force of observation?" "What" exactly has the time to complain or contemplate that it doesn't have free will?

It could be said that the world is at a precipice between those who are falling into determinism (physicalism) and free will (anything freaking

You know what time of year it is -- tax season. That's right -- the time of year where we have somehow been convinced that paying a toll is somehow necessary for the functioning of a civilized society. Worse, we are conned into doing the work of collecting the toll and hand delivering it! Talk about evil.

This is a good article for Ex Inanis because it exemplifies the problem of One Worldism so well.

Before we continue, this is your friendly reminder to read the disclaimer plastered on the top of the site. The discussions we have here are intended to challenge your understanding of the world -- not provide you with answers.

Let's begin.

You've heard every argument in the book for the justification for taxes, I'm sure: protection (military), welfare (of any kind), public services (roads, power) and so on. We are not going to rehash any of those here. I don't care where you fall on the spectrum -- if you believe in any form of government, even some ideal form that has never existed, you are still stuck in One Worldism.

So how do we explain "One Worldism?" This is just a phrase I coined. This has nothing to do with one world governments or the unification of mankind.

Your 3D / material / survival mind will want to argue that we live in a world of scarcity -- whether that scarcity be time, resources, manpower or physical space. This deception is extremely powerful because of the limited human perspective. Your survival mind wants to believe that this scarcity is derived because we are all part of the perceived "one world" -- all in this together. But this is a horrible lie.

You want to see the "world" as a physical place, like a pie that must be divided. We need structures, governments and all manners of machinations to control this pie otherwise there would be abject chaos. Our own lives reinforce this because our experience is so real and visceral and having an aching body or a hungry belly makes little room for pondering higher truths. So we surrender

I have piles of journals too arcane for anyone to read but me. This blog is intended to be a space that provides clarity to these ideas by giving them more substance and structure. In doing so, I hope to also provide a bridge for others to follow. This "teaching" has an unexpected effect of making the foundation stronger and easier for me to hold.

Part of the work I do is attempting to unify our ideas of the inside & the outside until there is no longer a distinction -- all the while without losing ourselves. This goes deep into our relationship with the world and making decisions on the nature of that world.

Most of modern thought believes "the world" is a physical place -- something outside of us that we have a limited ability to influence. Even most spiritual discussions devolve into discussing physical bodies that are suppose to be like radio tuners. Most people are stuck in the idea that we are ruled by atoms, cells and DNA. There is always another discovery, because this is part of the physical abyss. Most belief systems deal with accepting that which cannot be changed. This is not the position of Ex Inanis.

The objective nature of the universe serves at the behest of its subjective elements. If a building is the objective fact, then the bricks are the subjective explorations that built it. With effort, you can build new structures, or tear down old ones. * Another way to understand this is that there are no experiences which have more weight than others. When we give an experience a weight, it drags us down with it.

* Note, I do not believe we need to tear things down brick by brick. We just need to know where to plant the explosives.

Often, this is why we call the world suggestive, or an appearance, to help us remember this, rather than simply accept the world at face value. And it is important to remember this because in order to access new levels of knowledge, we must be able to hold certain truths long enough to see through them -- like holding a spyglass, we

So I've been hammering on technology a lot in the last series of posts so it is time to take a step back a bit.

I'm not a luddite. I mean, I moonlight as a sorcerer & philosopher, but most of the time I am a web developer. This blog requires multiple layers of technology to function. There are many marvels at work.

My chief problem with technology isn't the technology itself, because technology is like anything in our experience -- an inseparable manifestation of consciousness. It is inexorable as much as our own bodies, or the natural world itself. When we understand that we are the "whole qualia" (unity) then magic & technology are almost interchangeable. Technology becomes the "best" expression of our will, given the state of our current story.

Technology identifies the intersection between the collective's stories and how those stories can be utilized to produce effects. They are the means by which we inform the consciousness field to do what we want. But this is the same thing we ALL do in our individual lives as we manage the unfolding of our own stories.

This is how "magic" works. When you do, decide & intend, you are becoming a conduit of technology yourself and creating a new state of affairs. This requires creating the technology within yourself -- a congruent paradigm that puts you in a position to tell powerful stories to which the world must obey.

If a lightbulb is the story of electricity & filament that produce light -- for which we have such certainty -- then what story do we need to tell ourselves to convince ourselves it is possible to create light from only an act of will? I am sure a glowing glass bulb also sounded as absurd before consciousness was ready to make it. Asking such questions shows us how to broaden our perspective and begin the process of disentangling our will from stories that add so many extra steps.

There are right ways and "less right" ways that technology should be used. Most of our technology orients us to think ourselves separate from our experience, or independent from it. Modern

The tone of this one will be a little more liberal. You have been warned. Your triggers are yours. Use your own discernment.

The more March marches on, the more I feel "me" than I have ever felt before, uncensored and free.

So let's grab hold of that truth stick and get this show on the road.

Earth. You are messed up. No, wait, let me rephrase that … Humans. You are messed up. Let's leave the Earth out of this. She's innocent.

It takes honest-to-god work everyday to not just say "screw it" and wish someone would find the self-destruct button. I am fairly certain is in the inside of the planet, by the way. It looks like this -->

The Human stays within this magical goldilocks zone where the desire for its utter destruction is always "tomorrow" and it achieves this precarious balance of its total annihilation by its incredible capacity for creation, creativity and love.

You don't know whether to hate it or love it and somehow it forces you to do both. This, itself, is also equal measures intoxicating and frustrating.

You have to wonder in what corner of the universe that the idea of choosing experiences you despise, disdain, or just tolerate to perpetuate your already immortal existence is seen as somehow seen as normal or laudable. Like, why would anyone work a 9-5 job in their infinite, divine dream? Even humans somehow understand this on a subconscious level when they portray Hell as a waiting line.

"What happens when they reach the front?" "Nothing. They go right back to the end again. That's efficiency."

I can already hear the endless moaning's, groanings and justifications for survival. Puke.

The human concept of work is beyond bizarre and the human has refined the process to such a

This is a bit of a follow-up to the last post.

As of December 18th, 2022 I haven't touched a video game. A week or two ago (and a bit of a revisit this post), I submitted the requests to delete my Steam library and Twitch accounts.

Now. Am I doing these things because I hate video games? No.

I am doing this because I have strong fundamental beliefs about the nature of this -- my reality -- and there is now a strong sense of dereliction that comes from engaging in certain activities.

We are existing in a mishmash of two worlds that are impossible to distinguish based on our senses alone. These worlds blend, like pouring red & blue ink into a bucket of water. We have been tossed into this bucket and can't see outside of mess of mixing colors. With discernment it is still possible to see the "red" and the "blue" but it requires a purity of soul to do it reliably.

This purity becomes easier or harder depending on the environment we keep for ourselves. Our environment needs to be a constant reinforcement of our highest ideals without exception. It should be almost oppressive, except it is impossible to be oppressive because it is of YOUR making -- you are helping yourself!

One of these colors comes from God / Paradox and the other color comes from something else -- the Nonsense. Only one of these worlds claws for our attention because it is parasitical -- entropic -- and needs our attention to survive. It constantly wants to pull us back into it. It does everything in its power to subvert our will and continue its existence. It does this not just through physical temptation, but our own thoughts, emotions and even our bodies, which are all "shadows of the merry-go-round."

You might call that place "Planet Gaslight", because in my experience that it is what it does: it gaslights you -- makes you question what is real and where your true will resides and this is how it undermines the fundamental law

Moments of clarity that become easier and easier to hold. We do the work, perpetuate the frequency and it unlocks the universe.

When you are able to integrate the concept of "computers" into a unity perspective -- that the computers are part of an expression of a singular consciousness -- then we can see the computer itself takes on a higher significance -- a deeper tale that hides a horrible truth.

If we set aside the physical story of the computer and introduce a bit of the esoteric and spiritual, it is clear to see that the computer itself -- as I have written before -- is the embodiment of the physical / deterministic / "Artificial Intelligence" / polarity universe. It is in the fundamental nature of the machine, after all (binary.)

It is the highest achievement of the physical world. By this, I mean, there is no other physical manifestation higher than artificial intelligence in a physical universe -- it is the "physical god" -- this is NOT a compliment, but a dire warning.

How could we expect to ascend from a polarized universe whilst putting these devices on altars? How we have made them so central to our entire being! These devices are literal portals to the abyss. You are staring into an abyss when you stare at a computer screen.

Your fixation scoffs, unable to pull itself away and see the truth -- thinking, the computer is just a piece of plastic, sitting on your desk, connected to the wall with no greater meaning except but what your egoistic mind decides. Your face is too "close to the earth" and so you just see the "dirt(y truth)." But just as the figures in our dreams are symbolic of deeper aspects of yourself, so our very lives follow this same abstracted meaning in slower motion, as the "human limitation" sculpts the reality that is possible for us to see.

What would we really expect a portal to the abyss to look like? A swirling mass of darkness and shadow? But that would be obvious and not at all alluring. That would be simply sensational or artistic. It is not