What do you think about potential? About the unknown?
I don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow. Is that a terror? Some think so.
I think it is beautiful.
No matter whether that tomorrow brings joy, happiness, or pain and suffering. I love it and I love exploring this universe — this dream — of ours in this way and none other. And everyday that passes I realize this was always my hidden calling for which I have been training myself.
This is the path I chose.
Ra, in the Law of One, believed that negative beings are the ones who have inverted their understanding of the universe as potential as a means of exploring how they are an aspect of God. I don’t quite agree, but I think he was onto something there, because adventurers don’t quite view the world like normal people.
Every adventurer, every gamer, every hero from every fantasy from every story is a being who prefers the unknown over the security of a collective. One collective isn’t enough. They want to visit them all.
Adventurers rally together through their own collective of self-sovereignty — of independence and wanderlust — but until they find that place or camaraderie through trials and tribulations, this path is isolating, lonely and brutal.
An adventurer is called to this life. It chooses you. Anyone not on the path doesn’t quite understand because they have different values. They prefer the civilization over the freedom. Others see a world they want to improve and stabilize — to create a home — but an adventurer carries their home with them.
An adventurer is a being who is values freedom to such an extreme that they effectively outcast themselves.
Some want a guarantee, or a promise, or insurance before they give themselves permission to live. We think we can somehow collect a debt, or borrow from the future (or past), but the universe settles all of its accounts in every moment of every day and we are the ones deciding how it should do so. We hand it the tallies and it pays us precisely what we ask.
Everything is always as it should be. The universe always breaks even and we must deal with the result we have bought.
Life is a forever game convincing ourselves we can change this fundamental truth, but all we can do is move the numbers around so it takes a little longer to go back to zero.
How much time do we have before we leave this dream for another? It is inevitable, not because this is death, but because we can never “be” zero. A human life, the planet Earth — these are just stops along an endless ever-changing journey and so they are no real boundaries. They are neither beginnings, nor ends, just another figure to balance, or a place to visit.
Why do we wake up here and not somewhere else?
I wake up here because there is no where else to wake up. I am the “best” version of myself I have ever experienced, whether that is good or bad and both are desirable and permissible.
Do you believe you will die someday, or do you believe as I do?
I can die to you.
You can die to me.
But I can never die to myself.
My thanks to an another adventurer for these statements for which I no longer have the reference but stuck with me forever.
Consider how this shows where “you” reside and how we are never in conflict with each other.
Our waking lives are created based on what we value and continue to value. The universe looks at what we value and then pays us exactly the amount so that we break-even.
Some people choose to value that which brings them joy, while others value that which brings them misery. The universe pays you the same either way and it takes no more effort to write your wishes down versus your sorrows.
Emotions that feel “heavier” or “costlier” are that way on purpose, because over our many lives we have learned that those things literally are more expensive — they create poorer realities (poorer experiences) and so we have taught ourselves to value them less by making them cost more. We choose the pain to try to teach ourselves to stop buying it — to avoid it.
Feelings, in other words, are like the guardians we have sculpted through many lives of experience to protect our highest good.
The “cheapest” thing in the universe is what? It is love. It is always “free.” It is free to give and free to receive. And you are on an endless quest to align yourself to it without ever fully reaching it, because if you did, the game would be over. When you make this apprehension, you fall in love with the journey, not the destination.
This moment, right now, is a perfect accounting. You are whole & complete. And you are viewing not just yourself, but the world and the universe, from this position — from these time, space and dimensional coordinates — in perfect order.
Your experience is set of coordinates upon all of existence and you are always in the process of choosing where to navigate. These coordinates persist for as long as you allow them to persist, including beyond the scope of your human life …
Where will you “land” when you leave this experience for another?
How much of your life do you remember? How much of your day do you remember?
There is so much of your life that goes by and fades from your memory, just as dreams do even within a span of hours or minutes. How much can you really recall from just a few hours ago? Do you remember the true minutia, or is it all broad strokes?
Look back upon your life and you will see that there was much more time that was lost than was kept.
What have you chosen to keep? I can tell you.
You have chosen to keep whatever brings you to where your heart wants to be …
And if life has given you more bad than good, then have you kept resentment, or anger as part of those memories, or did you choose to keep the lessons or information they taught? Did you use them as signposts, a map, or a compass, or did you ignore them or throw them in the dirt?
Whatever you chose to keep is exactly what you needed.
You are a ship always moving towards the destination you wish and the universe is always showing you “what you need to see” because you can’t see “the whole universe.”
This is the life of the eternal adventurer.
Whether you fight & resist, or surrender and go with the flow, the accounting is always right — it is always “zero” — and your experience is always re-ordered to your intentions.
The “delay” is also part of your intentions, because without the delay, you would have no limitations again — back to zero — and thus no experience. And so the universe is reborn in each moment as an elaborate trick that is always falling back to zero.
The most challenging part of being alive is being able to “see” what you need to see without becoming victimized by it. When you victimize yourself, it is always some spectrum of abdication or denial of the balance sheet you have hand delivered to the universe.
That is, you can never accuse the universe of short-changing you, because if you do, the universe will simply deliver the experience of being short-changed — you will be upset and miserable at feeling as though you have lack, or obstacles, or suffering, but the accounting will still be zero and the universe will simply point and tell you: “Look, right there — you said you wanted 5 helpings of suffering.”
And the “right there” will not be in the sheet, it will be right in front of you as your proof.
“What You Need to See” can be the most infuriating thing in the world when you don’t know what you are writing down on your “balance sheet.” The only way to avoid victimizing yourself — to read the whole balance sheet so nothing is hidden — is to be able to see yourself.
When you can see yourself, you can allow yourself to be part of the accounting without instructing the universe to omit you from the balance. You can’t actually be omitted from the balance, but you can tell the universe you want the experience of that and so it is so!
We all omit ourselves — allow potential — to some degree because omnipotence = zero. And what fun is omnipotence?
If you omit either the universe or yourself, you create an abdication that will always make you feel trapped or victimized. If you fall into your ego by overvaluing it, you will continually tell that the universe that it must also value these things and so it limits how the universe may do its accounting.
I am going to give you a cheat code on how to identify yourself. This is the only cheat that exists in the whole wide universe. If you try to cheat any other way, you will only cheat yourself.
You are love.
Love is the eternal flow — or what I call “will.” The observer. The chooser. When you are in your power — you love. That is it.
Love is the only thing that allows you view anything without bias. Anything else will create a bias which must be accounted for and brought to zero. Love is the “zero” state which allows you to access your omnipotence at any time while still being “in the game.”
Everything else is part of coordinates — including people. This does not make people unreal, but rather you don’t know where those people “are” (hint: never judge them.) You only know where YOU are, which is “love.” Always love.
Put yourself in love and you will see everything with perfect clarity. It is your ego that you see, feel or hear when you are standing in love whether it prompts you to react and be angry, or be inspired and marshal on.
Love allows you to detach from the “weight” of your experience so that you may freely allow anything in or out without blocking it.
I felt compelled to write this article because I want to say …
If there is anyone in your life that you love — I mean, truly love — never let them go, even if it is just memories. Even if they forget themselves, as some may, you remember for them. Don’t allow yourself to forget through the mundane or the meaningless, or even through pain or burden.
Hold onto love, even if you just keep it inside, no matter what it takes. The world may come for it but your job is to protect it from everything, even yourself.
We live this life forgetting most of our accounting of it and it is marked, I think, by moments where we experience love and remember truly what “we” are. More and more, I know just how rare these moments are and even rarer people we love.
People come & go, but when you find someone that you truly love, it doesn’t matter what they do. Nothing about it is rational. Even the pain becomes a different kind of expression of love to which you happily “pay.” Love never dies.
If you have ever tried to move on from someone you truly love, you will find it is impossible. You don’t move on. You learn to live with it, because there is no cost too high to hold the place within that allows them to come home again and again to you — to be be reborn alongside you for all time in the infinite expanse of the “unknown.”
It doesn’t matter what happened before today, because it is just a fading dream for which you are the captain. A dream that is reborn again and again forever. No matter where you sail, the love is always there, lighting the way.
Sorry I have not posted more. I will be trying to make some updates soon.