You aren’t among the dead.

I know you are living because you still feel.

The dead no longer feel.

You think you are among them ... but I know you are faking it.

You are wearing a mask because you fear what is underneath.

The dead have no mask. They rotted away for all to see.

I see the pain inside of you. You cannot hide it, because I also feel it.

You see two worlds. A world you love and a world you live in.

But there is no difference between these places except that you have omitted yourself from one of them.

It is in the separation of these worlds where you live.

And so if you want to live in the world that you love, then you must love both yourself and the world.

The world is always whole and complete as you have painted it.

The dead -- the mortal -- only see opportunity and conquest in this void that you have made between worlds, because they are looking for themselves.

How do you love yourself if you cannot find yourself?

The dead fill the place where you have left and are showing you how to find yourself -- to see what you need to see.

They are forcing you to see the love you have for them, but not for yourself.

You have compassion for the whole world, but when you have omitted yourself, the world has none for you.

And so the dead eat the dead, looking for the love you have hidden.

The dead are as forever and eternal as you are -- and they will never stop coming for you until you stop coming for yourself.

And if you cannot see yourself, you cannot find where


Behavior of the Dead

When you set boundaries with people, you are informing the universe to return your power of story writing to you. You are ejecting a character from your story who has stolen the show, or turned it into a genre you don't want to read.

For the authors out there or anyone who has wrote a story, you may understand how characters want to write their own stories in your book. They have their own voices and desires. Some of them try to steal the show, even when it doesn't serve the story, or even when it breaks the story and as an author it is your job to stop them, or, when needed, remove them for the sake of the story's verisimilitude. Look up the phrase "Kill your darlings."

This isn't to assert that reality cannot skip, or break, or perform miracles -- that your book can't contain magic -- but that some fixture is required to maintain the coherence of the world without it falling into useless chaos. That fixture is YOU.

Your verisimilitude is your own integrity. It is your life. It is your ability to maintain your flow & happiness and ascend to a higher state of being.

As as ascendant, you should be unifying the "here" and "there" and understanding there is no difference between the physical world and the dream world. The dream world is your perception of God that is less fettered and so becomes a kind of chaotic mixture of everything that is part of your story that is coming & going.

This article will not be about dreams, but the better you understand yourself and can "distill" yourself out of your dreams, the better you can figure out what is yours and what is not.

And in this understanding you should understand there is no conventional reality that unfolds outside of your own experience -- just a kind of eternal battle of terms & conditions, or figuring out the spatial & time coordinates of your next destination from where and only there you have an "experience."

That doesn't mean that the universe isn't unfolding in what is


Integrity & the Dead Collective

Be sure to read The Order of Creation which was posted on the same day as this.

No amount of fame or fortune will save you from having no integrity. What do I mean by this?

Let me first clarify integrity.

What I mean by integrity in this context is not what you may traditionally associate with the word, although that it is still relevant. Integrity in this context means coherence. It means congruence. It means flow. Harmony. Having your head & heart aligned. Authenticity. Making decisions without remorse, regret, or doubt, or taking full accountability for consequences even if you cannot achieve that. It means operating within your truth or paradigm in a way that produces little to no friction, or being able to transmute the friction if it does.

Conventional or developing science may identify integrity as the stability of a toroidal or magnetic field. More esoteric or spiritual works might call this your aura, frequency or your vibe. Traditional philosophy might just consider it personal integrity, honor, truth and so on.

Anyone reading this blog knows I am not a big fan of human "science", but if it helps you to understand, then it serves my purposes. When you begin to unify yourself and your experience, then "science" is just part of the, let's say -- spatial coordinates which you find yourself -- whilst knowing there is no such thing as space or time.

This does not have to be a moral evaluation, but you must understand that virtues like compassion, patience, faith and love are ingredients like salt and pepper when realms are created.

Compassion = allowance of being & docking. Compassion allows us to play together and without it ships cannot dock.

Patience = not obstructing your own will and is also related to the construction of a buffer that delays will that creates illusions of sequence for stability and linearity.

These are just a few examples of "world building" requirements. If you omit them, this is difference between a professional


The Order of Creation

The order of creation is Will (Love) -> Intention -> Story -> Feeling.

There is no actual "order" as these elements are all inexorable, intertwined and unified, but this ordering is illustrative.

There is no such thing as "energy." There is no "physical" world. These are all derived functions from the above ordering. The physical world is an "illusion" produced by an effect of feeling, but feeling arises after intention and after story. The word illusion here is simply illustrative because it for all intents and purposes there is nothing else in reality but illusion -- so if it is all illusion then that is "reality."

The de-lusional -- the ones actually in illusion -- are those that are trapped by the sequential.

Feeling as "last" in the ordering, feeling is subservient to the verisimilitude required by story. Stories that contrived or badly written are still "superior" in the ordering and thus are higher masters than feelings and your world will obey the story before it obeys the feeling.

Hence, why you seemingly cannot avoid feeling hungry, or pain, because you are obeying the story, which you already chose and are re-choosing in every moment of every day.

Similarly, your unseen reality will contrive and cheat you until you learn to stand in your own truth and protect the boundaries of your "dream template" because this is how you experience victimization. Victimization will cause your "unseen" reality to cheat you whenever it can because you don't have the awareness to stop yourself from misusing your own will.

Another way to think about this is that when you are fully within your power -- or agency -- you feel "at one" or in flow with the world. Consider that wherever you find yourself right now is your highest level of lucid mastery you have ever had. It perfectly represents your level of agency within your stable "dream."

The story is not static but a dynamic moving window. The window is truth. Whilst within the window, this truth is objective. That which is outside the window is subjective. Subjective and


The Spirit of the Adventurer

What do you think about potential? About the unknown?

I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. Is that a terror? Some think so.

I think it is beautiful.

No matter whether that tomorrow brings joy, happiness, or pain and suffering. I love it and I love exploring this universe -- this dream -- of ours in this way and none other. And everyday that passes I realize this was always my hidden calling for which I have been training myself.

This is the path I chose.

Ra, in the Law of One, believed that negative beings are the ones who have inverted their understanding of the universe as potential as a means of exploring how they are an aspect of God. I don't quite agree, but I think he was onto something there, because adventurers don't quite view the world like normal people.

Every adventurer, every gamer, every hero from every fantasy from every story is a being who prefers the unknown over the security of a collective. One collective isn't enough. They want to visit them all.

Adventurers rally together through their own collective of self-sovereignty -- of independence and wanderlust -- but until they find that place or camaraderie through trials and tribulations, this path is isolating, lonely and brutal.

An adventurer is called to this life. It chooses you. Anyone not on the path doesn't quite understand because they have different values. They prefer the civilization over the freedom. Others see a world they want to improve and stabilize -- to create a home -- but an adventurer carries their home with them.

An adventurer is a being who is values freedom to such an extreme that they effectively outcast themselves.

Some want a guarantee, or a promise, or insurance before they give themselves permission to live. We think we can somehow collect a debt, or borrow from the future


State of the Garden (February)

I found my old camera and took some proper photos. Here you go. Betcha never saw celery in its natural habitat -- you know, out of the grocery store.

Also shown here are arugula (one flowering and lots of others), two types of lettuce, swiss & rainbow chard, bluebonnets (not yet bloomed), cilantro (a little wild), rosemary, and my greenhouse which I cleaned up for Spring.


The Mask of Money

Money is part of the scene.

What do I mean by the scene?

The scene is the moving frame of your unified life. And what is your unified life? What is UNITY?

UNITY, in this context, is the unification of all of your experience. This includes your five senses, your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions, definitions, meanings, memories, the ideas of others or others themselves, the world or universe or space that is unseen to you, your senses of intangible or "subtle" things like time, distance or movement, the relationships between all of these things — everything that occurs in your “qualia.” There are no exceptions.

You may have a problem understanding unity if you make arbitrary exceptions for tough concepts like people ("The Other"), or the agency these people possess, or their memories or their influence or impact on your life. Other tough ones can include nature itself and your bodily health.

Nothing can be exempted. Nothing. OK? Nothing. Not even nothing itself.

Money is not something you can pursue or acquire. You are not in the scene.

You cannot possess it, anymore than it can possess you. You cannot separate, or divide, something without fundamentally changing its nature which is always whole.

Should you dedicate yourself to the acquisition of money, you have fallen off of your throne in order to become part of your scene, rather than the director of that scene. I call this fixation and some beliefs call it density. Other philosophies may measure it in terms of wisdom or a scale of harmony or balance you hold within as you become more actualized and are able to distinguish where you truly reside.

Once you become part of the scene, then the scene becomes your director and you have lost your power. The harder you commit to being part of the scene, the more entangled and dependent you will become. This entanglement hides the path to your true


Feeling good.

Let's get some historical records going in here and see where we are next year.

2-8-25 -- I say, I haven't aged a day.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Edwsf-8F3sI

A little on Starseeds

Okay, this is going to be a way different type of article.

I love stones & crystals and I am using them also as an excuse to research & talk about Starseeds a little bit -- so I am going to gather up some information as a way of educating both myself and you reader!

This article will not address the characteristics of different Starseeds, as it is a subject matter with surprising depth and that just isn't the style of this website. I am also not versed enough to talk about it off the cuff.

If you would like to know more about the Starseeds, I suggest this article -->

https://thebalancedblonde.com/2022/11/09/all-starseed-types-lets-get-into-it/

These are the most well-known Starseed origins :

Pleiadian, Taygetan, Sirian, Arcturian, Andromedan, Orion, Mintaken, Lemurian, Venusian, Lyran, Lightworkers, Indigo/Crystal/Rainbow children

Do I consider myself a Starseed?

My life has been bizarre, unusual and even at times orchestrated, like I have a mission or purpose to fulfill. I have had severe and unusual problems connecting to other people, like I did not understand just basic concepts that seemed natural to them. I don't mean just being shy, but like I did not comprehend sort of natural impulses or behaviors.

I was often ostracized, misunderstood and bullied because of this as if there was something dysfunctional with me, even though that is never how I felt. I had a strong sense of self even as a child and for most of the time I just felt like I didn't belong.

I did not have a strong concept of "separation." I always thought everyone was suppose to be your friend and that everyone had compassion for each other. I was ridiculed for this attitude all the time. I had to learn the hard way over and over that isn't how it works here "on Earth"

My life has been numerous, countless examples that are similar or more nuanced than this that have


Identities & Gender Warfare

Alright, I am going to attempt to make a dent in this topic.

Imagine you are carrying a backpack. This backpack contains everything you need in order to live (have an experience -- qualia.) You can only hold so much inside of it (buffer.) If you put too much inside of it, it weighs you down (makes you feel burdened) and slows down your experience. It reduces how far you can travel and makes it more burdensome to get there.

If you keep your backpack light, you have a spring in your step and you can get to where you want to go quicker. It is also easier for you to see where you going, or reach places that you give you good vantage points.

"Where you want to go" are your intentions (destination) and will.

The world within which you are traveling can be considered to be your soul -- a library of all of your eternal experiences -- plus the souls (and their libraries) of all other co-creators, that are offering you "suggestions" on how to add, remove or use resources from your backpack.

Let us imagine two different travelers.

One traveler fills their backpack with goods they have purchased from town. All the best and finest adventuring gear. The finest rations. There is no scenario that this traveler is unprepared to deal with. Their backpack is heavy and overburdened, but they are "ready for anything!"

The other traveler purchases some essentials, but plans to forage or live off the land -- to hunt -- in other words -- this traveler intends to fill their backpack with what they find along the way.

Let us consider the fundamental intentions hidden underneath both of these travelers.

The first traveler though well-meaning is carrying a backpack full of fear & dependencies. He does not trust himself to forage, or hunt, but relies on the goods and products of others. And he feels so unprepared for the journey ahead, he