The work of Ex Inanis began as soon as I was put on this Earth. I have been doing this work since I first took breath. I knew from as early as Kindergarten that I was different and that I was here to do something — I had an intense lucid awareness that other kids just seemed to lack. I spent 40 years of life figuring it out.
The actual “product” that is the Ex Inanis website and articles came about in a phoenix-moment in March of 2022 where my life had been burned down to the ground. In almost an instant, I felt I had lost everything. I still had all my earthly possessions but it didn’t matter — something far worse had happened. I had felt like I lost my soul.
A desire for peace, a desire for a family, my health, the idea that other people even existed — all lost. I felt like I was the only person in the universe. I had an existential angst so terrible that I was worried that there were worse places than death than I could end up.
All the things — all the precise things — I had ever wished for were taken from me and it was through a combination of help from loved ones and sheer stubborn will that I rebuilt. Between the years of 2022 and 2023, I felt like I had re-lived my entire life up until then all over again except super-compressed. It was brutal.
Ex Inanis was created as a way — a necessity — to reclaiming my soul. But it was also a work I had begun a long time ago.
I feel like my life has been a giant, but necessary, detour. I feel like my life is only now beginning after a prolonged, soul-crushing war.
What else do I do?
To keep up Earthly appearances, I offer web development & design services. I am pretty good at it, even though I more or less despise computers & technology. Ironic, right?
In the evening, I masquerade as an artist, hoping to one day make the mask real and close the doors of my web business forever.
What do you do for fun?
I listen to a lot of music, draw, garden, spend time in nature & meditate. I occasionally play a small selection of video games.
