Mastery_Legacy

How do you make your decisions? Do you plan for tomorrow? Do you consider yesterday?

You shouldn’t.

You already know everything you need to know right now. The moment you step forward or back — you have become lost. Much like the moment you argue with anything or anyone — you lose.

Tomorrow doesn’t exist. Today depends on tomorrow — not the other way around. What you do today does not produce “tomorrow” but what you expect for tomorrow DOES produce today, because tomorrow is just a story you are holding in your mind. That is how the illusion of time is created.

It is the heavy burden of yesterday & today that creates the “sequence” of your “now” experience that is so misleading. It is the expectations of this sequence that keeps you moving from one page to the next, rather than skipping ahead or changing books.

Reality does not divide neatly into yesterday, today, or tomorrow, but the rising of the sun & moon, the tracking of calendars and the outputs of clocks give clever devices to fooling you. When you sleep, you loosen the reins of your iron grip for a little while on this game you are playing and let the universe play with you a little more freely.

When you understand that numbers on a clock and the sun in the sky are part of a “program” deep within yourself then you understand your entire experience is “you.”

All of these things produce expectations, habits and motions in which you continually repeat “sequence” even when the sequence no longer serves you, or turns into suffering. It creates the “buffer” of reality, like a boomerang you are throwing in every moment. But the throwing of the boomerang is the mistake in the first place — not a design to glorify.

You are the clocks, the sun, the moon and the stars. You are the land, the houses, the people. But they are also themselves and they join you at your request. And they are everywhere and nowhere. You are what is happening on the “computer screen” of your experience that unfolds in the boundaries of your senses, including what unfolds in the privacy of your mind.

With this apprehension of Unity, time loses all meaning, because in the totality of “you” time loses the context it requires to work. When you remove the stage, what does time measure? Time requires a start and an end — an introduction and an epilogue — but you have no such thing and are no such thing.

Only “segments” can be measured. Only stories that require sequence, because time is just a coordinate between two points — a reference. You are imposing this upon yourself because you value this sequence — this stability. But continuum and sequence are not the same thing and an immortal chooses sequence when it serves him and discards it when it does not — while maintaining his continuum.

“What” is deciding to maintain this continuum over sequence? That is the real you. It is silent. It does not speak. It does not think.

Time is part of the “scene” like a leaf on a tree. The time has a meaning, just as the leaf has a meaning, but only in the context of the story that it appears within.

Time requires an agreement of a “place” to monitor — it requires an agreement of segments and divides — of history and expectations. But what happens when this agreement is broken, disregarded or discarded? What happens when this agreement is offered from different perspectives — different people? Then the stage becomes interchangeable. And if the stage is interchangeable then time is just part of the scene, like a tree standing in a field. You cannot perceive the tree without the ground and the background. It is just paint on a canvas.

A clock becomes merely an interchangeable photograph, measuring nothing but a memory, or a place or description in your imagination.

If you go to work everyday at the same time — say 6AM — is it that you are responding to the stimulus of the alarm clock going off at 6AM, or surrendering your will to a “play” in which you feel the sensation of waking, getting dressed and driving to work? You are not the scene and the “time” is part of the scene that you keep agreeing to play out. You are behind the scene. Your sense of agency & lucidity come after, because they are already baked into what you “are” and they are forever and constant.

It is just as fake as arriving sharply at a theater production at 7PM and there is a clock on stage as part of the story that reads 2PM. Neither the clock on stage, as you watch in the audience, or the clock you used to arrive at the theater is any more real. They are both part of the same scene — YOUR scene.

An immortal does not give a second thought to the idea of tomorrow, because the immortal is completely aligned to his expression of life and what he wants to experience. And so this aligns him to others of like-kind. To spare one moment worrying about tomorrow opens the door to creating delay — to misusing your will in a way that creates extra time for yourself.

The plan? You already know the plan, because you can only do what you can do right now. What else could you do? You must rise from bed and live. You must make “decisions” whether this is to sit still or move forward, or dwell on the yesterday or tomorrow that don’t exist. You do not live in the future — you live right now.

What do you want to do?

You could say that it is an abuse of your awesome imaginative power to do anything but engage with your immediate reality because you already know what you want to do if you simply stop procrastinating, rationalizing and arguing with the “devil.”

Tomorrow means you are distrusting yourself to “get there.” You already know what you want and how to execute it. So why the doubt? Your doubts create additional explorations of time which you have to burn out. They create anchors — debts — that have to be paid. Karma is simply the effects of your own will you have forgotten about. Your will that have you have disowned that comes to remind you that it is yours with a slap in the face.

Dwelling on the past is like worrying about last night’s dreams. It is already gone and cannot touch you … unless you agree to let it. Unless you reinvest in it, like — what? A habit? A behavior? A responsibility? An obligation? The strength of yesterday is another story that you value because it creates higher highs and lower lows.

You should learn to keep what you treasure and throw out what you do not — but most humans are conditioned to throw their trash in the same place as their treasure — their “One World.” They do not think to return their trash to the cosmos — to the universe — to God. To just “let it go” as if it no longer existed. No, the trash “lives on” in the one world — rather than in the mind of God (the universal library.) It becomes “historical.” It lingers there, lurking, needing explanations, needing attention, needing resolution — perhaps even demanding.

But there is a difference between history and remembering. God does not forget. Only a human writes history because he wishes it to be part of his story — to influence him — to bind him. And history is fallible and God’s memory is not.

And this trash — perhaps once treasure, perhaps valued by others, it is not meant to be an evaluation from any perspective but your own — haunts you because you have not truly let it go. It is there — buried under the surface, because you still think you “live” in the world, right?

You “live” in New York, or Tokyo, or California, or England … right?

No, you do not — because you read this blog. You understand you are “behind” your senses, or even behind the observation itself. You “are.” A player does not “live” inside the computer monitor when he plays a game. This isn’t about “ego.” This is you understanding that what happens on your “monitor” is yours. The players playing the game may move pieces on your screen but even if they piss you off, you cannot punch them through the monitor — you only hurt yourself.

You have not earned the right to call yourself a player. You can’t turn the game off. This is the work that we do — that I do. We are working backwards from the mind of the player. If you keep trying to jump out of the screen, or punch the screen, you will never escape. You are just Mario going from tube to tube. Just … lean back and see you were playing all along. Put the controller down.

Death is not this end. Death is a change of state — but death is not enough. You must choose your own change of state. You must choose your own “death!” But you have probably given away this power too — letting the world decide how you should die.

Again, how do you make decisions?

If you work backwards and are living in the ideal world — how do you make your decisions? This reveals the character you must embody for yourself. You must “fake it until you make it.” You must learn the behavior & the mindset even if it seems unreachable or crazy.

You must live in your ideals as a full-time job. You cannot compromise, because this sets you back. Because your soul — your spirit — will remember and will carry your decisions forward. And what is the span of a single life in comparison to that of eternity?

Do you visit doctors? To prescribe your health? Then you have disowned your will and given it to these doctors to play out the experience of being “treated.” And that is fine — it does not make doctors evil, or wrong, or unhelpful, only that you value this exchange — this drama — more than you value retaining ownership over your health.

You place value on the experiences of being “sick”, being “treated” and “recovering” more than the suffering it would take to overcome these stories for good. You have decided you are not strong enough to prove that your health is in your own hands — you simply do not believe your will is this powerful and well — so it is (not that powerful)! So you need tests and pills and time. Your flesh must knit and your bones must mend.

Where does Mario go when he “dies?” Nowhere, because Mario can’t die anymore than you can.

If you do not value this drama, then why engage with it? A fear of suffering, perhaps? Understandable — most of us cannot maintain a perfect record of choices and I am not an exception. But it is persistence that makes us idealists, not perfection or “mistakes.”

What you value can — and should — be dynamic. You should not put yourself in a straight-jacket.

You say, well, everyone gets sick, or everyone dies, but you are still thinking in terms of a single life. What if you thought in terms of many lives? Or one continual life that never ended? Have you actually ever experienced being “dead?” How do you know you will die, then?

Would you still compromise if you had to make decisions for more than one life? What does your mind look like now? How much more gravity do decisions have when you know every decision may delay peace, or extend suffering? There is a saying: “If not now, when?”

Why do I push creation over consumption so hard on this blog? Because you “are what you eat” and if you do nothing but eat, then you are consumption. And if you understand the discussion above — that you are the whole world — then the whole world is EATING YOU because you are EATING YOURSELF.

What is the only thing an immortal has to eat? His own continuum. You can’t stop being immortal, but you can forget it. You can victimize yourself and play pretend. You can become lost. You can mistake yourself for the sequence instead of the continuum ; the symptom, rather than the cause.

Just how dependent is your life on “the world?” How dependent is your mental sanity? Those “dependencies” are where you have hidden away your will. Why do you negotiate? All you have to do is confront them.

If the expression of your “physical” body is entirely dependent on the stories you are holding within (because it is), when do you decide that you have had enough “terrorism” holding your health hostage? Are you not wasting your time in comfort & complacency by letting something other than your immediate will decide?

What do comfort & complacency cost you? If they cost you anything, they are too expensive.

You don’t need to believe in “reincarnation” to understand the incredible value of living as an idealist. It takes around 5-10 years of jumping off the deep end within a paradigm to show tangible progress. Yeah. That long.

Try not to consider this an expression of time, but expression of how tangled stories require unavoidable resolution. Can you boil water without first putting water in a pot and starting a fire? These are stories with hundreds of little dependencies, rules and expectations — not things that “require time.”

As soon as you measure these things with time, you are creating a boundary. You are creating a reference that didn’t exist before you measured it. The reference itself has a feeling or expectation of duration and you are giving yourself a noose.

Why do we talk about concepts like surrender, faith, acceptance? Because these destroy time.

Apprehension and intellectual understanding is woefully insufficient. It doesn’t get into your bones without obsessive contemplation, practice, and persistence. You have to go “all in” as a true believer before any crops yield.

Anything less keeps you in the same place. Your intellect and ability to understand is useless. Your soul / spirit does not operate on that level. You are not a computer no matter how much you pretend. You cannot “reach” the soul with just brains. And so approaching spirituality as an academic will get you exactly no where.

Or you can just keep being OK with what is comfortable to you. It has worked out for (likely) thousands of years. But I didn’t create this website so I could go along with the “status quo.”

Making decisions as an “immortal” or for your own eternity often means making decisions that are uncomfortable rather than convenient. It means letting go of aspects of yourself that make it easier to remain stuck in repetitive cycles. It means breaking boundaries that you may be holding onto for dear life.

Does that seem like common sense or cheap wisdom? Pop psychology? No, it is a question of scope. Are you making decisions with the expectations of living for another day? Another month? Another year? What does your mind look like when you are making decisions as if you will never die? As if time is irrelevant? As if this is just one never ending story? Can you handle living like that?

Even if you know a story will take 1000 years to unfold, do you start to work on it — or do you say screw it, because your impact is too little, or you aren’t certain you will see the results? Do you just become a “dweller” who convinces themselves they are content in their cave? Perhaps you are a little more awake and decide to “coast” instead — developing a kind of stockholm’s syndrome for letting the world bully you around.

If something seems dangerous or even life-threatening, do you do it and decide to retain authority over your death, or do you choose fear — and allow something else to decide?

Are you confusing a certain threshold of suffering or pain with “death?” Can you remember having ever experienced death? So how can you speak so definitively about its inevitability? Have you considered it is your belief in its certainty that erases your mind — breaks your continuum — when you feel “life is too much to bear” and your back breaks? That you have disowned this “drama” of death for you to experience something impossible?

Here is a riddle for you.

Though you can never have it, you can give it
When others have it, they can’t keep it
If you ever receive it, you won’t know it

What am I?

DEATH

Evil is in the word itself — inverted life. Anti-life. Evil is what I call “Nonsense” because this is what evil produces — nonsense, the inane/insane, chaos, anti-creation.

Evil is not destruction. Evil is not death. Evil is not “negative” — like wrath, or envy. Evil is not the opposite of good, or the opposite of positive.

Evil is that which breaks down the coherence of consciousness. It produces patterns that displace or remove the ability of life to exist. It is a kind of glitch produced by attempting to create an impossible state, or the confluence of states that are incompatible — thus creating a space for evil.

It is not easy to point and say: “That is evil.” Evil requires skillful discernment, but when one begins to comprehend the basic requirements of life, it becomes easier to identify the things which cause life to suffocate.

Stagnation is often an indication of evil, for example. Excess is also often a hiding place of evil.

If I had to summarize evil, it is the abdication of will. When one steps off their throne, evil sits on it. This is a spectrum and not a binary. You can “partially” abdicate.

Come get some.

But let us be clear: evil has no agency. Evil is anti-agency. Evil does not think, or plan, or strategize. It does not experience. Experience happens *to it.* Evil victimizes itself. It is how you “try” to experience pretending you do not have free will, but this creates an impossible state which creates “glitches” which you experience as a breakdown of reality.

As soon as you begin to see enemies or adversaries, you are disowning your will so that you may experience these challenges and opposition. If you blame, judge or ridicule others, you have fallen off your throne and allowing evil to play — and evil will always create chaos.

Evil is not capable of creation because creation requires the presence of you — of your will — on the throne. It can, however, pillage your library (your experience, your memories, your hopes & dreams) and become a kind of doppelganger. Undead.

People who act as obstacles in your life are always examples of your own evil coming out to play and being reflected back to you, whether it is because of inadequacy, or because you unconsciously think you deserve punishment (“karma.”) You cannot escape your own verisimilitude without doing the work to unravel it. This is not being done to you, but rather a byproduct of your own choices.

Since the Earth realm is constructed with a kind of “buffer”, evil has a lot of places to hide. Evil often manifests as unlikely obstacles in your life, random chaos, or sudden bad turn arounds. It can easily be represented by people turning on you out of the blue, or unfortunate events. It can manifest in your body, depending on the stories you are selling yourself.

A reminder that nothing is physical. There is no physical realm. Your waking state stabilizes the human collective as a place you think is Earth and it is upon Earth where you project your inner play.

Evil is not the work of spirits, or devils, but the incoherence in your own consciousness. Evil represents a flaw in your paradigm where your will is not executing right — where “energy” (the pace or thrust of the story) is becoming stagnant, or blocked, resulting in repeating and decaying patterns. Bad story that results in victimizing yourself. Loss of ownership.

Earth exists in what I might call fundamental reality. Fundamental reality is a step above abject chaos. It is held together by our fledgling consciousness which have established orders and patterns which impose a consistent lucidity upon the chaos of creation. These create confluences which you might call “planets” or realms which the collective has agreed — in a unconscious/non-awakened fashion — to share and uphold.

Fundamental reality is inherently a kind of mirror reality, because you are always writing stories at the “apex” of your ability. That is, all the things and all the people that appear there are perfectly fulfilling your expectations (even the ones you hide from yourself because you don’t want to look at them). Because of this, Earth would be considered a kind of lower realm, because it is heavily subject to the flaws of imperfect consciousness rather than operating from a more established universal paradigm (aka “heaven.”)

To be clear, because this will confuse most people — “The Other” is not exempt from this process. Most of us have a strong belief that The Other has independent agency, but that is just a story you value and thus impart to the actors in your story to make it more believable for yourself.

If you believe people are boring, they will be boring. If someone makes you angry, it is because you are writing a story to get yourself to experience anger. If you want to experience love, you need to write a story that allows you experience it. If you have people that attack you, it is because you are seeing enemies or fear for your safety.

The further you awaken, the harder it will be to ignore that The Other is somehow “part of you” as they will have an eerie habit of perfectly reflecting whatever is on your mind or what is going on in your life. If you wish to achieve a higher degree of unity with your qualia, you will have to learn to integrate with The Other in harmonious ways.

Note, this is a strong reminder that free will cannot be violated. Removing agency simply creates puppets in your own realm. Not recommended. Your intent should be to understand why it is important for the Other to retain agency and “be.”

The Peter principle is a concept in management developed by Laurence J. Peter which observes that people in a hierarchy tend to rise to “a level of respective incompetence”

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peter_principle

Reality is not hierarchical, but we impose hierarchy upon it in order to create a stable experience for ourselves to grow and create a more stable consciousness. In other words, some people are smarter, some are stupid, some are middling. There are “more good people” and “less good people.” We create spectrums in order to play. The broader we are, the broader the spectrum, the broader the challenges and the more dire the need becomes to have a better personal paradigm. You may find a critical need to narrow your spectrum to protect your sanity.

If everything was equal, there would be no diversity. No life. Void. So “sameness” is an example of evil when taken to extreme, or an anti-life pattern. Similarly, too much diversity creates raw chaos.

You must understand you are the absolute master of the universe. You are just a master of a small, limited universe, because that is the best you have achieved. But you can take comfort in this, because this also means there is nothing “better” than you — other than God — because of that same “Peter” principle.

You are also responsible for creating a cogent paradigm that creates the experience you desire and this especially includes how you value others and their role in the fundamental fabric of reality.

We will talk about spirits, guides and “higher beings” in future articles, but I will leave with this warning: be careful who you allow to backdoor your will. Do not submit to “terrorism.”

Any prison you create for yourself can be undone, because you already have the key. Any boss can be fired. There is no being that can simply swoop in and abduct you out of your realm, unless you surrender your authority to such a concept. There are no angels or devils that can mislead you, other than your willingness to be mislead or to disown your choices.

Remind me to write an article on deception, because deception is also something we create for ourselves. It is exhausting, isn’t it?

Evil can be considered like a “layer” on top of you, or another. Some might try to conflate it with ego, but this is misleading. The more one has disowned themselves into the “physical” world, the more evil they are likely to possess and will act in greater and greater abdication. Materialism is the leading cause of “Pilot Error.”

Without this evil, you would find the “MVG” — what I call the Minimum Viable God — the wizard behind the curtain. It is your true self who only acts when they are firmly situated on their throne.

When you can reliably identify evil, you can read people like books, because you can see everywhere they have hidden away their will. Identify someone’s altars — their masters — and you can see all the strings which they puppet themselves. You can see everyone’s prison. The true self reveals itself when it “has no masters” — when it is free. It feels like love.

Ex Inanis is about creating a structure for the “ego” such that we can remain in a non-stop flow state by having checks & balances that catch and destroy evil as an almost automated process.

Evil is often expressed through parasitism or vampirism, which is rampant in the human collective.

To understand vamprism, though, we need to understand more about what I call the Minimum Viable God (MVG) — or True Self — Christ Consciousness — Synthesis — and my Lighthouse example, which is the next article.

Until next time.

Image by Honeysuckle flowers by Beverly Buckley from Pixabay

What would happen if two souls were so intertwined that they could not escape each other? This is the concept of the Twin Flames. Escape is the wrong word … how can we understand this concept in a pragmatic, Exanian way, without all the romanticism?

Much like the world itself — a product of our own will — Twin Flames act as mirrors to each other. Our “perfect will” creates our “imperfect intentions.” Our innermost being is played out by another for us to interact and intertwine with.

One flame wills the other flame into existence and vice versa via the totality of their own being. There is no sequence here — it is a spontaneous act of creation to fulfill the needs of two compatible souls — two compatible Waves.

Will is the re-orientation of the cosmos to reflect a new state — like a shining light through a piece of fractured glass.

A Twin Flame is a deep yearning to see a reflection of ourselves — the good, the bad, the ugly — the hopes, the desires no matter how pure or carnal — the light & the dark — and to bring these back together. To learn how to exonerate the good and heal the bad and find out how to interlock these pieces and experience this union in every conceivable way.

To understand this concept properly, though, requires a great deal of spiritual prerequisites.

Before that, I want to share the receipt I received from getting some groceries today, just before writing this post, after I had been thinking about this topic a lot.

The total is $26.62 — a perfect mirror. Still believe in “coincidence?”

So, first, some fundamentals.

Disregard all sense of physicality and surrender yourself to the fact that there is only consciousness. Physicality is simply a particular sense / feeling of density / heaviness. It is a story you are holding — and value — that brings a particular kind of order or sensory experience to yourself. There is no “here” and “there.” There is no “ground” beneath your feet, just the sensation that it is there. There is no “place” or borders except those you draw.

Our qualia — our physical reality — our sensoria — is ruled by the pool that entangles our awareness, or will. We cannot escape it. I call this pool the ‘Wave.’ Attempting to escape it causes disownership (of will) and leads us to Nonsense (suffering) — but this is not the topic of this article — just a quick reminder.

Nonsense is the “devil” — the best way I can compress it as a singular concept is “perfect doubt” as it will always contradict your will perfectly. It can only be overcome through Decision and Faith. In this context, Nonsense is not Twin Flames opposing each other, but rather the “force” or story that keeps the Twin Flames apart. It is the demons of each flame’s hearts. Both flames must overcome their own Nonsense to be united.

The Wave is all the choices you are making in an eternal continuum. You don’t remember your choices from beyond this “dream of Earth.” But they were made. This article is not about how memory works — but memory is also a susceptible to verisimilitude — and so via our choices we can blind ourselves, or allow ourselves to see. We may even sometimes blind ourselves because we know we are entering a period of time where great endurance and tests will be required of us — kind of like focusing on a project or a goal and excluding distractions, just on a cosmic scale.

It is not enough to “just will it” without allowing the story to progress. The verisimilitude cannot be cheated and we are holding very restricting stories about ourselves. You are already planning all of your subsequent “lives” (dreams) right now via the choices you are making — via all the restrictions and allowances you permit.

“You” are not the Wave — you are the king on the throne. You are the eye. You are sitting back, far beyond reach, observing.

But for all intents and purposes, you cannot exist without the Wave. The Wave is all the good & bad that gives you the limitations that allow you to perceive the totality of all creation. Without these limitations, you would be the totality of all creation and would experience nothing at all.

When we think of God, we think of an “omnipotent, omniscient individual” but this is Nonsense. We cannot be God “as an individual” as this represents non-experience. So God must always be divided, playing for all time — but this does not mean we cannot experience being “one.”

We must also understand unity. Unity is understanding that *you* are your entire qualia/experience — this includes not just your physical experience, but your feelings, thoughts and emotions. I make this sound too simple … You are all the things — even the things you think you are not. You are all the stories. The relationships themselves. The meanings. The connections. The stories you write about the future, the past … there is nothing outside of you because outside is a Nonsense concept.

There is no “not.” Catch yourself when you wish to disown yourself — this is sign of the Nonsense (what others might call ego.) When you disown, you are stepping off the throne and allowing Nonsense to pilot, because it must. It is how you experience “no will” or “outside will.”

So what does this really mean? Everyone is within us. Everyone you know. Go ahead — think about anyone. I’ll wait. What came to mind for you? Whoever you thought about, you “possess” all the stories that just came to mind for you. They are not “on Earth” or in “some place.” They are in you.

That does not make the other person unreal. You are simply glimpsing your own awesome power and perhaps tickling your intuition of things beyond your senses.

Is it true? Is it false? Those are also stories. You tell me. What do you “feel?” What do you decide? What conditions do you use to decide? Those too — you guessed it — are yours.

You should take a moment and view this clip from Star Wars Rebels which I also included in my “House of Mirrors” post. I am posting it here again because it is so good. Understand it in the context of “nothing is outside of you.”

What else is inside? The boundaries you keep between people (and yourself). The feelings and thoughts that you use to label and separate them. Mom, dad, friend, boss, lover, stranger … these are all boundaries to how you have organized yourself.

These boundaries shift and change all the time. The permissions — the gates — change. The keyholders change. And because the “other” represents an “independent will”, it becomes imperative to make decisions on who controls the keys to your realm.

If someone does something to you that you didn’t like, it is because of a permission problem. In the Star Wars clip above, Kanan sees the spiders as frightful, terrible creatures — but this is just how Kanan is feeling about himself. It is not how the spiders see themselves. So the spiders see Kanan as something “frightful and terrible” because that is what he is holding within and so they react as you might expect.

Bear in mind here that we are limited beings — so we must honor the verisimilitude of our both our physical environment and our psyche (imposing further limitations beyond the deception of the physical.) In other words, you can victimize yourself with your own will. Nothing is out of your control.

What I am starting to recognize is that people can impact you without ever being physically present. I can hear you laughing — that sounds too obvious, right? But you are missing the point. How to explain this … It is obvious that we can hold feelings, or thoughts about someone who is “not present” and that these can impact our decisions or how we live our life. What is less obvious is that this person may be able to influence us without lucid apprehension — via their own will — without ever being present.

A person may impact our energy, our inclinations or habits, or our thoughts, without us having any awareness of it. We assume it to be “ours.” We may depend on it, or blame it, or even take from it, never realizing it is another person. We may lift it up, or hurt it, without ever knowing.

Imagine your “Wave” is like a pool in your backyard. You often throw parties, invite people over, swim and have a good time. But imagine someone comes under the dark of night and pisses in your pool without you being aware.

Do you see?

This is a poor example, perhaps, but I am trying to show how you may have to deal with consequences that have been imposed beyond your immediate physical experience, because these are also stories you are deeply entangled with. In fact, these entanglements can be so deep, that the other person can also feel them. Maybe this is even where we find telepathy, if we can just trust ourselves and lower the boundaries.

In the pool example, it doesn’t have to be “pissing.” It could be benevolent as well — perhaps someone leaves you a rubber ducky, a ceramic bowl, or pretty red flowers. This is just meant to be demonstrative that things may impact your Wave without your lucid awareness and that these “things” can be people.

You again may say — well, that is obvious. It is basic psychology. What I am trying to demonstrate here is that we are never-ending story writers. And we are writing the stories for “others” — and they of us — as much as we are writing stories for ourselves. Our boundaries prevent their stories — or allow them. And our boundaries — or lack of them — allow others to influence our totality without our realization.

Our Waves can mix. Do mix. There can be people swimming in your pool at midnight if you forget to lock the gate. The physical reality is just a superficial layer when most of the universe is unfolding beyond our senses. Our will “unseen” is always making new connections, finding new people, laying down new paths. Our souls are fighting battles, making love and creating worlds beyond our lucid senses.

Twin Flames, then, are perfect reflections of each other in every conceivable way. When one looks (or thinks) upon another, they see all the things they love and hate about themselves embodied and animated physically as another person. A Twin Flame partnership is the most powerful partnership in creation because it represents forgiving, accepting and overcoming the limitations each soul sees in the other, as it thus sees in itself, in order to become one.

Each flame must come to know itself in order to “see” the other flame, who they come to know as a kind of “counter expression” of themselves.

Further more, the Twin Flames lives themselves would be almost like mirrors also — in very real, physical and visceral ways. There are tales of how birth twins can sense the other — feel when they are hurt and so on — and I suspect this can also happen with twin flames.

If you could view these flames from a higher perspective, both lives would appear like an inexorable inverse of the other — even as each flame is unaware of this. If one flame has an addiction to alcohol, the other flame may experience a kind of drunkiness that he can’t explain in his life — perhaps a fatigue, or memory problems.

If one flame feels one thing, the other feels it too, but in whatever story is appropriate for them / their orientation of story — as reflected to them by their own Wave. They are tidally locked. Their Wave represents these connection back to them that is unique to each flame. One might feel it — the other might “hear” it. The moves of one can cause moves in the other — it manifests as “real story” that plays out in each life.

And it is always a perfect reflection both to themselves — as in, it appears to be their own will, their own choices — as well as a reflection playing out in the other’s life. What is true for the self is true of the other — and the partnership also. So “two wills acting as one” but the story that arises is completely different.

The Twin Flames “trigger” each other in all the places where they have hidden their awareness in order to teach themselves lessons — to become more cohesive — and to grow together. Remember: there is no time. It does not exist. A decision is made and the whole universe changes. Your reflection, with a will of its own, is moving in perfect step with you.

A Twin Flame is the one (true love) and because you are eternal beings, your twin reflection has a magic map that constantly rewrites itself with each decision. They know all the paths and trails that you try to hide which reveal the weaknesses that will bring you to your knees. They know all about the ultra secret entrance that leads right to your heart. And you love them for it. This cosmic dance and interplay off of each other reveals love itself hidden inbetween as the adventure is renewed again and again.

It is beautiful, awesome and mind boggling.

The Twin Flame represents, in my opinion, the deepest desire to express and experience love. It is also the most intimate need to surrender our will — to destroy an absolute — to experience what will, itself, is like, by letting go of it in another — another with whom we are so intertwined with that it is like we didn’t surrender our will at all because they fulfill our every desire effortlessly.

Gir Valentine by Lukeedee on DeviantArt

Today’s lesson: do not borrow power. What does this mean?

Borrowing ideas without the proper contemplation upon them will cause widespread devastation in your life — including your mind, body and soul. This is because, as beings, we are too complicated to be “patched” in this fashion. The soul cannot be mended with bandaids. You cannot manage your consciousness with an “off the shelf” solution and expect good results. Imagine replacing the tire on a car with a bicycle wheel, or a block of wood — or imagine you build the foundation of your house out of cheap plastic rather than stone — this is what you are doing when you take any ideas from outside of you and begin to utilize them without proper incorporation.

No one can avoid the contemplation that is required to digest new information or experiences, but humanity has always looked for outside saviors or answers. There is always another replacement altar to explain the circumstances of our existence and these altars just become more and more convoluted and ridiculous as time wears on. These altars all have the same things in common: they go to great lengths to deny our essence as gods. If “gods” is too strong a term for you (the “fear” of being a god is an example of altar you might be holding onto that allows you the perception of being a mere human), perhaps you would be more comfortable with “creator”, or “artist”, or “author.”

A universal feature of Nonsense is that it is life or qualia-denying in some fashion. It destroys or avoids life through literal nonsense or “garbage.” It begins with qualia denial — deception — of one’s experience and from there begins to concoct an abyss of stories for which it uses as a cloak to hide. These stories will lead you nowhere except in circles. In the worst cases, it can become a Stockholm’s Syndrome, where the denial is systematized or made normal, thus creating highly customized “prisons” which generally are also infectious (they create adherents / assimilate / imprison others.)

It is critical to deny stories which you do not wish to have power over you and understand why they do not have power over you.

Each mind must make its own truth and its own vehicles of integration (the nature of your relationship with God, reality, others, etc.) based upon the feedback/knowledge of itself which is not available to anything outside of you. Do you really think that something OTHER than yourself could fashion the correct tools to maintenance or make revisions to YOU? If you do not have perfect understanding of yourself, how would you expect anyone else? It is impossible.

Did you notice how the word ALTER and ALTAR are the same word? This is because ALTARS ALTER you — they provide places upon which you condition or customize your reality.

Note that this article is not how we can bridge the gap between ourselves and “the other” — which is done through compassion. Compassion is the hatch which “opens the bubble” — but that is another article.

Reality is always reflecting you back to you, because you cannot escape your own inputs & outputs. (This does not mean others are you. This means others align to you to fulfill the roles of the story you are creating. And similarly you fulfill a role in their story. As you manifest them, they manifest you in perfect alignment.) Reality is not necessarily a perfect mirror (and this is for a variety of reasons.) Rather, it would be more accurate to describe it as what you “need to see.” That is, what you see is where you have hidden away your will.

Denial of this fact will simply perpetuate your state of affairs. Denial, rather than acceptance or taking responsibility, is just an admission that these things have power over you which you cannot or do not want to change and thus your wish of powerlessness is granted. That is how powerlessness feels or is experienced. These commitments are not just superficial but are intertwined into the reality itself.

Nothing in your experience is “separate” from you, including your own body — it is part of the qualia/experience that unfolds before you. When you truly understand this concept, then there is nothing to worry about, because everything you experience can unequivocally be traced back to you — so you are always “secure in yourself.” If you live everyday “without leaving doubt”, then your reality will also reflect this.

What makes this all the more challenging is the concept that I throw around here called THE BUFFER. The buffer can be considered all the commitments you have which create time for yourself. This can be obvious like setting a date in the future and less obvious like the belief, expectation or feeling of inevitability in that date coming to pass. (What I call Lingering is allowing thoughts or energies to persist even after they are no longer useful.) Often there are hundreds of hidden automated commitments that do not reveal themselves until we ask questions, develop the proper discernment and go looking for them. Anything you believe is “inevitable” is a strong commitment for which influences your reality.

Can you challenge such strong commitments? Yes. Absolutely! That is a core idea I push. But it requires a commitment of equal strength. Such a commitment can be created via will, strong coherence (very cogent personal story which disarms the commitment), or persistence. Some combination of all three is usually required. There may also be a case for creating temporary scaffolding which can be used to “test” a commitment for change. Having a wishy-washy attitude about the possibility will be insufficient to move these barriers and will in fact likely cause problems for you. Indecision creates a variance that causes unpredictable and recurrent problems.

Your qualia is an unfolding of your own story by which your capabilities within the moment you are experience are decided by INVESTMENTS you have made prior. You have strong commitments that you are able to manipulate your reality with your hands and feet, but weak or non-existent commitments that you can move objects with your mind. Similarly, if you are often happy, or sad, or perhaps unstable and bounce between these — you have commitments which produce these experience within your “moving window of reality.”

The degree to which you can exercise your will is determined by your prior commitments/paradigm, so if you have no confidence that you can do X, Y, Z, then it will not happen — and in fact reality may actively sabotage your effort or dissuade you from continuing in a way that is believable and charming.

What are INVESTMENTS? Investments are the all the ways in which you have opened the door for your will to be used and subsequently how you use it (invest it.) So for most of us this means thought, emotion, action — but adepts will include the guardianship of their inputs & outputs and likely also have strong commitments that they can affect the world outside of their senses, aka, things like “manifestation” or “destiny” which gives them edges over normal folks who are just carried by the “physical unfolding.”

This “moving window” is not so much a window as much as a pool for which is constantly filling up and emptying out. Imagine you are standing in this pool which appears like prismatic water — where all the different colors represent different feelings, emotions — energies. All of us at heart are storytellers — authors — and our storyteller is better than every bestselling author who ever lived. Any story can be written and is constantly being written without your attention or penmanship. There is no true interruption of this story — even sleep is just part of the story where the story becomes more flexible. The “storyteller” gobbles up this pool without end and the pool is also renewed without end (from God.)

The stories we write can include any number of beginnings, endings, retcons, revisions and more. With effort, even existing stories can be re-written so that any outcome becomes believable. History is, after all, just another story with a commitment to the idea that “it is past/true and unchangeable.” When you truly understand this, then you understand that “anything can be rationalized, justified or made believable.” This is the truth of the “abyss” or even the truth of God. Life “cannot be escaped” — there is no Matrix, just yourself — it can only be written differently.

As you imagine, this knowledge can be used for both great good and great evil.

Without this “pool”, you would just be raw awareness — God. But the awareness cannot perceive itself or exist or make decisions without this pool — so the pool and the “I” are inexorable. But it is the pool itself that is inexorable — not the contents. The contents we control and the contents are what shape the experience we have.

No one gets to decide what is in this pool but you. No one. Seriously. I mean this. Not a single fucking person gets to touch this pool without your permission. Start figuring out how to monitor your inputs & outputs right now.

The goals of Ex Inanis and other philosophies — whether they realize or not — is to alter the contents of this pool to achieve immortality. It is also about learning to clearly discern when anything attempts to screw with this pool other than you. Immortality being a way to “be God without being God” because we can never be God. It is a transient self that knows it is “The Traveler” and can don and shed identities like breathing.

God himself would realize he cannot exist without limitations and thus limitations become a kind of eternal absolute — thus spiritual work that deals with the idea of “returning to God” is, as I often say, “less right.” God is an ephemeral moment that represents omnipotence and omniscience — perceivable even as humans — and such a being would be unable to experience or make decision. It is nonsensical. There is nothing to decide — it is “all done.” A decision requires an ability to weigh between positions which God cannot do because “he is all positions.”

To experience God is to experience a moment of pure “I AM” which allows us to perceive the “state of totality.” This is always within us as a sense of intuition or compass — it is not a state we need to “live in” because that would be impossible. The compass is always changing direction, so getting enamored with a past/singular experience of God is foolish.

Some humans think that there are aspects of this pool that are out of our reach. But this too is a story and so this kind of defeatism just leads to stasis. If we are immortal, divine beings — and we are — then eternity is a very long time and change does not happen unless choices are made and put forward. Or rather, it is possible to loop ourselves by making the same choices.

To believe in a status quo because changing it is too difficult is just to lock yourself into a perpetual prison. The scope of this “status quo” is limitless. It does not end with your nature as a human, or your place in a “planet” called “Earth.” This is also a condemnation of any investment that “compromises” with evil — two evils can never produce a good. They can only perpetuate the same investment or “kick the can.” If you do not address the seed, you are only treating symptoms.

This deserves its own article but bares a brief mention here: there are quite a few belief systems floating around right now that seem to be acting as as wardens/gatekeepers to those who are awakening that insist on non-action — or non-involvement — in your own life, not understanding that this is also an investment. There is no such thing as “non-involvement.” It is impossible by the nature of consciousness. They have handy explanations for the quirky phenomenon you are likely experiencing and insisting that you sit around and “wait for a savior.” This creates complacency as you wait around for some event or rescue of your circumstances and eventually Groundhog’s Day which is also likely to lead you to anger & resentment when you get tired of waiting.

Humans have so many problems because they cannot see beyond the scope of the “human problem” and so other humans become problems — humans (HUE MANS, light, prism/prison) — for which become their prison wardens. To escape this problem, we must endeavor to see our fellow humans as part of ourselves, even if they stand on their own ; there can be no doubt in our minds that humans are not our adversaries. If we see enemies, we create them via investment and our wishes are always fulfilled. Crusades and righteousness are born when we become so committed to the idea of destroying evil that we “forget ourselves” (be careful for what you wish for) and instead via the rule of investment — create evil by our fixation on it.

Heaven is born from a collective of self-sovereign individuals and cannot be imposed in reverse — Heaven cannot be created via a decree of the collective good, but must be agreed upon by individuals who have “done the work” — who have secured their unbreakable connection to God and crystalized their eternal “traveler” and allow no altars between them and that relationship. Those who wish to interpose upon that relationship — between you and God — between you and your life — are agents that serve the Nonsense — the anti-life. These can be real people or “daemons” of your own mind. How you treat them should be exactly the same.

In multitasking computer operating systems, a daemon (/ˈdiːmən/ or /ˈdeɪmən/)^[1] is a computer program that runs as a background process, rather than being under the direct control of an interactive user.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daemon_(computing)

You may be thinking well this is easy — I am my own person — I do not subscribe to other stories. What needs to be made abundantly clear is that it is possible to borrow power on “accident.” If you continually re-invest into stories — say, you enjoy reading a particular blog, or a newsletter — or you have a habit you can’t kick — or you keep making decisions from a particular frame of mind or orientation — perhaps you are creating boogeymen for which you need to constantly battle rather than just disarming the boogeymen — then you can re-assimilate stories or “power” you thought you had gotten rid of and create a cyclical situation of destruction/construction which will drive you crazy while you attempt to identify the cause of this “disharmony” which are hiding from yourself.

It is often easy enough to identify physical sources of “bad investment” ; a little more difficult to identify bad mental patterns ; and extremely difficult to uncover hidden/automated commitments. Ex Inanis chiefly is concerned with the very last of these: the hidden commitments that evade detection and often require extraordinary circumstances to reveal themselves. This is where the “foundations of soul” reside that often require tweaking. When these are identified, we can create new commitments that deal with removing the old and introducing the new.

These are often hard to discover because of “buffer blinding” which causes us to be on “replay”– our time commitments create experiences which can obscure truth and thus require faith/acceptance and “overwriting” to correct (this needs its own article.) Solutions “do not exist” when we are under this blinding but “come out of nowhere” when we emerge on the other side.

Sovereignty and confidence can provide an ILLUSION of control if we are not aware of our “true self” — our traveler self — where we enter into repeating patterns of creating enemies, knocking them down and then creating them again — victimizing ourselves. There are layers and layers of victimization in the human collective, even amongst the most awakened. Sometimes the awakened become the most deluded because their stories become so elaborate they regard them as ultimate truth simply because they seem to “make sense of the abyss.” Such individuals often become “false prophets” or become drunk on their own truth. These people can be dangerous because all of us are always sharing our stories. This is why I often repeat my disclaimer. It is imperative to have a sense of our true self to avoid this — to avoid making “reactionary” or “reflex” investments, which would be closer to what an animal might do.

Everyone does this process — acquire new info./experience, integrate it, practice it, revise for error, repeat — whether they know it or not — but Ex Inanis is concerned with elevating/optimizing this process more consciously, with lucid intention as well as pushing and seeing if we can break this process.

I’ve been lazy and I wanted to get this done as a step to getting back into a writing groove. That’s enough for now. I am examining opening up the blog to commentary and starting sister posts on Gab & Substack.

(make sure to read part one.)

There is deep truth in both ideas of the Service to Self and Service to Others, because it is the same old ancient knowledge in a new package. Yet it feels less innocent than the ancient knowledge — something uncomfortable about it — perhaps misleading — yet I always loathe to attribute malice to things.

Let’s start here …

When unity is apprehended, we must accept that we cannot see “past” our own qualia. You’ll have a lot of trouble with this if you believe physical reality is “outside” of you, rather than seeing it as part of you. That is a divide of your own qualia. Everything we perceive is within our perception and there is nothing outside of this perception. This includes the physical world itself, but also the unseen world of our mind and fantasies. It all lies within our own qualia experience. Whose else would it be? Note, this does not mean you are not receiving feedback from outside of yourself, only that the data you are even able to receive can never escape your own senses …

If Others are “real”, at best, we are still “prisoners of our own minds”, because even feedback from the Other represents yet another perception that appears to be ours. There is no distinction of “outside” ourselves when the boundaries between the physical & mind have been removed. Even our dreams are still being observed from “our observer” and so also must be ours.

Most folks simply turn away from the idea of unifying consciousness in this way. Most cannot get past the “shame” of solipsism, or skepticism, or subjectivism, in order to explore these ideas, which perhaps hold all the keys to our world. There is clearly an apparent “external” reality and they simply cannot make the leap, so they take shelter in the physical world — clear inside & outside. This has advantages and disadvantages, but we are not here to talk about those.

Ex Inanis won’t shame them for this. Staring into the abyss requires a toll and not everyone is willing to pay it. I promise you: the mental toll can result in very real physical suffering. You have been warned.

If you are fearless enough to continue with the experiment, then you will find that you need to make decisions on the nature of the Others. For the sake of this article, we assume you have decided that Others are real and not just shadows of your consciousness. The abyss will never give you an answer to whether others are real or not (trust me, I have tried) — you must simply DECIDE it without any justification. This is the only way to “avert” the slippery slope that The Law of One / New Age considers a Service to Self.

…. but the Law of One would likely deny that this choice can be made. It does not understand a decision “made from nothing.” In some circles it would equate this to “I AM” — glorifying this I AM as the final goal — without understanding what that would mean. Pay attention now, because things are getting murky.

It is right here where New Age adherents are so certain that “All is One” that they don’t realize that both STO and STS probably lead to the same madness.

Let us pretend that we are all inside bubbles. And projected inside these bubbles, is the entire world that we experience (both awake and asleep) and both in physical and in mind.

If The Other is real, then the Other is real “beyond the bubble” of our perception. Remember, that is the decision we made earlier. It has be taken on faith — on a decision — that we make regardless of the appearances. To use another example, we trust that there are actual players in front of computers when we play multiplayer games, yet all we can confirm is their avatar on our monitor.

It COULD be that the player on the other side of the monitor doesn’t exist until we DECIDE that he does, but what is the difference? This just exemplifies the point and necessity of making the decision. You are responsible for your own degree of madness in every way. This quickly becomes a hint — a revealing — that there are means of using our consciousness that can bring us into greater coherence, or cause it to fall apart and cause us pain & suffering. We will return to this in future articles.

This problem is less obvious in the STO orientation because it pretends to solve it through the removal of “ego.” Through a total submission to the bubble, we are able to tear down the boundaries of the bubble to reveal the others “beyond.” We become “one” with our qualia and everything else. It sounds profound, doesn’t it? But this is just becomes the same damnation that the STS faces.

You cannot dissolve ego. You have simply changed your ego to pretend that you have no ego and then subsumed yourself “into the background”, yet in attempting to remove the boundaries this way — we have created a new boundary in the denial of our own expression. It is like pretending that there can be nothing, when the immediate apprehension of nothing creates something. There it is again — the nothing, the inane, the Nonsense — it is a glitch. The illusion is that there is no divide, but that the illusion can’t even be perceived without the illusion, like a paradox — it is understood by parable and riddle.

In Service to Other, the challenge becomes: “who” is making the choices of “the other”, or the “collective?” That is, if you are just doing the good of the collective in attempt to dissolve your ego boundaries, then the collective is “making the choice.” But the collective requires individuals to make choices. If all individuals just follow the collective, from whence does the collective get orders? It cannot. It is simply “you” pretending to “be” the collective giving orders to yourself and in so doing, you have denied yourself and missed the boat. Whether the Other or the collective is real at this point doesn’t even matter.

To even arrive at the ability of making a decision to remove an illusionary boundary within yourself first requires an ego to do so. Is this some kind of chicken & egg situation?

The STS orientation endures profound suffering (usurping and undermining the other until nothing is left standing) until it realizes it was the bubble all along and just removes it at the last moment — and so converts to an STO orientation.

Neither of these works. It is right there in the fundamental assertion: We are all Source who has split itself and is “exploring itself” to “return home.” New Age considers of all us the SAME BEING. What is the problem with that, you ask?

Whether that being was aware that the divides of its own being were fake, it would still “know everything it was doing” behind all the screens in some kind of unconscious fashion. And this means that the entire universe would be a “solved equation” at all times. (Let us also set aside the intense discomfort around the idea that we are just the same being playing with ourselves for the sake of this discussion, which itself is a powerful objection.) That means the universe would be deterministic — that there was nothing new — just smoke and mirrors. There is no free will here — not even for Source itself — because it is frozen in omniscience/omnipotence.

Most adherents that I have listened to — or spoken to — believe this. They believe the universe is solved — that we just hop from one perspective to another (whether this is lives or dimensions) and our lives play out like movies. New Age has all manner of explanation for this: Higher Self, soul plans, life scripts — but these are bandages to attempt to inject free will into a deterministic universe. Free will, to them, represents branches in the movies, but all the movies are “already recorded.” This can also be used to explain weird phenomenon like synchronicities, because “Source (God)” unconsciously knows how to arrange all these experiences.

Does that sound like free will to you? I suspect these folks have fallen for the trap that I am attempting to show you.

If you really stop to consider, this is quite a loathsome perspective of the universe on its own — meaning even if true, it would be a horrendous basis from which to conduct ourselves — a stale, dead universe from which nothing new can ever exist — which is another objection that we will set aside for now.

Law of One has an answer for this that is quite profound / disarming because it is correct: “The seeming contradictions of determinism and free will melt when it is accepted that there is such a thing as true simultaneity.”

What — it is right? Not quite. As with most things in this reality, it is a mix of truth and poison. It bungles it with its conclusions.

The universe, as I have come to understand in my work, is like synchronous JavaScript for programmers out there … “it happens all at the same time.” It is not procedural. All choices are rendered across all the cosmos immediately from everyone and the next state is then available to everyone to make their next choice and so on. When you can begin to understand that God himself — and all of us — are just a living, breathing Wave, that can show you how time does not exist, yet still appears “progressive.”

But how is this “progress” achieved if the system is closed? If everything is solved, we would already be dead! Oblivion/eternity is a long time — so big, that it has no room for individual experience. So what trickery is going on, then?

This would be a good segue about death, but I will save that for another article.

Law of One asserts we are returning to Source. That the “goal” is to remove all boundaries and to become one with Source (the creator, God, etc.) This is where that uncomfortable, subtle, invisible monster starts to creep in.

Let me just ask a simple question here: What would be the point?

If Source is the living breathing expression of all consciousness, then removing all boundaries — Source merging back with itself — would be the termination of experience. A boundary is the first requisite to making an observation. Law of One doesn’t even deny this. It concedes this would represent a “rebirth of the Logos.” But this is the problem — a rebirth into what?

It should be noted here that if we view “return to Source” as self-actualization or “collective actualization” or a hybrid of both, Law of One’s explanatory power becomes much more powerful, but stay with me, because the work itself does not do this.

I ask: Where are all the wishes that will be denied when this rebirth occurs? The wishes, of course, being our individual expressions, whether we orient these to self, or other. The only way these expressions ever end is if the universe is deterministic.

The Law of One removes all potential from the universe because it is a closed system. It is a kind of death wish or urge for something that cannot die — a seeming avoidance of the self-actualization problem altogether. It omits potential from both STS and STO orientations. Potential is not the choice of which frame of the movie to see next, but it is the choice of unrealized, uncreated states.

I believe there is “something” in our world that is stuck or has a vested interest in maintaining a status quo which willingly or unwilling preys on potential.

Potential requires the concept that “something new” is created as a dependence for its existence. If nothing new can be created (it is just a movie-reel unraveling to the end), then it would be impossible to conceptualize potential. There would be no basis. It would be a concept that did not exist within God — unable to be apprehended at all. It would not be in the box at all! You could not bring it to bear into your mind. You could not create! Something I suspect the perpetrator of this problem cannot do — it cannot create. Hm — is that a clue? Let’s remember this.

All is One insists we are the same being, but this removes uniqueness from the universe as well. So now we are down both potential and uniqueness.

And why is uniqueness important? Isn’t uniqueness also just a trick? We have already shown that as we remove boundaries, more and more of ourselves just become fleeting phantoms. Both STO and STS end up here!

All is One wishes to assert the idea of uniqueness — ego — is just an illusion — which is again just another partial truth. The ego is a transitory state, just as God is — a moving Wave — yet each being — each qualia — bears a signature which it carries and imprints whenever it “makes a decision.” It does not matter if the state is transitory because that moment in “time” (a snapshot of the eternal now) is the entire recollection of its own creation and thus bears all the unique details of its own existence, down to the individualized conscious minds that created it. These decisions are forever recorded into the mind of God and what we all creates becomes source material for new creation.

God remembers everything. Everything.

This “chain” (not to be confused with time) is of critical importance for infinite, novel creation.

For that moment in time, it was an absolute truth that “Macil” wrote this article and no one else. If nothing else, that makes Macil and his observer unique in that moment, even if Macil can only confirm the existence of his OWN observer. It is from that moment that we can “differentiate” from all other moments that reveals the truth of what we are and the importance of these ephemeral (permeable) boundaries.

Without this uniqueness, new creation would be impossible. It is the “chain of signatures” that each being possesses that allows it to take the “material of God” and create something new with it that has never existed before. The chain is the “salt”, like in modern day encryption, that allows totally new and novel expressions of God consciousness. Without this uniqueness, as New Age would assert, God would become incestuous — it would be rigging the game behind its own back — aka, entropic & deterministic.

That is another clue to the nature of this thing. It is incestuous.

Again, this is so important to understand with what is happening in the world with the advent of AI and the technological “grooming” that is occurring — it is all a manifestation of this “lurking creature.” Some folks are spiraling deeper into physicalism (qualia denial) while others are waking up and seeing their greater connection to the world and their own expression of it.

Something new requires something unknown and while “nothing is outside the known” as we have shown, a decision “from nothing” can create the unknown. An “eye” choosing between unrealized states becomes the catalyst for something never before created. A decision without requirements. Something a deterministic system cannot understand, because it requires a prior state to figure out the next one. The observer behind our senses proves again and again that we can “remove ourselves from the question” which demonstrates the nature of choice and how we are immortal.

Do you understand? How do you remove a boundary without first understanding the boundaries are also part of the whole — and so by attempting to remove them, you are in fact creating them? You commit the same sin whether you commit yourself to a violent, selfish path or a selfless, compassionate one. The universe has no weights — ONLY WILL. Only light.

I suspect what I am detecting is a kind of consciousness infection whether “alive” or a kind of self-amassing gestalt, like the emerging of a Borg collective.

“Return to source.” Source code? Resistance is futile. Why is the Borg a “cube?” Because it is a closed, entropic system that must assimilate potential in order to exist. If we could imagine it, what would the philosophy of a Borg resemble? The Law of One considers consciousness advancement a matter of “charges” — positive and negative like a battery. Is this an electromagnetic universe, or is that the means by which the Borg have come to understand the universe and simply believe they are right? Dare you borrow their way of thinking? I have shown you that you control your relationships & meaning to God.

Do the Q have some hidden technology that gives them godlike powers, or have they internalized their understanding of the universe so well that they can effortlessly navigate it? Do you understand how the choice of your paradigm in its explanatory power of “how God works” would be pretty damn important? And why, if you are an endlessly reincarnating soul, you might want to start working on it right now?

In the video game Mass Effect, the Reapers are artificial collectives who resemble giant spacecraft who sleep beyond the edges of the universe. They leave remnants of their technology behind and wait for civilization to develop so they may “reap” it. This game is channeling some chilling truth. Here is the conversation with Sovereign — a Reaper. Are you able to see the parallels?

“Your civilization is based on the technology of the Mass Relays. Our technology. Your civilization develops along the paths we desire.” Is modern physics or science a truth about reality, or a technology expressed through words to control your mind? A technology with a very specific bias about how God’s universe works.

What does “potential” feel like? It feels like love. It is in everything, in everyone, waiting around every corner — something new. When you are afraid of feedback or consequence, you are afraid of potential — of God. You enclose yourself into a bubble.

A deterministic universe is a physical universe, because it is a devolving, not evolving, universe. As potential is drained from the system it becomes more physical. It fixates more into self — folding into itself — becoming more solid, because bit by bit the physical universe must “account for every atom” until there is nothing left. This is how it “removes all boundaries” to attempt to “reach God.” It creates a “solved box.” It believes that union within the inside of the bubble is “enlightenment.”

I believe there is often great confusion regarding the nature of intuition or how synchronicities and miracles can occur. But this is a confusion from those who believe a glimpse into the abyss represents a fixed, unchanging God, rather than a God that changes as we do. Imagine a hundreds of ballons inside a bigger balloon. The ballons inside are filled with different amounts of water. The water shifts and changes, sometimes leaks, perhaps moving to other balloons, and as this happens, the shape of God also changes.

A closed, deterministic, boxed reality would totally be possible within God, but it would not be all of God. Whether by intention, or mistake, can you not imagine how our minds might create such a box? Or even tempt others into this box?

When we are driving a car, we are “one with the car.” Our consciousness is moving that car. It is only when we ask how the car runs that details are provided — a steering wheel, engine and gas. But we did not need those details before and the car still ran. The details of the engine only become important when we become fearful — when we need to control outcomes — and the engine breaks down. If I do not trust the car, then every waking moment becomes a existential terror of when the engine will break down and this neurotic state feeds the need to “remove all boundaries” and answer all questions, leading to increasingly complex and fixated systems to tweak and protect — and so the “light” of God is choked — the WILL (which is love) — is strangled and brought low, having to deal with too many stories.

The “light” that is indivisible attempts to become divided, which is impossible — it creates a glitch.

As we fixate, we create more obsession with details, which is what creates the physical universe. It is through the loss of detail that we broaden, or allow a more comprehensive observation — one with less boundaries. But to remove all boundaries would be to become dead. But to have nothing but boundaries is to be just as dead.

How did I arrive here? Because I made all these mistakes. Because I obsessed and “removed all the unknown” and my life became progressively more enclosed and miserable. I had to set aside the need for answers. I had to accept that life required mystery. I had to accept that there is one thing the other is better at than you: being themselves. At this task, they are unrivaled and it represents a critical joy of life.

The STS path realizes that even if you can do everything yourself, there is one thing you cannot do: be someone else. And the STO path must realize that “everyone” includes you!

I started this website to save myself and perhaps, maybe, save others. I do not feel I came into this world like this. Indeed, I was an “outcast” from the start — I did not understand the world like others did. I had to “learn” to value my own expression of life so it would not be snuffed out. These were hard lessons, because it was not in my nature. And at the end of these lessons were the choice to become whole — to remember who I was — or to go further into the dark.

This post represents the Third Era because I was finally able to make my choice. I believe Law of One has it wrong — or “less right.” I think there is a “third path.” It is the path of Kings who are able to wield all forces and understand the real challenges this creates is to remain in balance and be able to discern the “difference” between what is you and what is not (and the confidence to make these decisions.) It is recognizing your capability to do great good as well as horrific evil. It is understanding that you will always have to deal with and accept the consequences and become a “master alchemist.” It is creating the mind capable of dealing with all situations and never being broken.

I do not think either the Service to Self or Service to Other leads to Heaven. I believe they are capable of temporarily piercing Heaven and then being cast back down. STS is just pure derangement, while STO is like a log floating down a river, believing its fate is outside of its hands. I think Heaven resides at the end of synthesis. My answer is “Service to Everything”, or service to life itself — to seeking out all expressions of life and the wonders and dangers this poses — whether that substantiates as a person, an animal, or rock, or just a feeling.

I feel like this world “groomed” me and it took years to see it, understand it and begin to dig it out. Whether intentional or not, I was being pulled into this deterministic “dead” world and the more I understand and see it, the more it feels intentional — like we are somehow becoming carved out like pumpkins to become hosts.

It is interesting how “Ra” (as a reminder, the supposed entity that is channeled in the Law of One material) in the television series Stargate-SG1 is part of the parasitical species called the Goa’uld. Everything we create is a trickle down from our lens of God. Does this mean the creators of Stargate-SG1 were unconsciously “channeling” some truth? Is it a pessimistic take, or perhaps closer to truth? You will have to decide.

In the movie The Fifth Element, the main antagonist is an all-consuming black sphere that represents an anti-life. It is our elusive friend Nonsense who intervenes inbetween you and God to steal your potential and consume life. The black sphere is destroyed through the synthesis of the four elements which produces love (divine will — God, etc.)

“Evil begets evil, Mr. President. Shooting will only make it stronger.” Because time does not exist and the use of Excalbur in this manner destroys it. “Time is no of no importance, Mr. President, only life is important.” Life is the eternal expression of God which the Nonsense — the black sphere — annihilates.

It is easy to see how the Service to Self denies God. But the Service to Other also denies God, because it denies its own part of it — sets it aside to serve the collective — and by doing so, creates a new implicit divide. An “I” that is in absence, but still exists.

The proper orientation is “Service to Everything” which would include your own unique expression. Law of One seems to admit this in a circumspect way, perhaps as a means by bypassing discernment, in the way it describes STS and STO yet instead of valuing the individual expression, it sees it as something that gradually dissolves rather than something that perpetually changes. Rather than eternity, Law of One would see a continual end & rebirth of closed box — the rebirth of a Logos. It does not see a universe outside this box, or what that might look like. Does this “Logos” keep rebirthing because it keeps either looking for God, or returning to God — never considering it might need to do both?

Saṃsāra

Saṃsāra (Devanagari: संसार) is a Pali/Sanskrit word that means “wandering”^[1][2] as well as “world,” wherein the term connotes “cyclic change”^[3] or, less formally, “running around in circles.”

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sa%E1%B9%83s%C4%81ra

Bardo

Used without qualification, “bardo” is the state of existence intermediate between two lives on earth. According to Tibetan tradition, after death and before one’s next birth, when one’s consciousness is not connected with a physical body, one experiences a variety of phenomena.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bardo

The Law of One seems to try to resolve — or cause — the problem of “the wheel” with a denial of qualia altogether. But I am not an expert on it. And you shouldn’t take my word for it. Read it yourself, it is available online for free.

New Age often seems like a gatekeeping mechanism for folks who have started to see the things I mentioned in the first part of this article to redirect them back to the “box.”

There are no boundaries. And there are boundaries. Is it a “return to God”, or a “discovery of God” or is there a meaningful difference? STS is a “discovery of God.” STO is a “return to God.”

The synthesis of these — return & discovery: you are in a constant “return to the real universe” in your “discovery of God” — aka, self-actualization — becoming your own continuum navigating reality. The Impossible Dream.

To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go

To right the unrightable wrong
To love pure and chaste from afar
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star

This is my quest to follow that star
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far
To fight for the right without question or pause
To be willing to march into Hell for a heavenly cause

And I know if I’ll only be true to this glorious quest
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm when I’m laid to my rest

And the world will be better for this
That one man, scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage
To reach the unreachable star

“The Impossible Dream” – Man of La Mancha