Esoteric

Our thoughts arise from within us, like air bubbling to the surface of water. The thoughts are not “us", yet they do point to the source of that “air" that is us.

That air comes from our foundation. The thoughts are more like mangled remnants by the time they reach us, though ; almost useless. Thoughts try to describe truths that our minds cannot hold all at once. They are “pointers” to much larger blocks. As humans, we have to deal with abstracts and faith to make use of these thoughts.

We shouldn’t assign any meaning to thoughts that we don’t desire. We recognize they are “ours” – or at least that they are there if you wish to remain more open to their source – but they are “out of service” or not informative. Meaning construction is an important concept I need to write about and it isn’t restricted to thoughts.

I’ve been hearing this term “mental diet” and it is a good one. I need to read a whole lot more Goddard, because he has great subtle ways of perspective that are transformative.

Our efforts should be focused on changing this foundation so that the thoughts that bubble up are the thoughts that we want, rather than battling thoughts that do not serve us. We want to ask ourselves to be supportive and encouraging, not afraid or doubting. The diet should feed itself, in other words.

Imagine thoughts that don’t question, or doubt, or plan. They don’t worry how long something will take or what issues you are dealing with. They just tell you: “You got this! Go for it!” We want to eliminate “buts” and “shoulds" in a way that aligns with heart/body/mind. We do NOT want to create willful ignorance, apathy, or denial.

We want to address the root of the environment – not be on cleanup duty at all times, or “eating” all the time. Consumption of any kind is a warning that we are lopsided towards complacency. We have to do these things, because that’s where we are in our development, but we can recognize this is not the “ideal.” I think we are all tired of this janitor duty.

I emphasize the warning of becoming complacent simply because you master aspects of this process. If you are not reinvesting into “the work”, it will fade just as surely as anything

I coined the term Dysfunctional Sovereignty because I thought I had figured it out.

Sovereignty is how well adjusted you are to your Wave ; the “breadth of your power.” Dysfunctional Sovereignty is the distension of this power, like butter over too much bread.

I am writing about it, because I am in the process of overcoming it ; to reclaiming Sovereignty, or building it back stronger. While we may imagine ourselves to be godlike – and we are – there must be an accounting for potential, or surprise. I have talked about potential and we know that it is a requirement for the universe to even exist. Entropy is the devouter of all universes without potential.

Perfection is non-existence – it is Nonsense – and so, as part of being gods, but less than “GOD”, we accept that we need limitations to have experience at all. This means we can make mistakes, or if this word is too potent, we can “change our minds.” The Uncertainy, though, means we must still be able to deal with our Wave as it departs, no matter how certain we are. We really must have the faith of saints.

On a long enough time line, there will be a surprise in your life that is not pleasant. If you do not have the paradigm to deal with it, great powers of manifestation will become a crucible very quickly. I am reminded of Michael Crichton’s “Sphere" – the movie at least. I never read the book.

The inhabitants of a deep space station come into contact with an alien artifact that manifests their thoughts into form ; the crew almost kills themselves and destroys the station because they did not have the right apparatus to deal with such a power.

Anyone claiming to have conquered the delay/gap of will/result need only demonstrate matter construction, flight, telekinesis, and so on – I would be more than happy to believe it. Yes, belief is a fundamental of the craft, but belief is built & molded upon a bedrock of contemplation & practice ; you do not build your house on a swamp.

Summoning trinkets and money seems irrelevant to true freedom ; to establishing what those “minimum viable” concepts are that we wish to keep forever.

If you can stand in your power and not wobble under any external stimulus, I applaud you.

When you begin to apprehend the nature of the universe (you have experienced synchronicities, weirdness, Mandela Effects, etc.) and put into practice what you know, Nonsense will always respond to you with “but it isn’t!”

As soon as you argue, YOU HAVE LOST.

Every success story began with a lie we told ourselves to make it happen. A quiet rejection of the world ; crossing our fingers behind our back ; while we just nod and accept the “apparent” world while we wait for things to “catch up.” Even The Other is part of this and seems to catch up with us.

Sometimes we have to grit our teeth, because even appearances can hurt.

Should the universe work this way? Ex Inanis has no official view, because I believe we are better off molding ourselves like ice (solid but mutable) rather than taking strong positions, but I do believe the “normal” universe does not work this way.

The “normal” is what we understand as something like Heaven, where will & result are immediate. We are living in a universe that mirrors our choices back at us and inverts the relationship between will / result. Perhaps it is like opening a word-editor to the soul, or perhaps we are learning to become more than we are – these things I cannot answer.

Ex Inanis is not about providing these answers, but feeling out the “rules” and learning to maximize our experience while we are here. That is, to maximize joy and minimize suffering.

By nature of the universe, we know that our consciousness plays a critical part. This is true for any paradigm, but especially anything that derives out of subjective idealism.

If we were true masters of this craft, there would be no need to study it. There would be no need to practice. We would have already arrived. None of us would need to be here sharing this experience. There would be no doubt! If we had arrived, we would be like players in an online video game – knowing we are players and knowing how to play. But that isn’t the experience here. We have to deal with the “human equation” until we don’t.

What I have learned in the last few months is that there is nothing we can do except take each moment as it arrives and anything else is an illusion of

There’s that old saying: What would you do if you have a million dollars?

But this is the wrong question.

It gets us too focused on the numbers. At least it does for me. I start planning it all out and spending each dollar in an efficient manner. That’s because I’m a bonehead and always have been. My Authenticity has long been lopsided towards the “mind” aspect.

You know what Ex Inanis is? It is a system for those of us who use our heads too much so we can get out of it, or to get better balanced with it, or to shut it up entirely.

Let’s rephrase it: What would you do if money wasn’t a factor in your decision making process?

This screws up our thinking big time, because we respond: "Well money is involved in everything!“ You will get stuck trying to resolve what you want with what you "have to do”, but the “have to do” part is the lie. Rather, it is your fears that prevent you from seeing that what you “don’t want to do” is actually exactly what you want to do.

The point of the exercise is to reduce your life down to all the things that you don’t want to “throw away.” What is “not optional” to you? When you figure it out, then how to get there doesn’t matter. You make The Motions ; the Motions are not “you.” What is important to you, is you.

Even if you’re rich, you have to live with yourself everyday. You have to deal with your thoughts and emotions no matter what, no matter where you are on Earth. You have to wake up and make decisions on what to do with your day. If you’re rich, how long would you indulge in mindless materialism before it imploded your life? But who am I to judge ; it could be that mindless materialism is exactly what your soul calling is! And that’s the point …

No one can tell you what your path is. YOU have to figure it out and then go after it. You won’t know if it is the path until you are on it. I am finding that confidence and trust are basically synonymous. You *know* what you want – you just aren’t trusting yourself to get it. You see all the obstacles, but this is a trick of Nonsense. They seem to stretch out

Ex Inanis has a strong relationship with subjective idealism ; meaning that reality comes forth from consciousness. The primary things that led me to this path were the fear of death and an obsession with creating a whole, sensible fictional world which led me down an endless rabbit hole of asking hard questions about “our reality. This post is not about those events, though.

As I have just realized (as I was practicing this new “exhausting Nonsense” concept yesterday), for an adept of Ex Inanis, the apparent subjective reality that arises from you is objective reality to you. This is very subtle. The objective is “within” the subjective, but as we have often talked about managing two worlds, we alter the subjective to create the objective, which while we recognize is a shadow or illusion of the subjective, cannot be rejected (making it a kind of faux objective) ; it must be accepted/allowed/experienced.

In understanding this, we come a little closer to existing with flow with ourselves without abandoning our inner knowing of the greater subjective experience/meta ; we are able to more smoothly operate in a world that we know is generated by its participants and so is not actually objective, but we treat it is as such because this represents an act of trust / faith which kills Nonsense. We trust the processes that “matchmake” everything together and how it arises from us absolutely.

When you truly commit yourself to a paradigm, it will reveal its truths to you, as well as its challenges / obstacles. There is no other way ; if you wish to know the ways of any perspective, it requires absolute commitment.

As I spoke of in the last post, Authenticity is an alignment of the self, which lights the way; it is the intersection of Mind & Body & Heart/Soul.

The Body, in my opinion/life, has been the hardest to integrate by far. The mind came effortlessly to me since a kid ; the heart/spirit followed very shortly afterwards ; and I have been struggling with the body ever since.

The Body requires a very advanced understanding of unity/qualia from an adept of subjective idealism. You must account for how everything is arising there, while not giving away all of your self sovereignty or becoming a tyrant. Everything in the ”physical" is there to produce “something” that is “you.“

If you become fixated

These are similar, but different concepts.

The Ex Inanis concept of Resistance is more or less ‘Home’ (in the new Lexicon) ; see the legacy article on Resistance for good information. Use whatever word resonates with you ; I use Resistance because that’s what it feels like. It is a “push back.“ It prevents you from ‘going above or beneath’ unless that is where your Wave is taking you. It isn’t always negative ; it SHOULD be a sense of comfort, or flow ; that indicates you are ‘home’ or close to it.

“Resistance” changes as we change ; so Home “moves” as we move. We move more into Home and Resistance is the new digs.

I have realized once again how Resistance is a friend ; it warns us away from behaviors we are leaving behind. It is easy to get angry or upset with negative emotions that appear to be holding us back, but a better perspective is to view these emotions as warnings or boundaries ; “go back”, “turn around.”

The challenge here is that sometimes Nonsense hides behind Resistance. Oh, yes. Remember, it is a mimic. But it takes a skillful recognition to know when Resistance is, in fact, an illusion of Nonsense.

Nonsense will borrow aspects of “home” and reflect them back to you to keep you “in your box.” It will have you rationalizing / / justifying all your suffering until your life explodes and you finally realize the illusion you’ve been buying into the whole time. Nonsense loves that.

You have to learn to recognize when the wall is solid or is just an illusion. The illusion will feel real – all the emotions and thoughts when you look upon it – but will disappear once you walk into it. And you will find the new Resistance / Home already moved with you and was waiting. That is because you already did the inner work, but didn’t do the "action" component.

That is the only way to dispel the illusion ; it requires an act of faith. You cannot will it away, or rationalize it away, or ‘figure it out’ because the illusion is coming from you, so it is a perfect mirror of your expectations. It will always ‘seem right’ no matter how you look upon it. This is the deadly nature of Nonsense.

Authenticity lights the way, but Nonsense knows

This is my personal belief – drawn from my own experiences and through Ex Inanis how everything appears to me. This, in itself, aligns or creates The Others of similar nature (in accordance to free will/choice) and that, then, also derives an overlapping Context. Our Context is similar, because our journeys are similar; our expectations creates a playing field that we can recognize together. The roles we serve for each other is only for ourselves to know. There is no right or wrong ; we teach ourselves and the universe (or “yourself”) aligns or creates the lessons.

We speak in “lessons”, but we could easily speak in terms of purifying a soul – of clearing that which holds it back, or out of cohesion. We could speak of experimenting with consciousness until it is “perfect.”

Yet I write this post with the disclaimer that my answers are not your answers. No one can answer why we are sharing this space, as the reasons are myriad. You can only answer why YOU are in this place.

“As of this writing” …

I feel as though I am here to share a message – as much of Ex Inanis was there inside day 1 and simply required 39 years to translate “as a human.” The knowledge of Ex Inanis was a relentless pest ; an itch that could never be scratched ; like rats crawling in the walls. Does this mean I was meant to share this message with you? Not necessarily. Perhaps I just need to do the work for myself to “carry it forward.” I have realized though that “sharing it with the world” is some kind of X-Factor that needs to happen.

But I also feel I have learned critical lessons my soul did not have, so “Earth" is also a means of school/purification. I think I am here to learn how to have relationships with people ; sometimes I feel like I was a god who met his dark end – alone and driven to madness – and needed a new way. My life has mirrored this in many ways.

Whether we have assimilated Nonsense and "fallen asleep” and are thrust into a kind of shadow realm, or perhaps we just never had the skill/knowledge in the first place – what is the difference?

What is it a shadow of? It is a shadow of the “real world”, although world is not quite right. It is a shadow of “whole

A few days ago I found an author (https://www.youtube.com/c/Arch…) who helped to remind me of a few of my own lessons that I had forgotten. In this case, it was an offshoot of the Rottening (see Lexicon) ; complacency tends to create a very real Groundhog’s Day.

I have been making some subtle changes in my everyday patterns to start breaking down this “Rottening" effect and it is already paying dividends. Today, I made a big realization ; at least big for me. Something that "tied the room together." There are a lot things we grasp intellectually but never pierce that place where only belief resides. Doings have a way of piercing that place in strange and unpredictable ways.

Dreams show us how that what we do in our "waking” life can often be “recombined” in our dream world ; our mundane “doings” often become abstracted or turned into metaphors in dreams. Sometimes dreams are just a “trash dump” ; a real kind of excretion of whatever you have been consuming/doing in your life. Sometimes dreams are places to play out fantasies, or fears that would be too tough in the “waking world.” What few of us ever question, though, even in paradigms that glorify physicalism, is that we have ownership over these dreams much like we have “ownership” in our own life.

The dreams “arise” from somewhere within and this is a great cheat code for anyone who doubts that your waking world arises the same way. When you truly understand this and you understand your “unity” with the dream, you need only explain the differences between the two. Much of Ex Inanis is about bridging the dream world and the "waking" world with its concepts, the primary of which is Nonsense – or the gap/buffer. Ex Inanis is meant to work even for someone coming from a hardcore physicalist mindset.

I will talk more about this later, but when you deny your life – your dream – this rejection creates “time.” Time (gap/buffer) opens the door to suffering ; suffering creates fear ; fear creates fixation ; fixation creates density. This whole process feeds on itself like a parasite and creates a prison / loop.

The realization I made – that I think I have made and am now trying to integrate much more into my life – is that you can “exhaust” Nonsense. By knowing the world arises from you, you can “challenge”

Ex Inanis is fundamentally about the Deliverance from Nothing / Nonsense ; creating states from nothing ; disregarding appearances ; faith ; the “Divine Mirror.” When doing this work, it inevitably feels like there are two worlds we are dealing with ; the world we want to leave / destroy / transmute / reorganize, and the world that we want to go into, or the “Ideal” world. Technically, this is a trick. There is no such thing as “before” or “after” or yesterday or tomorrow. The world that you desire already exists, because you have just imagined it. In every moment, your “Authenticity” plays out every possible reality outside of your awareness and returns with a “ping” that lets you know how to get what you want. You can “ping” the universe at any moment to figure out where to go. You are the “finger of God” and God / Creation is showing you how to do what you want – but you cannot reject your prior choices. Your Wave is the “cauldron" of all your choices, fading in and fading out, for all eternity. Your imagination is real. It exists – right now – in your world. Where else would it be? There is no inside and outside. "You" are everywhere! You have simply not "moved in." This "movement” is imperative. You must MOVE. You have twisted your mind with lies and rationalizations why this cannot happen. Fallen into loops and paradoxes from which you derive a kind of comfort or familiarity. Watch everything you are doing “up there” and realize there is no “up there” and “down here.” Let us be crystal clear: There is nothing wrong with your desires. The world you wish, the world you imagine ; this is the stuff of creation. I don’t care how ambitious you are ; this is not about good or evil. I do not care if you wish to become some kind of dark Overlord. All realities are realized and possible. Ex Inanis is not here to judge, but to show how it is possible / as a work of faith / as a means of deliverance. The illusionary distance between you and that world is produced by choices we have made that contained Nonsense. We put a gap / buffer into our own desires and distanced ourselves from them. This creates a myriad of problems and all suffering exists because of these choices. Ex Inanis

Something critical to remember is that the more your Wave is out of desync, the more glitches you will encounter. By glitches, I mean, more negativity, more suffering, more disruption of your life. Do not attempt to assign rhyme or reason as to why these glitches occur. They can strike any area of your life. By attempting to provide a “story" to them, you are falling into a devious trap. This process of providing a reason or a story is bottomless. It is the one of the ultimate tricks of Nonsense, because you are allowing it to use your consciousness to create "infinite reasons.” You must simply know you are out of alignment and need to start holding an intention to get back into alignment. You already “know” everything you want out of life. There is no reason to question it. You must merely trust it. It does not need you to tell it’s story. You do not need to “correct” yourself ; there is nothing wrong with you ; you are the conduit of creation. You must simply configure your lens. Just as there are positive “glitches”, I cannot understate how wild things can become when you are in desync. Stuff that has worked for you for years will go awry for seemingly no reason. You will begin to doubt even things you held resolute – your personal verisimilitude / your beliefs will be severely tested because you are essentially attacking yourself – your creative mind will begin to spin stories and this will drag you into a rabbit hole. If your cohesion cannot hold up, it will buckle and break ; this will reveal to you areas you need to improve, but it will not necessarily be pleasant. Your physical life will almost certainly suffer consequences. Always know, though, that just as quickly as things can degrade, they can improve. There are better ways to increase your cohesion without suffering – without Nonsense. Remember, though, this isn’t a rejection of suffering ; it can teach us many things, but it is the recognition that we are choosing to learn in a more loving environment from now on. When you are out of alignment, everything you do must come into service of coming back into alignment ; you might call this “healing.” Set aside all other concerns until you are back to “center” and can hold your center without effort. Nothing else matters until