Esoteric

This is the main category of the website containing all manners of my own personal philosophical, spiritual and esoteric knowledge.

What does natural mean?

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The best definition of natural can be summarized as: 'a measure of distance from God.'

Now, what do we mean by distance?

God is your immediate scene. The context. It is life. Your immediate qualia. It is everything that is derived from "you." It is all around you and everything within you. The seen and the unseen. This is Unity, or the practice of unifying everything you experience -- the physical world, the mental world, the subtle (invisible relationships, definitions, meaning) and other people -- as "one."

While this article will not address this, it always requires a disclaimer: Some people on the spiritual path are uncomfortable with the concept of the "I" once we start understanding Unity as if our ultimate end is the removal of the "I" to melt together. This knowledge will still be useful to you if you believe this, but I -- see what I did there -- believe it creates a omission, or a hole, if you "eject yourself" via "ego denial" and then you have broken Unity. You can recognize you are part of the "all" while maintaining value over your part in it.

When you understand this Unity, then anything that imposes a weight upon it can be considered a distance. In order to have experience -- in order to impose some sense of order upon the cacophony of omniscience -- we must impart these weights. Weights might also be considered judgements, or boundaries. The way you experience a flower is a collection of boundaries.

You must have a concept of perspective -- seeing behind your eyes -- a sense of physical distance -- the space between you and the flower -- the texture of the petals, the scent, the shape -- are all boundaries that are required for you to have an experience. There are more subtitles that are hidden here as well like disowning a part of your will to allow a sense that the flower is 'not you', that allows the flower to borrow your will to grow and so on.

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Stay True, Stay Safe

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NOTE! As I have warned many times, do not get caught up on words, or semantics. Look beyond. You can substitute the word vampire in this article for a lot of other words like "lost soul", or "unawakened."

You can also substitute God for Source, The Force, the cosmos or universe, the collective -- there are lots of words that may be more suitable to your understanding.

God is not stupid.

God does not allow those who are in abdication of their throne to affect the realms who are sitting on their throne. The entire world will bend and break and contort so the realm of a King and realm of a peasant will never interact. You only become a peasant thinking you need to take someone else's crown, because you are born with a crown -- you are born a King. It is your own foolishness that tosses the crown away so you can pretend to be a peasant.

Whether you believe this protection between peasants and royalty (a word that is too indulgent but gets the point across!) is divine -- as in guided by angels, ancestors -- or inherent to the nature of the universe and is something we must all learn -- it is immaterial. Both result in the same place and both perspectives are valid/valuable.

If you want to play peasant, that is your choice, but try to imagine how the life of a peasant will be conveyed to you -- overwhelming oppression by your environment. How else do we define peasant except by its context? A peasant is meaningless in a void. The individual unit and the context are inseparable -- this is your beginning to understand how this is not dualistic or polarized universe. Everything is unified, so carefully pick what you are choosing to express.

It is important to remember that "spaces do not conflict." What you see as a world outside of you is more like a quilt that is stitched together and the seams are hidden from you. You draw an arbitrary line between the physical world and dreams, for instance, when there is

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Live Like an Immortal

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How do you make your decisions? Do you plan for tomorrow? Do you consider yesterday?

You shouldn't.

You already know everything you need to know right now. The moment you step forward or back -- you have become lost. Much like the moment you argue with anything or anyone -- you lose.

Tomorrow doesn't exist. Today depends on tomorrow -- not the other way around. What you do today does not produce "tomorrow" but what you expect for tomorrow DOES produce today, because tomorrow is just a story you are holding in your mind. That is how the illusion of time is created.

It is the heavy burden of yesterday & today that creates the "sequence" of your "now" experience that is so misleading. It is the expectations of this sequence that keeps you moving from one page to the next, rather than skipping ahead or changing books.

Reality does not divide neatly into yesterday, today, or tomorrow, but the rising of the sun & moon, the tracking of calendars and the outputs of clocks give clever devices to fooling you. When you sleep, you loosen the reins of your iron grip for a little while on this game you are playing and let the universe play with you a little more freely.

When you understand that numbers on a clock and the sun in the sky are part of a "program" deep within yourself then you understand your entire experience is "you."

All of these things produce expectations, habits and motions in which you continually repeat "sequence" even when the sequence no longer serves you, or turns into suffering. It creates the "buffer" of reality, like a boomerang you are throwing in every moment. But the throwing of the boomerang is the mistake in the first place -- not a design to glorify.

You are the clocks, the sun, the moon and the stars. You are the land, the houses, the people. But they are also themselves and they join you

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What is evil?

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Evil is in the word itself -- inverted life. Anti-life. Evil is what I call "Nonsense" because this is what evil produces -- nonsense, the inane/insane, chaos, anti-creation.

Evil is not destruction. Evil is not death. Evil is not "negative" -- like wrath, or envy. Evil is not the opposite of good, or the opposite of positive.

Evil is that which breaks down the coherence of consciousness. It produces patterns that displace or remove the ability of life to exist. It is a kind of glitch produced by attempting to create an impossible state, or the confluence of states that are incompatible -- thus creating a space for evil.

It is not easy to point and say: "That is evil." Evil requires skillful discernment, but when one begins to comprehend the basic requirements of life, it becomes easier to identify the things which cause life to suffocate.

Stagnation is often an indication of evil, for example. Excess is also often a hiding place of evil.

If I had to summarize evil, it is the abdication of will. When one steps off their throne, evil sits on it. This is a spectrum and not a binary. You can "partially" abdicate.

Come get some.

But let us be clear: evil has no agency. Evil is anti-agency. Evil does not think, or plan, or strategize. It does not experience. Experience happens *to it.* Evil victimizes itself. It is how you "try" to experience pretending you do not have free will, but this creates an impossible state which creates "glitches" which you experience as a breakdown of reality.

As soon as you begin to see enemies or adversaries, you are disowning your will so that you may experience these challenges and opposition. If you blame, judge or ridicule others, you have fallen off your throne and allowing evil to play -- and evil will always create chaos.

Evil is not capable of creation because creation requires the

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Twin Flames

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Honeysuckle flowers by Beverly Buckley

Image by Honeysuckle flowers by Beverly Buckley from Pixabay

What would happen if two souls were so intertwined that they could not escape each other? This is the concept of the Twin Flames. Escape is the wrong word … how can we understand this concept in a pragmatic, Exanian way, without all the romanticism?

Much like the world itself -- a product of our own will -- Twin Flames act as mirrors to each other. Our "perfect will" creates our "imperfect intentions." Our innermost being is played out by another for us to interact and intertwine with.

One flame wills the other flame into existence and vice versa via the totality of their own being. There is no sequence here -- it is a spontaneous act of creation to fulfill the needs of two compatible souls -- two compatible Waves.

Will is the re-orientation of the cosmos to reflect a new state -- like a shining light through a piece of fractured glass.

A Twin Flame is a deep yearning to see a reflection of ourselves -- the good, the bad, the ugly -- the hopes, the desires no matter how pure or carnal -- the light & the dark -- and to bring these back together. To learn how to exonerate the good and heal the bad and find out how to interlock these pieces and experience this union in every conceivable way.

To understand this concept properly, though, requires a great deal of spiritual prerequisites.

Before that, I want to share the receipt I received from getting some groceries today, just before writing this post, after I had been thinking about this topic a lot.

The total is $26.62 -- a perfect mirror. Still believe in "coincidence?"

So, first, some fundamentals.

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Borrowed Power

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Today's lesson: do not borrow power. What does this mean?

Borrowing ideas without the proper contemplation upon them will cause widespread devastation in your life -- including your mind, body and soul. This is because, as beings, we are too complicated to be "patched" in this fashion. The soul cannot be mended with bandaids. You cannot manage your consciousness with an "off the shelf" solution and expect good results. Imagine replacing the tire on a car with a bicycle wheel, or a block of wood -- or imagine you build the foundation of your house out of cheap plastic rather than stone -- this is what you are doing when you take any ideas from outside of you and begin to utilize them without proper incorporation.

No one can avoid the contemplation that is required to digest new information or experiences, but humanity has always looked for outside saviors or answers. There is always another replacement altar to explain the circumstances of our existence and these altars just become more and more convoluted and ridiculous as time wears on. These altars all have the same things in common: they go to great lengths to deny our essence as gods. If "gods" is too strong a term for you (the "fear" of being a god is an example of altar you might be holding onto that allows you the perception of being a mere human), perhaps you would be more comfortable with "creator", or "artist", or "author."

A universal feature of Nonsense is that it is life or qualia-denying in some fashion. It destroys or avoids life through literal nonsense or "garbage." It begins with qualia denial -- deception -- of one's experience and from there begins to concoct an abyss of stories for which it uses as a cloak to hide. These stories will lead you nowhere except in circles. In the worst cases, it can become a Stockholm's Syndrome, where the denial is systematized or made normal, thus creating highly customized "prisons" which generally are also infectious (they create adherents / assimilate / imprison others.)

It is critical to deny stories which you do not wish to have power over you and understand why they do not have power over

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All Together Now, pt. 2

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(make sure to read part one.)

There is deep truth in both ideas of the Service to Self and Service to Others, because it is the same old ancient knowledge in a new package. Yet it feels less innocent than the ancient knowledge -- something uncomfortable about it -- perhaps misleading -- yet I always loathe to attribute malice to things.

Let's start here ...

When unity is apprehended, we must accept that we cannot see "past" our own qualia. You'll have a lot of trouble with this if you believe physical reality is "outside" of you, rather than seeing it as part of you. That is a divide of your own qualia. Everything we perceive is within our perception and there is nothing outside of this perception. This includes the physical world itself, but also the unseen world of our mind and fantasies. It all lies within our own qualia experience. Whose else would it be? Note, this does not mean you are not receiving feedback from outside of yourself, only that the data you are even able to receive can never escape your own senses ...

If Others are "real", at best, we are still "prisoners of our own minds", because even feedback from the Other represents yet another perception that appears to be ours. There is no distinction of "outside" ourselves when the boundaries between the physical & mind have been removed. Even our dreams are still being observed from "our observer" and so also must be ours.

Most folks simply turn away from the idea of unifying consciousness in this way. Most cannot get past the "shame" of solipsism, or skepticism, or subjectivism, in order to explore these ideas, which perhaps hold all the keys to our world. There is clearly an apparent "external" reality and they simply cannot make the leap, so they take shelter in the physical world -- clear inside & outside. This has advantages and disadvantages, but we are not here to talk about those.

Ex Inanis won't shame them for this. Staring into the abyss requires a toll and not everyone is willing to pay it. I promise you:

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All Together Now, pt. 1

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A reminder of the standard disclaimer: these articles are not intended to "draw you to conclusions." Use this discussion as a means to find your own truth.

This article has been in the wings for a few weeks now. I had a version that I had to re-write, because it lead to me remembering some old discoveries that had gotten lost to time. Significant enough that I believe this marks the beginning of the Third Era.

As consciousness becomes more coherent, it begins to understand that it and its environment are connected. As this connection is explored, it realizes -- more and more -- that its environment arises from itself and at the absolute upper end, it realizes that it is indistinguishable from this environment. When this knowledge first arrives, it brings with it glitches and oddities that begin to occur, such as frequent coincidences, the same sequence of numbers of a clock over & over, and lucid dreams.

If one hears the call and starts upon the path, the oddities become more bizarre. You will sometimes feel as if you can read minds or that people can seem to "echo" events or thoughts you've had recently. I call these echoes or traces. You'll see news articles, or meet people in perfect timing, or you'll see what seemed like a mistake was in fact a requirement for exactly what you wanted.

Coincidences no longer seem like coincidences, but either divine intervention or some kind of script. You may experience unlikely events like the arrival of fortune out of nowhere, an old friend appears to save you out of a bad situation. You may even have "near death" experiences where it seems like you should have died but somehow dodged a bullet.

As you progress more, you may experience remembering a different world altogether -- similar to the one you are in, but with certain memories of differences. Folks in your reality may deride you for being delusional and accuse you of misremembering or having cognitive bias. But even if these disagreements come from

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Body Fixation

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You are living in a time or a world that has no concepts of doctors. Your closet equivalent is a shaman, or a healer, who is familiar with empowering patterns of consciousness (everyone comes to them for advice) and perhaps some simple herbs & remedies. These simple remedies are backed up by powerful stories familiar to your culture or tribe. For instance, you may believe that strawberries, with their powerful red color, are good for circulation or enhance passion.

Consuming these stories is bringing them into yourself. We consume stories like this all the time.

Our culture is far too fixated on the body. We blame everything on the body and it becomes a fixation upon which all other stories need to pay tribute.

Why does it feel uncomfortable or "yucky" to see "underneath" the flesh? Why do we recoil? Have you ever stopped to wonder why?

Revulsion is a warning sign -- ignored and overwritten at one's peril. All feelings are feedback mechanisms tuned to Zero/God and are in perfect order. They are how you "receive signals" from the cosmos. They malfunction when they are ignored or second-guessed. They are not intended to provide you with a "complete answer" because that answer is far too sprawling and complex for you to comprehend in the moment when a decision must be made -- see the Drunk Librarian and how we have been created to be the "ultimate references."

How did the anatomy of the human body come into being, except through a gradual progression of fixation and expectation of narrative creating it? Like the tree falling in the forest when no one is around -- is there an "inside" of the body if no one has ever seen it?

Of course there isn't -- because nothing exists until it is brought into creation via an act of will (observation.) Return to an older post about how science has become a physical obsession --> Science & AI. This does not mean we are not beholden to "old observations" that have settled into the collective mind -- but rather we have "delved too deep."

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The House of Mirrors

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You are always at the "apex" of your cohesion as an individualized soul, even if this apex may appear a "less than you can imagine." I want you to consider not just your entire life, but all your prior lives. If you do not believe in reincarnation (or variants), then consider all the lives of your ancestors ; consider the "code" that you believe is in the DNA that was cultivated by the lives of your ancestors -- the material that provides some level of influence when you enter this world. There are things you know that are built-in -- not just behaviors, but preferences that seem to have no roots in your current life.

Now with this consideration in mind, consider how all of these experiences & knowledge would culminate into a lens, or a window, as they must. This is easy to do. If you are conditioned to thinking you are "all that is of this life" then just expand your scope to consider you are "all that has come before" as well.

With this mind, then, let us consider: Why are you here? This article is not about why we live or why we experience but why you are here in this moment and not somewhere else. But the more important question is: why can't you go somewhere else?

"Somewhere else." What does that mean? Well, you can easily conceive a place "other than here" can't you? I don't mean your home versus the grocery store. I mean a place that seems "other" than your "whole conception of the universe."

And you say, well, there is space and perhaps other dimensions-yet-to-be-discovered and so on and yet even if we accept these explanations there remains one truth in all of this: wherever you go, there you are.

Our consciousness follows us wherever we go and provides the means by which we experience "the outside." So even if we move, or travel, can we have said to have gone anywhere at all? Not really. Your joys and foibles will follow you wherever you go. You cannot see past your own perceptions. What you see is always you, even if it is reflected off another.

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