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Just so readers are aware: I do not post or talk on any other platforms at this time.

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If you see the handle "macil" which I use as my author name on any other site other than this website -- it is not me and you are not speaking to me.

I do not use Twitch, Discord, or Steam to talk to people.

I do not use Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, Twitter / X, Gab, Substack, or any other platform to post or talk to people.

I may be reached by at --> [email protected]

I will make announcements or post links here if and when I begin to use other platforms.


State of the Garden (January)

Sorry for the quality of photos. The camera on my phone is a little wonky.

Most the "bushes" you see are arugula. Arugula is a peppery lettuce that is super low in oxalates and quite tasty for making salads. The little green sprouts in the front are lettuce.

My second pumpkin patch. The other one died. This one is doing better, but I think I have some sort of mold that I am not sure how to treat. I am happy it at least got this far to see some actual pumpkins developing.

I planted cilantro a couple of years ago that went crazy. Now every year I get cilantro everywhere in my yard. I primarily use mine in detox shakes, but of course cilantro has lots of uses.

The left is a small lettuce patch. The right is my immortal Jalapeno tree. Well, hopefully immortal. He's sort of just hanging on right now.

These are the first tomatoes I have raised from seed. It is nice to have fresh tomatoes in winter.


Black magic, daemons, & DOS/DDOS

The word "demon" should be seen as describing someone who is more controlled by daemons than their own will.

A demon may also be considered a soul (a player behind an "account (soul)") who is in the process of becoming physical, or volunteering for the role of being something akin to an "NPC" -- a "non-player-character" or "background person."

Someone who is more run by daemons than they are by their lucid awareness can be considered a "demon." In other words, someone who functions more on automated responses or decisions is demonic. A demon is an agent of the physical world. They are synonymous. The demon obeys the physical world and is its messenger. It has no agency of its own. It is compelled by physical demands. You may even consider the physical world as its collective, its master, or a gestalt from which it receives orders.

If there is a soul beneath the 'demon', it is suppressed by the collection of its own daemons and can be considered "asleep." The soul is not able to effectively exert its will without first dealing with the demands of its own daemons.

Anyone who has authority over the physical world can control countless "demons."

Demons may also be considered doppelgangers or mimics, as they have very poor understanding of concepts like empathy or compassion and instead must emulate these traits. Demons are will generally become sociopaths or narcissists, as they either become like vampires who cannot see themselves in the mirror -- or become so enamored by the mirror, they no longer see a reflection and so treat everyone like they own them.

You cannot deal with a demon the same way you deal with a "normal" person. As an agent of the physical world, the demon is as dangerous as a poisonous snake, or an avalanche. You cannot make the mistake of thinking it deliberates, or contemplates or functions with ethics or morals in exchanges with you. You do so at your own peril, much like handling a wild animal.

It has no qualms or stipulations of breaking laws whether these are man-made, or


Success, Pain & Persistence

What does success look like? It looks like pain & persistence. Anyone who tells you otherwise is a liar.

What is pain?

Pain is the soul purifying itself. It is what it feels like when it identifies a distortion or imbalance within the soul. When there is incoherence or a lack of integrity, it produces pain. Pain can be physical or mental. Pain represents a blockage, or a stagnation, as this is what blocks will -- the flow of life -- and when it becomes severe enough, it will begin to produce distortions in your reality -- not just your body, but your entire life, even including who is invited into your experience and how they treat you, for you cannot help but "hear" your own Nonsense (or "the devil.")

It is not Nonsense jumping from person to person, but YOU who are hearing your own flaws through the voices and stories of others. YOU will create the perfect story every time because only YOU know yourself best.

What is critical to understand about all of reality is that everything is a mirror until you are able to actualize. Once actualization is done, you are able to distill your "ego" out of all perception. Combine this with the true understanding of Unity -- which is that you are watching a kind of choose-your-own-adventure movie which encompasses the entire world of your experience both inside & out -- this combination allows you to detach from the entire scene of the world.

Understanding any of this on an intellectual level is insufficient. It takes years of commitment to these ideas to "train" the soul. Lip service is not good enough. Belief cannot be faked. The soul is a student that requires your training. Your lucid awareness is how the soul is trained. Your lucid awareness is your apex absolute dominion and the world must obey. This training process is not done with simple apprehension, but applied practice.

Nothing is omitted from this practice. The soul is trained whether you are "still" or "in motion" because will/creation is


The Mirrored Path

From where does your light originate?

It originates from God and nowhere else. Each person is their own tree of life.

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Suffering begins with this denial. Suffering is when branches reach into other trees thinking they must shelter them, or shelter themselves. Suffering begins when you seek out sources of light other than God's, from which you are already rooted.

All have a connection to God that cannot be destroyed or removed, but can be self-obfuscated. It can be obfuscated by coveting the light of The Other ; it can also be obfuscated through the belief that The Other can obfuscate it.

All of reality could be said to be a scale of suffering, as perfection would be the only state where suffering does not exist. Perfection would be "all of creation", "the known universe", aka God. This is the eternal state machine that produces "Now" ; the eternal universe for which there is no end, no beginning -- no time -- just this moment from which you cultivate with your decisions.

All of your experience a product of this eternal state with you hold within. Your body, your thoughts, your feelings, your sensations, your definitions, your relationships, your meanings, space -- whether the space of your mind, or the space between objects, or the space between the pain or pleasure in your body -- your "Others." All of it. It is not outside of you.

All things are possible and you exist now at the forefront of your collective choices. You can be nowhere else as there is nowhere else to be. You cannot "go" anywhere except where you are as you follow you. To misunderstand this is to open the door to physicality where you have displaced yourself into a "place." You can feel this "divide" when you think you are "in" the movie instead of watching it. And watching = choosing. The next "frame" is not determined.

You have already arrived at your own perfection which is eternally imperfect.