
I'm going to start a practice of doing daily sketches and maybe a few other "dailies." This one was made on my iPad using Procreate.
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I'm going to start a practice of doing daily sketches and maybe a few other "dailies." This one was made on my iPad using Procreate.
Be sure to read the prior article: What is evil? since I posted both of these at the same time.
To understand vampirism, there are quite a few mechanics of this world that one must understand. I will attempt to give a high level overview here, but don't expect to understand this all at once. Again, as I spoke about when I started this blog -- the blog is meant to be taken as a whole. If a piece gives you an 'aha', then that is great -- but the understandings I am putting out here are incomplete in themselves.
First of all, vampires do not understand they are vampires. As we talked about in the prior article, Nonsense has no agency. Those who are indulging in vampirism have no agency but are more "possessed of Nonsense." There is a reason the vampire is "undead" -- because it has no life. It is false life. An abdication of the throne -- an ejection of God. They are letting the natural energy of the cosmos run wild in their realm but have a basic structure of "ego" that allows it some kind of animation or structure that is deceptive.
The natural state of a soul is unconditional love, because that is the "root of God." Then there are "layers on top" that allow life to be expressed. Some of these layers produce Nonsense, or anti-life -- these are patterns we talked about in the prior article. These prevent souls from using their agency.
One must have a basic understanding of the idea of the True Self, or what I call MVG -- or what others might call Nirvana, Christ Consciousness, Enlightenment and so on …
You are the observer behind it all, making Decisions. It seems like this should be a simple concept to convey, but physical reality makes this impossibly hard to teach people.
It is a little easier if you can accept the whole world and your physical experience is coming from you. I call this Unity. It is not outside of you. This will ease your understanding a little that you are like
Evil is in the word itself -- inverted life. Anti-life. Evil is what I call "Nonsense" because this is what evil produces -- nonsense, the inane/insane, chaos, anti-creation.
Evil is not destruction. Evil is not death. Evil is not "negative" -- like wrath, or envy. Evil is not the opposite of good, or the opposite of positive.
Evil is that which breaks down the coherence of consciousness. It produces patterns that displace or remove the ability of life to exist. It is a kind of glitch produced by attempting to create an impossible state, or the confluence of states that are incompatible -- thus creating a space for evil.
It is not easy to point and say: "That is evil." Evil requires skillful discernment, but when one begins to comprehend the basic requirements of life, it becomes easier to identify the things which cause life to suffocate.
Stagnation is often an indication of evil, for example. Excess is also often a hiding place of evil.
If I had to summarize evil, it is the abdication of will. When one steps off their throne, evil sits on it. This is a spectrum and not a binary. You can "partially" abdicate.
Come get some.
But let us be clear: evil has no agency. Evil is anti-agency. Evil does not think, or plan, or strategize. It does not experience. Experience happens *to it.* Evil victimizes itself. It is how you "try" to experience pretending you do not have free will, but this creates an impossible state which creates "glitches" which you experience as a breakdown of reality.
As soon as you begin to see enemies or adversaries, you are disowning your will so that you may experience these challenges and opposition. If you blame, judge or ridicule others, you have fallen off your throne and allowing evil to play -- and evil will always create chaos.
Evil is not capable of creation because creation requires the
This is a tale about a man lost in a labyrinth of endless mind, imagination and shadow with no way out.
You bound into my life with a dazzling fire and illuminated the dark place that I dwelt. I chased after your fire, terrified to leave the place I reluctantly called home for so long. I did not know what I was doing and I did not care. I felt foolish and embarrassed.
I was mesmerized by your light. I could not pull away. You brought such vibrancy to the world that I could see, if only to stumble. I was not afraid to walk when you were near.
You banished the gloom and my heart warmed, my eyes softened and I could feel again. But I did not know what to do with it.
I saw how my darkness let you rest from your own nature. You could curl up in my lap -- just for a little while. You could set aside your cleverness, ease your paws and just be without needing to be anywhere. But you were always drawn back to where you came and I grieved every time you left.
You came to visit me again and again and we celebrated this odd partnership that seemed to come out of nowhere that we could not define.
But ultimately it was a dance we could not keep up.
You wanted me to keep up with you, but I feared the forest. I leapt, and ran and jumped, but I did not have your grace. I fell over and over again. And I was afraid of your fire. I needed you to cool your flames for just a little while so I could hold your hand -- but you did not know how.
But we tried anyway. Over and over. And we burned each other. And even though it burned, it seemed right. Every wound was secretly a blessing.
Image by Honeysuckle flowers by Beverly Buckley from Pixabay
What would happen if two souls were so intertwined that they could not escape each other? This is the concept of the Twin Flames. Escape is the wrong word … how can we understand this concept in a pragmatic, Exanian way, without all the romanticism?
Much like the world itself -- a product of our own will -- Twin Flames act as mirrors to each other. Our "perfect will" creates our "imperfect intentions." Our innermost being is played out by another for us to interact and intertwine with.
One flame wills the other flame into existence and vice versa via the totality of their own being. There is no sequence here -- it is a spontaneous act of creation to fulfill the needs of two compatible souls -- two compatible Waves.
Will is the re-orientation of the cosmos to reflect a new state -- like a shining light through a piece of fractured glass.
A Twin Flame is a deep yearning to see a reflection of ourselves -- the good, the bad, the ugly -- the hopes, the desires no matter how pure or carnal -- the light & the dark -- and to bring these back together. To learn how to exonerate the good and heal the bad and find out how to interlock these pieces and experience this union in every conceivable way.
To understand this concept properly, though, requires a great deal of spiritual prerequisites.
Before that, I want to share the receipt I received from getting some groceries today, just before writing this post, after I had been thinking about this topic a lot.
The total is $26.62 -- a perfect mirror. Still believe in "coincidence?"
So, first, some fundamentals.
Today's lesson: do not borrow power. What does this mean?
Borrowing ideas without the proper contemplation upon them will cause widespread devastation in your life -- including your mind, body and soul. This is because, as beings, we are too complicated to be "patched" in this fashion. The soul cannot be mended with bandaids. You cannot manage your consciousness with an "off the shelf" solution and expect good results. Imagine replacing the tire on a car with a bicycle wheel, or a block of wood -- or imagine you build the foundation of your house out of cheap plastic rather than stone -- this is what you are doing when you take any ideas from outside of you and begin to utilize them without proper incorporation.
No one can avoid the contemplation that is required to digest new information or experiences, but humanity has always looked for outside saviors or answers. There is always another replacement altar to explain the circumstances of our existence and these altars just become more and more convoluted and ridiculous as time wears on. These altars all have the same things in common: they go to great lengths to deny our essence as gods. If "gods" is too strong a term for you (the "fear" of being a god is an example of altar you might be holding onto that allows you the perception of being a mere human), perhaps you would be more comfortable with "creator", or "artist", or "author."
A universal feature of Nonsense is that it is life or qualia-denying in some fashion. It destroys or avoids life through literal nonsense or "garbage." It begins with qualia denial -- deception -- of one's experience and from there begins to concoct an abyss of stories for which it uses as a cloak to hide. These stories will lead you nowhere except in circles. In the worst cases, it can become a Stockholm's Syndrome, where the denial is systematized or made normal, thus creating highly customized "prisons" which generally are also infectious (they create adherents / assimilate / imprison others.)
It is critical to deny stories which you do not wish to have power over you and understand why they do not have power over
(make sure to read part one.)
There is deep truth in both ideas of the Service to Self and Service to Others, because it is the same old ancient knowledge in a new package. Yet it feels less innocent than the ancient knowledge -- something uncomfortable about it -- perhaps misleading -- yet I always loathe to attribute malice to things.
Let's start here ...
When unity is apprehended, we must accept that we cannot see "past" our own qualia. You'll have a lot of trouble with this if you believe physical reality is "outside" of you, rather than seeing it as part of you. That is a divide of your own qualia. Everything we perceive is within our perception and there is nothing outside of this perception. This includes the physical world itself, but also the unseen world of our mind and fantasies. It all lies within our own qualia experience. Whose else would it be? Note, this does not mean you are not receiving feedback from outside of yourself, only that the data you are even able to receive can never escape your own senses ...
If Others are "real", at best, we are still "prisoners of our own minds", because even feedback from the Other represents yet another perception that appears to be ours. There is no distinction of "outside" ourselves when the boundaries between the physical & mind have been removed. Even our dreams are still being observed from "our observer" and so also must be ours.
Most folks simply turn away from the idea of unifying consciousness in this way. Most cannot get past the "shame" of solipsism, or skepticism, or subjectivism, in order to explore these ideas, which perhaps hold all the keys to our world. There is clearly an apparent "external" reality and they simply cannot make the leap, so they take shelter in the physical world -- clear inside & outside. This has advantages and disadvantages, but we are not here to talk about those.
Ex Inanis won't shame them for this. Staring into the abyss requires a toll and not everyone is willing to pay it. I promise you:
A reminder of the standard disclaimer: these articles are not intended to "draw you to conclusions." Use this discussion as a means to find your own truth.
This article has been in the wings for a few weeks now. I had a version that I had to re-write, because it lead to me remembering some old discoveries that had gotten lost to time. Significant enough that I believe this marks the beginning of the Third Era.
As consciousness becomes more coherent, it begins to understand that it and its environment are connected. As this connection is explored, it realizes -- more and more -- that its environment arises from itself and at the absolute upper end, it realizes that it is indistinguishable from this environment. When this knowledge first arrives, it brings with it glitches and oddities that begin to occur, such as frequent coincidences, the same sequence of numbers of a clock over & over, and lucid dreams.
If one hears the call and starts upon the path, the oddities become more bizarre. You will sometimes feel as if you can read minds or that people can seem to "echo" events or thoughts you've had recently. I call these echoes or traces. You'll see news articles, or meet people in perfect timing, or you'll see what seemed like a mistake was in fact a requirement for exactly what you wanted.
Coincidences no longer seem like coincidences, but either divine intervention or some kind of script. You may experience unlikely events like the arrival of fortune out of nowhere, an old friend appears to save you out of a bad situation. You may even have "near death" experiences where it seems like you should have died but somehow dodged a bullet.
As you progress more, you may experience remembering a different world altogether -- similar to the one you are in, but with certain memories of differences. Folks in your reality may deride you for being delusional and accuse you of misremembering or having cognitive bias. But even if these disagreements come from
You are living in a time or a world that has no concepts of doctors. Your closet equivalent is a shaman, or a healer, who is familiar with empowering patterns of consciousness (everyone comes to them for advice) and perhaps some simple herbs & remedies. These simple remedies are backed up by powerful stories familiar to your culture or tribe. For instance, you may believe that strawberries, with their powerful red color, are good for circulation or enhance passion.
Consuming these stories is bringing them into yourself. We consume stories like this all the time.
Our culture is far too fixated on the body. We blame everything on the body and it becomes a fixation upon which all other stories need to pay tribute.
Why does it feel uncomfortable or "yucky" to see "underneath" the flesh? Why do we recoil? Have you ever stopped to wonder why?
Revulsion is a warning sign -- ignored and overwritten at one's peril. All feelings are feedback mechanisms tuned to Zero/God and are in perfect order. They are how you "receive signals" from the cosmos. They malfunction when they are ignored or second-guessed. They are not intended to provide you with a "complete answer" because that answer is far too sprawling and complex for you to comprehend in the moment when a decision must be made -- see the Drunk Librarian and how we have been created to be the "ultimate references."
How did the anatomy of the human body come into being, except through a gradual progression of fixation and expectation of narrative creating it? Like the tree falling in the forest when no one is around -- is there an "inside" of the body if no one has ever seen it?
Of course there isn't -- because nothing exists until it is brought into creation via an act of will (observation.) Return to an older post about how science has become a physical obsession --> Science & AI. This does not mean we are not beholden to "old observations" that have settled into the collective mind -- but rather we have "delved too deep."