Mastery_Legacy

I’ve been at this gate in my life before but this is the farthest I’ve ever stepped through. I’ve never published my words before (without ripping everything down), or shared some of my creative work. I’ve never been so totally and wholly committed to achieving the life that I want to live where I feel almost detached from life altogether. I’m closer to embodying what I call “wonderment” than ever before.

I want to talk about something that has come up every time I’ve approached this gate before that has gotten me to turn back. It is irritatingly effective. Primarily this “gatekeeper” manifests in arguments from The Other, but I can’t blame the Other for continually buying it. I’ve certainly talked myself out of passing this gate before with the same argument. I’m making it a point to put it here so I know there’s no excuses.

It concerns the nature of work & play.

We often think that work is “anything we need to do, but don’t want to do.”

And we often think that play is “anything we want to do, but don’t need to do.”

You may already see the problem if you’re clever, but let’s continue.

When we are on “the path” (as I call Ex Inanis), we are attempting to sculpt our lives into something holistic, or organic. We are ruthlessly looking for pockets of resistance and blockages to remove. We are seeking to remove all the “divides” within ourselves. That is, we are attempting to create an environment for ourselves to live in that effortlessly produces the life (the consciousness) that we want to embody.

Our holy grail is a state of effortless 24/7 flow.

We do not want to keep having to put “effort” into maintaining a particular stand of mind or life. It should automate itself.

This absolutely means we cannot continue participating in practices that actually run contrary to what we are trying to do. That seems obvious. Yet, if it was so obvious, we would not so often compromise with ourselves.

So, what is the the justification that has so often turned me back from doing the things that I want to do? What has created more complacency than anything else?

“You need to relax. No one can work all the time. You’ll burn out. You need to unwind. Enjoy life.“

This is a good example of mixing truth and lies. Ex Inanis would never tell you not to enjoy yourself. Ex Inanis is about achieving the ultimate joy.

I never needed a break from gaming – I could game until my eyes bled. So why do I need a break from “work” that I want to do?

The problem is obvious – perceiving the work as ‘work’ and perceiving the ‘play’ as ‘play’ (as we have defined above.) Don’t understand?

I have many goals I want to achieve in life but I will just give one example: I want to become a professional artist. So, the argument always goes: “Well, you can’t draw all the time. Everyone needs time off.”

Every time my heart has just gone “Huh? That doesn’t make any sense. Why can’t I draw all the time? Why would I burn out?”

I perceived the art as “work”, so it was something that I needed to do, but didn’t want to do (even though I did).

I perceived the games as “play.” I never thought I would burn out on video games – so I didn’t. So what is stopping us from applying the same perception to ANY ACTIVITY IN LIFE? Nothing. Nothing at all. Except this whole “work/play” polarity. That’s the trap.

Work drives you into the arms of play and play abuses you until you need to work. Should we glorify this as “balance” or a clever ruse to keep you running in circles?

We remove the divide. We merge work and play. Then it becomes – “anything we need to do, we want to do” and its inverse is implied – “anything we want to do, we need to do.”

Now there is no blockage.

Balance emerges when we are living Authentically, or in concert with the heart. We can’t necessarily predict what that balance will look like – we just trust that it will arise.

There are complications here, of course – the primary fault of gaming, in my opinion, is the sense of satisfaction / achievement it creates. Removing our hunger from our heart’s desires or self improvement is a recipe – for you guessed it – Nonsense/complacency/entropy. So gaming was always a “double whammy”, but gaming could just as well have been any human vice.

But that is the gist. Now we practice removing any idea of work & play from our lives, transmute this into just “being” or “doing” and start enjoying the activities that embody the life that we want to live.

Addiction and complacency may as well be one and the same.

Addition doesn’t have to be an addiction to destroy your life. Or perhaps the definition of addiction is too nebulous for most of us to understand. You’re not addicted, you say? You can simply become complacent with a status quo, or rationalize your mediocrity.

Anything you do that your heart knows is disruptive to your life, or holds you back from experiences you want – or need – might be described as an addiction. Our physical health doesn’t need to visibly deteriorate. We can simply be bled slowly over many years and just come to think this is normal. This may even manifest as a gradual decay in the body that is just an accepted part of being human. Hmm. I wonder what that sounds like.

This can go on for so long you actually create a paradigm out of it. You could even market & sell it!

This kind of “addiction” may even be more insidious because it easily masquerades under the approval of our own consciousness and may also manifest in The Other who keeps you in the same place. This is how Nonsense can abuse love – by hiding behind The Other, whom you love and want to exist in harmony with – so you compromise and don’t do a damn thing to offend them. You let yourself commiserate or be convinced and think this is good for you, because it came from someone you love.

Ah, well …

When you adopt a paradigm rooted in subjective idealism, it becomes very difficult to put poison into your life, even if that poison is comforting or familiar. Every time you fail to adhere to your heart’s request, it builds an irritation, disappointment or discontent (we might even call that ‘inflammation’) , like a little drop of poison. Deep down you know this and yet you keep justifying – its alright, just one more drop of poison. How much could be in there? It’ll wash out. I’ll deal with the consequences.

You know that consequences of that extra helping of fries, or that 8-hour game session doesn’t just disappear. You know that choosing to stay in instead of going out to make friends is just another delay, but its alright – I’ll just “attract” what I want out of the ether. It’ll show up. I just gotta trust it. I’m just not trusting hard enough, for fuck’s sake! Have another beer or pop a pill. I can transmute it!

Let’s look at my little toroidal field image again (from the Lexicon) that I totally didn’t ripoff and edit –>

You know that whatever you put it drifts back around to you in some form or another. You might not even know what form it will take. Perhaps the consequences manifest as something totally and seemingly unrelated to the original action. That’s how the “dream” recombines and is reborn again and again. Your dreams, every night, show you how one thing can turn into another – yet you think this doesn’t happen in your waking reality?

You heart tells you to quit it, but your rationalize “see, there were no consequences.”

There isn’t always a clearly defined antecedent. It is “all energy” which we are always reinterpreting as it passes by. Our state of being, mind, thoughts, feelings at the moment of interpretation change the picture entirely. All those nights you decided to stay home and think the only consequence is loneliness – now it manifests as indigestion, an argument with a friend, a perfectly good computer malfunctioning, a broken pipe, or that brand new game being terrible. You can never know.

Your dream will fuck with you because you are fucking with yourself. Crazy? What is crazy is that you know what your heart desires but let fear make all your decisions.

Maybe years of physical tension and repressing your heart’s desires – each little drop of poison – eventually manifests into a kidney stone to wake your ass up. Human death is a critical accumulation of too much Nonsense.

I prefer the term complacency to addiction because addiction just triggers knee-jerk reactions. At least there is some wiggle room when we talk about complacency and recognizing how detrimental it is to one’s life.

Does your life resemble your ideal? Mine doesn’t – so the work continues.

The last few months have felt like I’ve been thrown into the world I only figured out in my head. Like some greater power said, alright, you got it a long time ago – I’m done waiting, get your ass over there.

The last ten years … feel like an extended intellectual vomit – a kind of soul detox. It is hard to dismiss some part of me feels like I haven’t moved anywhere in all that time. I know that isn’t true – I don’t think I could have gotten here any other way. I know I have made leaps & bounds as a person, yet I also feel like in many ways I am starting over.

I may have done a great deal of inner work in the last 10 years and yet my (immediate / local) physical world remains much the same. I have not really gotten any closer to any of the (physical) ideals I created for myself. Again, that is a partial truth – my real progress is in removing mental obstacles that may allow me to actually achieve those original dreams.

I feel a little like my boat sank and I have been washed ashore upon a new world. I arrived at my destination, yet without anything I brought with me and I am trying to make sense of it all. Maybe that is a blessing?

Gaming has always been a big part of my life. Gaming for me wasn’t just escapism but it was a superior world. I figured that if the ‘real world’ couldn’t engage me better than a mere video game, then the ‘real world’ wasn’t worth the attention. It was contingent upon the real world to be more interesting and engaging, no? That’s what I figured. While I am nowhere near the stereotypical “Hikikomori”, my life has certainly been lopsided to isolation – or perhaps just “aggressively mediocre.” I feel more like a well-traveled ghost than a hermit hiding in a cave.

On the other end of this, though, I see the “real world” was always a doomed prospect if I had already decided it so. And in so deciding, I started seeing & creating a world less and less desirable. I was shrinking the “available world” and making my realm smaller and smaller.

This is what I know: we aren’t meant to live our lives through boxes of glass. What is natural about sitting alone talking to virtual people? It doesn’t matter one iota if those people have some real physical substance somewhere “out there” – I have met plenty of them – but this is way harder for a subjective idealist. When you are talking to that virtual person – in your own dream – it doesn’t change the fact you are sitting alone, talking to a box of freaking glass. That’s, uh, how they say … not ideal.

The more I think about it, the more bizarre it becomes.

A video game is essentially a game within a game. We already “in a game” and yet we are escaping into another game. There is something very wrong here. The video game can’t be “separate” from qualia, yet instead it represents a kind of denial or rejection – a quiet acceptance of mediocrity? Do gods play games on computer screens?

You argue – well, life is all about ways to spend our time – there are no “wrong” choices. That might be true, yet whenever I ponder these questions I ask: “If this were a dream, would I waste it playing a video game, or go out and explore what the dream had to offer? Would I rather spend it alone – or with others?“

There are certainly “less ideal” choices, or choices that seem to open more vectors to Nonsense. The world may seem unappealing, yet sitting with a box of glass has infinitely more “unnaturalness” to it than the “greater world.” The fact that I can even question the “naturalness” of gaming should be a clue. Why am I even negotiating with it?

You counter, saying the game is “part of the dream” also and so is as valid a choice as anything (and that is true), yet when I began to glimpse at – what I believe/d – to be the nature of the universe, I began to ask: “Why play a video game when I can work on myself to create the same experiences without the narrow perspective (box of glass)?”

Games offer us experiences we couldn’t otherwise have, but will that always be true? If we don’t work on ourselves, how could we ever expect a more fantastical “real life”? If magic emanates from consciousness, then it is contingent upon us to embody the consciousness capable of magic. Wouldn’t we all rather play our “video games” in the full breadth of our life/qualia rather than sitting alone in a room facing tiny screen? In what “ideal” universe do we ever sit in front of a computer rather than playing the actual role of a wizard or a space man?

Why is the “isekai” genre so popular? Because it knows this shit. On some deep level, we’d rather be run over by trucks rather than keep messing with this black box.

An hour spent on a game is an hour delayed that could have expanded your consciousness – made you more of a god. Even if took a thousand years of reincarnation, wouldn’t that be a better use of my time, than descending further into the “game within a game”?

The same truth holds for anything we have derived from the black box. Social media, news/reporting, information of all kind, entertainment … Would not each of our lives be better with communities, friends and relationships?

Ah, moderation, you say – none of this is a problem with balance. But I do not see this as a question of moderation, or addiction, or unhealthy habits. It is about the nature of the beast to begin with. Is it not such an irony that the thing that is suppose to “connect everyone” actually isolates and disconnects them into their own worlds? Inch by inch, it takes you. Sounds familiar, doesn’t it? Yeah, sounds a lot like our daily descriptions of Nonsense.

Should we simply abide these very immediate and salient truths? I have always followed the philosophy that whatever we believe is ultimately true (IDEAL) even if it “not possible” should imminently inform our behavior to the best of our ability. We live our lives “now” and any compromise on “now” should really be unacceptable, no? Like negotiating with a terrorist. As soon as we allow “tomorrow” to inform right now, we have already lost.

I have an overwhelming love for art & animation and computers have become integral to that medium. I am not suggesting we become luddites, yet in my opinion either the Internet/computers or the nature in which we interact with it is in dire need of revision.

If we saw computers “only for work”, would that fix it? Then it is just a tool, like a hammer or a saw, not an excuse or black hole separating us from our own lives. This re-framing completely changes how we even approach the computer – its other functions don’t even EXIST. You train yourself, with as much arrogance as you need, to look at The Other like they’re crazy when they talk about how they’re using a hammer to talk to people across the world. Nuts!

Why do we do this? Because we want real people in our immediate qualia – not virtual people (as even a concept) – and we don’t need be creating “interim steps.”

[ edit: This was a bit tongue-in-cheek. I want to clarify this is a mental exercise to move one to seeing the computer as a tool, not a denial that it can also be used to meet real people. Actually, we can include that as part of the ‘tool’ function – maybe write about this later – as usual, discernment/skill is needed with all things. ]

I know that in my own life I have to change how I approach the black box. I am going to narrow the scope of how I use it only to creative pursuits as best I can. Anything that even approaches consumption over engaging my own qualia needs to go. I’ll talk a little more about Creation & Consumption in a subsequent post.

Someone on my Tumblr feed posted a quote about burning bridges to the light the way. I agree. For now, I leave with this –>

That’s 12,870 hours that could have been applied to ascension. And the 666 is eerie.

GoG and Humble Bundle are also in process.

I see you, Nonsense. I am on to you. I already hear the laments from The Other. I do this because I am tired of mediocrity.

To continue somewhat with the last post, mastery is really about turning the tight rope into a platform, where thoughts begin to calm and quiet.

This post will posit more questions than answers, because I am doing some major re-visioning in myself.

What I want to revisit, though, is the origin of thoughts. There seems to be several types of thoughts.

Reaction Thoughts – thoughts that arise in reaction to (perceived) “external” events.

Random / Unbidden Thoughts – thoughts that seem to have no particular origin yet still arrive in “language form.”

Ambient thoughts – Similar to unbidden thoughts, seem to “bubble up” when we relax, meditate, sleep – it seems like random observation of ourselves (even forgotten or long dormant aspects of ourselves.)

Chosen Thoughts – Seemingly restricted, or filtered, by the Wave, these are thoughts we seem to be able to “will” into being ; like picking items off a shelf. Self-talk, planning, “abusing imagination space” (sorry, future post) are examples of this.

But in effect, these are “all the same.”

If we assume that thoughts are a kind of “translation” of ourselves – energy – then the language is a device we created to give structure to energetic patterns / vibrations / etc. that we are able to feel / see / so on.

If we believe that all thought originates from within, then the mechanism of how certain thoughts come about is more of a usurpation / automation of will. That is, in theory, we allowed certain thoughts to come to us “automatically” because it was useful at some point – but it has become a shackle – a cacophony which we have entire physical & spiritual practices to deal with. What the hell? No one thinks this the least suspicious? Why not just shut down these robots?

I have been having serious doubts about a lot of things lately.

Because of Unity (the understanding of no inside/outside), recent events and The Uncertainty, I can’t help but begin to doubt even the origin of certain thoughts. If we accept there is an X-Factor of Otherness or Outsideness, whether this is an automation of our own consciousness, or “true beings”, then once we understand “we are not in the brain”, then even thoughts themselves – just as other people appear to us – could be foreign in origin.

In this context, we do not use the word “foreign” to abdicate responsibility or reject that they are “there”, but to indicate unexpected or autonomous aspects of the Wave, like the rising of the sun or the moon. This is basic wisdom – observing thoughts and letting them pass and whatnot – and not what I am trying to convey.

We want to question the very origin. What is keeping the factory going to begin with? We know we can retool the factory to produce different thoughts, but can we change the product altogether? Instead of thoughts, can it produce feelings? Can it change ‘blue’ to ‘red’? Can we shut it down and just interpret the “raw” universe without language? Or are we mistaken about the factory altogether and there is another origin?

When we see ourselves truly as the observer or the “I AM” that is often used in these discussions, then we cannot believe that even thought itself is of “us” but must be a choice – across the entire spectrum, like choosing to wear red or blue. As I said before, we stamp reality with our observations – yet we are still having trouble understanding how many filters we have on those observations.

We are stamping with a whole lot of useless baggage.

I have been returning to the concept of Dysfunctional Sovereignty over and over in the last few weeks. That an excess of free will is a trap of Nonsense. I find that I am now often irritated when someone blithely reveres free will in total abandonment of compassion – as I now realize there is a “lie” of free will that has been beaten into us. This has been an atomic bomb in my paradigm. I do believe free will is inviolate – but the free will we have been taught is a farce ; a distraction to lead us astray. There is something more going on here.

Free will is being used as a catch-all scapegoat. Nonsense is having a field day.

Compassion is a fundamental just as free will is ; “free will” may be the observing agent, but compassion is the connection to everything that lets it even work.

Raw free will would just be random chaos that would inevitably organize into the basics of order. Raw free will cannot be hoisted up onto an altar above all other things.

If a child puts their hand in a fire, you may allow them to do it once so they know it is hot. But what if the child keeps putting their hands in the fire? Do you stop them or do you just say: ‘That’s free will.’

Why, even, does the fire burn as it does? Clearly we can easily conceive of realities, as we do in dreams, we fire does not burn so. So what has possessed us to occupy this place where there is such a visceral and linear experience?

An even slightly conscious being does not choose suffering. Even animals do not choose suffering – they will attempt to escape at all costs. Only a neurotic dysfunctional mind being would continue to choose suffering as a means of enlightenment, much less create entire paradigms and systems to justify it.

No experience can be greater than any other – otherwise it destroys all free will. If any experience were “more valid” than another, then this would create a One True Path (entropy box), meaning the total eradication of choice (choice would become an illusion in service to the One True Path.)

This means suffering is a choice. It is one experience among myriad. If we recognize suffering is a choice, then either we are fools to keep choosing it (doesn’t matter if this is a result of conditioning, whether we are young souls, or anything else), or there are factors we haven’t yet considered.

The Uncertainty is a powerful force here that could keep us in loops of suffering, yet there is still something more here.

Our world has “too many choices.“ A paradise reality would be a reality of willfully chosen boundaries ; not the denial that suffering exists, but simply the choice not to indulge in it. If reality operates as we believe it does, we should already be living in paradise. “Manifestation” does not take that long to “revise reality.”

Something has gone awry.

The world has many choices which are not good for us. How can that be when even the lowest life forms abhor suffering or avoid it? Suffering would be the quickest thing to be “washed out” of the individual & collective Wave because it would be universally apprehended as undesirable. The Context / collective gestalt / world would very rapidly create a less dense space, because the aversion of suffering is so primal already. So what is going on here?

It is almost as if there is a concentrated effort to keep suffering as part of the individual and collective Wave. I once believed that this was just an individual journey of obtaining higher consciousness, as that could neatly explain a lot, but I am having doubts. I think this obsessive focus on introspection is a trap of Nonsense / part of the “dark gestalt” and whatever physical forms that manifest in humans.

We can accept, honor and release certain thoughts, but now, more than ever, I realize we should be careful to identify with them. This isn’t a matter of trust, because if the understanding of “us” as the observer – that this is the origin of free will – then we must accept our entire Wave, including the thoughts that arise there, are “not us” or are passing.

We often think of our head space as sacred or private, but is this so? What is “head space” except another arbitrary boundary we have been using to navigate this reality? It is just a function we have interjected into our decision making / rules for observation. It is an illusion.

I am called back once again to the story of Babel, where we have all been addled with language. Do we need to “think” without “thinking”? Is this the advent of telepathy?

We can practice removing this “head space” – diminish the thinking apparatus – I think this moves us closer to true freedom, when we can make choices “without identity” – we can choose freely within the Wave and not be anchored to even what we thought were private (false identity) spaces.

I can see there is still much unpacking within me. I see the irony in wanting to dispel overthinking while writing posts like this one, or how the entire work of Ex Inanis came about in the first place. I feel like I am intentionally trying to overload the system to prove that it is garbage. When it runs out of answers to give, you know you have “won.”

Don’t become an addict of thinking.

What is “Being”? Being is a state of harmony & acceptance. Being can often describe our success in being optimal humans. We find being when we are in flow with our lives – when we reach a satisfaction where we aren’t looking for problems, or changes, or needing anyone’s approval (except our own.)

Being is often accompanied by a silence of the mind. We have very few thoughts.

Yet, in my opinion, this kind of being as a human is tricky, like balancing on a tipe rope. If you fall off, instead of “being”, you become complacent. Complacency settles in when you begin to live in a situation you dislike but rationalize or ignore all the signs that you need to make changes.

I think we can fall into complacency from both healthy, balanced lives as well as destructive or addictive lives. We all strive to create streams of familiarity, because it reminds of us home. Complacency is “too much familiarity” that turns into Groundhog’s Day.

You say, then, that “being” seems like a fairytale and this is exactly why I liken to to walking on a tight rope. “Moderation in all things” is such sage advice because it keeps us on the path. We accept there are days when we can walk that tight rope and that there are days when we fall. It makes it easier to climb back up and do it again ; we find our comfort and familiarity in this process, rather than in the end results and so home becomes more transient than fixed.

When I was very young, I learned that it was unwise to ignore any thought or emotion – always explain from whence it came. If you cannot, you dig and dig until you understand what created it.

How do we know when are “being” and when we are being complacent?

If we are often wondering “I’d rather be …”, then we are being complacent. I am wondering now whether all thoughts are a sign of complacency, or decoherence, like sparks caused by friction. This may be a good way to “think” about it.

My best times in life were when I “neglected” the work of Ex Inanis for a time before life went upside down (complacency) and brought me back. I need to find the right balance between both.

Thoughts are a sign of density – they drift all around the ground beneath the tight rope.

Being brings about a sense of knowing that does not seem to require questions or analysis or planning. You just DO and know that it is the way.

If we arguing with ourselves, or discussing, or planning, we are attempting to get to the root of our friction and solve it. We can recognize this is not an ideal state ; it is ripe for interference from Nonsense – but ignoring it is like limping along in a broken ship. If we can surrender to this “repairing” or “healing” process, though, we can shutdown most vectors for Nonsense.

Thoughts are indicators of what is going on inside. These aren’t the whispering of ego, or some otherworldly being. When the pieces of our life harmonize with our beliefs about ourselves, thoughts fall away. When there is a disconnect, thoughts return – helpfully – to let us know where the “irritation” is (hint: emotions do this too.)

Thoughts are a sign of dysfunction / decoherence. The thoughts themselves are not Nonsense, but are vectors for Nonsense to stifle you. Nonsense is when you try to justify meandering underneath the rope instead of doing what you need to climb back up.

There is a lot of bad advice out there, in my opinion, that encourages people to “over accept” ; we could call this Dysfunctional Acceptance, much like Dysfunctional Sovereignty. Acceptance includes accepting you are unhappy, or that there are experiences your soul is calling you to have. We do not want to glorify the “acceptance of suffering”, as this just creates enduring (Nonsense.)

Thoughts take care of themselves when your environment & life are in sync. They do not need to be managed or changed. They are not “wrong” or negative. They are feedback. They are indicators you have friction within your paradigm, but the thoughts themselves are perfect. We accept them and thank them for indicating to us where we need to improve.

I have made the mistake in the past for disregarding thoughts as “Nonsense”, but this act in itself was Nonsense ; we can become so strongly willed and convinced of our own preconceptions or righteousness, that we separate ourselves from ourselves.

This article does not address applying our action to a Context (world) we may also find unsatisfactory ; it can also be easy to think our desires are “too big” or “too pristine” for the world and decide instead that “doing nothing” seems to honor ourselves better than wading through hard circumstances (this is also Nonsense.)

To create the thoughts we desire, we must take action (only our individual hearts knows what “counts” here) ; we must move towards the ideal in our minds, otherwise the friction will continue.

The Uncertainty is the condition that is created when you are uncertain when your will is done. When you move your hand, or walk across the room, there is no uncertainty – your will has been done. When you cook a meal, or drive a car to a destination, even though there is a “delay” (a cooked meal, or being somewhere else), you can be “sure” your will has been done (perhaps not at 100% since you are probably not a expert cook or professional driver), even though you had to follow a ritual to do it.

The Uncertainty addresses all other acts of will that we cannot assess. For instance, you want a new car. You cannot snap your fingers and make this happen.

Manifestation literature attempts to describe the phenomenon that occurs when we make a Decision that cannot be seen through The Uncertainty that seems to arrive in our lives in a serendipitous or even downright miraculous fashion (when we are able to do the work the manifestation requires). This only has to happen a couple of times before you know “something is up.”

Much work is done on perfecting this process – which is the same work that all philosophers/spiritualists have done since the beginning of time (needs its own article), because “manifestation” is fundamental and intimately tied to the MVG/harmonic mind/Nirvana/etc. It is part of the natural world, whether that is physical or consciousness or otherwise.

Nonsense is what creates density, or gap/buffer and so manifestation always seems to occur in a kind of “outside in” way here on Earth. You have to “generate reality” (action) in order to provide a vector to “receiving.” You can include affirmations and thoughts as actions, but I find these are most suited to physical healing (of the body) or the mind (still experimenting, though.)

You might be able to cause something to happen through sheer determination by sitting in bed, but the verisimilitude of what you are trying to do would need to overcome the negligible vectors you have provided for it to arrive (how likely you/your unconscious feels about something happening while laying in bed in a private home).

You can try to convince yourself – as I once did – that if this power was true and complete, I should be able to create matter out of thin air ; I should be able to open portals, or slip dimensions. There shouldn’t be any abstract justification / metaphorical trickery. In other words, I should not be able to explain the phenomenon via conventional means. It should have no antecedent story ; it just becomes.

Even if we understand that our entire qualia/sensoria is an “appearance” and that to change it we just “stamp reality” with new thoughts/focus over and over, the reel that we are stamping has boundaries (verisimilitude.) The boundaries are the Wave, or the choices we have made that put us here and that would include the whole human condition or the Earthly realm.

Even if we intellectually understand that it should be possible, by our understanding of the mechanics of the universe, to summon a car out of thin air, we have to overcome the inertia of all our prior choices that said that was ridiculous.

Isn’t that a limiting belief, you say? If I just hold the belief that “there is no delay, I am a being like Q” for long enough, it would happen, you think? The problem is that we exist within the environment (Earth, your country, your city, your home, your own life, etc.) created by the Wave (our own choices) and environment is critical to maintaining our ability to focus on the new way of being that we desire.

If you could totally live in your imagination in one place of being a god for like “30 Earth days” (just a wild ass guess), then perhaps you could skip all story editing inbetween. But you’re going have to deal with: eating, bodily functions (including physical strain), visits from the Other, monetary obligations, and I am sure a slew of other “stories” that keep our reality functioning as it does. Never mind that the process itself would be strenuous ; go read about what happens to humans who live in extended periods of darkness.

Remind me to talk about UI / UX in another article.

I do not think we can brute force ourselves into a new paradigm, aside from perhaps death. It is a gradual process of recognizing what we want to change, integrating the change into our sense of self and then moving into it. There is a skill in recognizing how far we can take this. Then repeat.

So, then, what are “Tables”?

I liken the term Tables to playing multiple tables at a casino. You play a little on each one because you are not certain which one will be win.

This isn’t a perfect description, because we are not concerned with winning, per se. We are more concerned with providing the universe as many vectors as possible to deliver what we desire without taking a definitive position that might bar us from the best result (we want to avoid dead ends or complications that arise from bad assumptions.)

However, not taking a definitive position is not universal. You should attempt to find confidence whenever possible. We use Tables to address areas of our life where confidence is more or less impossible. We use Tables to address questions we cannot answer, or do not (yet) want to answer, or when there is a time component that is unavoidable.

We take advantage of the position of “I don’t know” and then consider all the answers we can conceive to the question we are having trouble with (or perhaps a change we are attempting to make, or a thing we want, etc.) Then we create a cross-section of those answers – and in that cross-section are all the tables we want to “play.“

Then we begin to alter our life to include as many of those tables as possible. We may introduce the tables one by one, rather than all at once. We continue until we receive clarification to make revisions, or arrive in the place we desire.

If death is an opportunity to wipe out all of our stories and start anew, then a lot of this work is moot. And it is comforting to think so. But this is a good example of a question we can’t answer whilst still waking up here day after day.

Yet even in the face of the unknown, we have to make decisions. You get up and have to face your life. What do you do? How do you inform your decision making process? Ex Inanis is about making this as intuitive and in-tune as possible with how the universe – or at least this place – works.

We don’t know what the consequences of death are ; we can see death as a transition, or a flip, like from one dream to another, but we won’t know until we are faced with it. The concept of death is strong in the human logos and it has a lot of inertia that has to be overcome.

We may be able to toss the whole script into the trash when we (if) die. But do you want to cultivate a mindset that you are just “waiting for death”, or do you want to try to build a stronger mind – a flexible mind – capable of dealing with any challenge? Why wait to be a better being? Freedom isn’t just raw detachment from the world ; it is the ability to engage with the world without being anchored into it. That requires a tremendous mind. This work should be part of our daily lives.