Mastery_Legacy

When you set boundaries with people, you are informing the universe to return your power of story writing to you. You are ejecting a character from your story who has stolen the show, or turned it into a genre you don’t want to read.

For the authors out there or anyone who has wrote a story, you may understand how characters want to write their own stories in your book. They have their own voices and desires. Some of them try to steal the show, even when it doesn’t serve the story, or even when it breaks the story and as an author it is your job to stop them, or, when needed, remove them for the sake of the story’s verisimilitude. Look up the phrase “Kill your darlings.”

This isn’t to assert that reality cannot skip, or break, or perform miracles — that your book can’t contain magic — but that some fixture is required to maintain the coherence of the world without it falling into useless chaos. That fixture is YOU.

Your verisimilitude is your own integrity. It is your life. It is your ability to maintain your flow & happiness and ascend to a higher state of being.

As as ascendant, you should be unifying the “here” and “there” and understanding there is no difference between the physical world and the dream world. The dream world is your perception of God that is less fettered and so becomes a kind of chaotic mixture of everything that is part of your story that is coming & going.

This article will not be about dreams, but the better you understand yourself and can “distill” yourself out of your dreams, the better you can figure out what is yours and what is not.

And in this understanding you should understand there is no conventional reality that unfolds outside of your own experience — just a kind of eternal battle of terms & conditions, or figuring out the spatial & time coordinates of your next destination from where and only there you have an “experience.”

That doesn’t mean that the universe isn’t unfolding in what is “unseen”, but rather that “unseen” is all of God that you are not observing and so is not a singular, static timeline, or world, or place, but all of them.

God updates with every breath, with every moment, across all space and time for all of eternity based on everyone’s “decisions” — their eternal moving will.

Your perspective in this life is like a little starship. You are viewing all of reality on the screen of your human perception. Everything you perceive from this moment is absolutely true, and a moment from now, it will be absolutely false. Your experience is an unending stream by which you are always moving — veiling & unveiling God.

It is thus your choice of what aspect or perspective of God you wish to experience. Before you begin to grasp the multidimensional, you live in a linear, singular world within which you have no choice. That is, it is deterministic, because when you mistake yourself for being part of a singular world, you have abdicated yourself and thus are subject to the whims of its unfolding.

When you sitting in your power, “you” are not part of the context but are its observer, traveler or chooser. When you understand this, your choice is never within the qualia you experience, but is “before it” or beyond it. Your qualia is already a shadow by the time it reaches you and all that is “real” is your immediate will that you have hidden behind your imagination.

As you ascend, you will find your own unique way of reducing this “buffer” that delays the execution of your imagination.

All of experience is what you treasure and what you carry with you in your eternal backpack. That includes people. The closer you are with someone, the more important they become to you and the more you will want to write stories that allow for their space. I have spoken about your “moving window” before and this window includes all the people within it for which you consider important.

In computer terms, the more familiar you are with someone, the higher level of access you have granted them to you and thus they have more effect upon your life — your dream — as it is unfolding. Their impact is not done via their physical vessel and requires no physical presence.

Their influence is done simply by the concept of the character itself in your story — the soul — from which you can never truly know (well, that it is an advanced topic beyond the scope of this article) its actual nature or what it is experiencing, only that it is there and YOU have created it or allowed it in — allowed it a voice, perspective, opinion or power over your trajectory or plot.

Inevitably in your journey someone will become too burdensome and need to be released. This can happen when the character needs too much attention or contributes nothing meaningful to the story, or their presence is simply destructive. Their removal is often for the sake of the story/yourself and the person needing to go, though sadly the other party often will not see it this way. Most often someone must be let go when the relationship becomes dangerous to the health — the integrity (the verisimilitude of the story!) — of one or both people.

This isn’t intended as a judgement or assessment of truth, as both people have valid experiences, but it is up to you decide the health of yourself and your dream and if you will allow them to devour you — because this is also a way of experiencing God — by being a victim.

I have a lot of experience with people over my lifetime who, as I like to put it — gave a nickel for a dollar. From their perspective, it is likely reversed — I was too burdensome for them for their level of commitment. Such is the nature of the universe — I can die to you, you can die to me, but I can never die to myself — and why it is so important for us to allow ourselves to go our own ways.

What is deceptive about this whole process is that, if you let them, these characters will attempt to “jump pages.” They will try to cheat what you have accepted as a physical world or conventional reality by introducing impossible stories and scenarios which if you cannot discern you will accept, just like an unlikely dream. This interstice is where alchemy and matchmaking is done. Where reality is born.

You must dismiss any kind of physical conventional reality that is going from point to point and see the whole world only arises in the moment you experience it and that it is painted by a palette “compressed” behind the dark and subtle places of your mind as part of the game you are playing.

It takes time to remove bad actors from your play. They will continue to demand pay or attention even after you have fired them. And there is little to do but wait until they see they are better off elsewhere or exhaust themselves trying to get something from you that isn’t theirs. As you gain distance, you will feel them less and they will have lass impact on the unfolding of your experience.

Again, it can be very hard to dismiss conventional or physical reality, but these old characters will influence newer characters and attempt to remain within your story by justifying relationships to them. This is an example of page jumping, or contrivance, or little compromises in your verisimilitude — your integrity — that you may overlook until it becomes a problem.

You risk having them arise, or hearing them through new people you meet if you have not moved far enough away from your bad actors. Energetically they will influence your reality if you are not careful and they cannot help but try to get you to over commit yourself or embroiled in the hidden motions of their own dramas, which you may if you allow yourself to become too fixated.

Just as in a dream full of strangers you have never seen, your own life also unfolds this way, full of “real” people you have never met. But there is no difference between a real person and a dream person and they both arise within your consciousness in the same way. And just as in a dream, sequence and rules can be broken, but as it’s author it is up to you to maintain the order and the rules, otherwise they, or your own will, will happily break them to fulfill their desires or agendas and they do not care if it unravels your entire story which it will because you are a whole, unified being and everything is “retroactive” both future and past.

Most humans have a bias or predisposition to resentment, disappointment, suffering, or failure and it is thus baked into all of their negotiations with you as a fundamental term that they don’t even recognize. I usually call this terrorism as a shorthand.

It can be very difficult to break out of this pattern, particularly when all the people around you are also trying to maintain it and they will because you are always in the process of creating a convincing reality for yourself until you recognize what are you are doing and stop tolerating it. You will mistakenly buy it as your own when you are not physically dealing with old stories, but it is still there baked into the fabric of your experience until they are archived away and it is unpredictable how it might manifest for you (and for conventional readers, by manifest we mean real events of your life) — so calm and patience are required at all times. Your temperance will irritate co-creators who do not have a similar ability, as they are like driftwood (trying to assemble into ships) being tossed about the ocean.

You will have to learn how to trust your intuition for when these old characters are knocking on your door and trying to get back in. You must be prepared to dispassionately walk away to maintain your integrity without allowing your ego to get you stuck, or into a battle that is pointless. That is how they “win” or steal a piece of your dreams for their own use.

Never let pride or fear draw you into a conflict that is not necessary. Pride doesn’t have the ability to dismiss the signature of defeat, which like all things in creation is pure as a concept in itself before its role in conflict. Victory is not the opposite of defeat, rather both exist as whole and pure concepts first.

Conflict can be reduced to its intention to create separation, distance, suffering, or scarcity through conquest or by denying others their inherent sovereignty. You create what you invest in (as you are immortal and “always on” like a light, or a record player) and so conflict simply separates you from yourself. Pride turns you into Ahab and reality will rightly consume you for it.

Wills do not conflict unless it is your will to experience such conflict, so it is contingent upon you whether you engage with it or not, or allow it in your dream.

Linear reality, or One Worldism, necessarily entails survivalism, competition, scarcity and conflict, as it is may only move “forward” and so is deterministic. Your eye — “I” — is the only point in all of creation that allows you the space to have a choice — to pick and move amongst timelines, but your time machine is always on — you just don’t know how to drive “off road.”

To have any choice about your life, you must first dispense with conflict as a concept itself — “spaces do not conflict” — otherwise you are dragged back down into fighting and lack, because the universe understands the raw intention before your human justifications for wanting to experience the conflict — to “achieve victory.”

When you are removing a character in writing, it often involves going over notes or story already written and doing revisions and retcons. And so too this is how your life works. When you remove the importance of a person, it is retroactive. You are already living at the “resolution” of the entire story you have written and you are going back and changing the variables that produce the end result which you live in for all eternity.

A person’s importance is a “state” just like any other state of reality — as polarity is a lie — and thus extends all the way into the future and all the way into the past.

Your entire life will begin to shift and move to re-imagine its new state — its new “now” moment — its new frame — a little like Its a Wonderful Life. You will begin to re-imagine what it is like to live without this aspect and this example works for both people, or things like habits, patterns of belief and more.

But people are the only factors that we have (usually) given their own volition, so they will often fight you when you dismiss them, as this is your own expectation at play as well that you already invested. Likely, they will fight you long before any conventional happenings (in your feelings, your body, your interaction with your life), because they too can detect the friction between you, even if they are not esoterically minded. You are also co-creatively impacting their dream.

If their integrity is insufficient to maintain their realm’s coherence, their lives will break down. They are simply trying to negotiate their way back on board. But do not feel as if this is your responsibility, ascendant, as in reality no one is actually on board your ship. Trust that God is a much better designer than you and does not allow anyone power over you — ever.

It is simply by mutual agreements that we agree to serve in each other’s realms and only those who feel they are entitled to someone else’s ship refuse an order to leave, much like a player that tries to circumvent their ban in a video game. When someone refuses this order, they lose all of their agency and become servants of the dead.

And what is the mindset of the dead, except that they prefer your ship over their own? Your brains over theirs? That they recklessly destroy simply as behavioral avoidance at having to look at their own faults, or sinking ship. And if their lives are good and well, then what motivation do they have to meddle in yours once expelled except as an exercise in dominion and control?

While you may experience an actual negotiation in your physical reality with your exiled characters, I am attempting to show you that this negotiation requires no physical component at all and yet your physical experience will contain its negotiation without the presence of this person — as in their bodily emanation — even as you are overwriting, or ejecting it.

This isn’t to say that you should not amicably argue or discuss or resolve disputes with people when you can. We are talking about situations where we have gone way pass the Rubicon. People that you need to get away from when your intuition is screaming at you. Your intuition is screaming when you feel sick, uncomfortable, disquieted, restless, uneasy, disturbed, out of sorts, confused, indecisive, manipulated, and many other warning signs around a person, place, habit or thing.

Your experience of your life can be influenced — or distorted — by co-creators who are attempting to impose terms upon your chosen experience to draw you into their stories and it is up to your discernment to figure out when you are “arguing” with them or how their terms are affecting “What You Need to See” in your own life even if there is no verbal or written contact with them. You can only do this when you really know yourself and start finding all the “strings.”

You may feel this negotiation in your body, or in events that happen in your life that dispose you to ways of action or thinking, as these are the consequences of “matchmaking” that is always taking place between you and the universe (and other co-creators.)

Again, this entire process is unified and retroactive. As a thought experiment, remove a person from your life and think back — how would your life have looked without them? This is what is going to happen when you diminish the importance of someone up to and including eventually forgetting them altogether (especially as you are immortal, so this is precisely what happens between lives), so be prepared for a whirlwind of changes.

Old characters will become strangers or background characters, like all the kids in school you never talked to. Are you prepared to really do this to someone? Be sure about it. Does this seem brutal? It is not brutal when your life is being threatened, or your dreams, because characters who have lost their spot in your story do not understand how little actions can have tremendous consequences.

It is always a question of integrity. The verisimilitude of your own life that you demand. When I say integrity, think of it like the hull of a ship holding back the infinite “potential” of God which acts as a constant pressure upon your mind without relent. If your integrity breaks, God will fill it in — often with “people” like glue and bonding — until you fix it. God is showing you how to fix your ship.

If you cannot fix the ship, you will “die” (go back under the veil — the ocean — and reincarnate to try again.) Some of these people sit around on deck drinking booze and playing cards while you are scrubbing the deck and fueling the engine. At some point, you will figure out that you want to captain the ship already and live your own life so you will figure out who is doing their part and toss the rest.

Don’t believe this is some easy process. Stowaways can stick around so long they became crew members — as in people who have a significant say on the destination of your ship even if it isn’t good — who are long outside of your immediate life experience but still on board. That’s no one fault but your own and someday your life will become complicated enough that you will have to face a decision you don’t want to make or die (sink).

Stowaways aren’t happy when you toss them into the ocean. They will spontaneously form a vessel out there on the water (your unconscious, the “unseen”, or the parts of your life that do not arise day-to-day) to prevent themselves from drowning that I call KOBYASHI MARU from Star Trek. They will give you any excuse to get back on board which is always a no-win scenario for you, but a win for them.

You will experience it in dreams. As arguments to yourself. As energy and feelings in your body. As real life events or signs that may be disturbing. You may feel stalked or watched. You may get physically sick. And yet somehow you will know you have made the right choice — a deep inner knowing — and your spirit will suddenly feel like it is healing, or becoming healthy again, even as your life becomes some kind of gross giant “detox.”

Incidentally, Hell is where you go for rehab. It is very real.

You have to reject the no-win scenario at all costs. Their terms will always be some variant that allows them a position from which to get back on board — a backdoor or “hack” and they may even debase themselves if it gets you to accept negotiation with them again, as a way to warm you up or boil you like a frog over time. Don’t give in to appeals to your ego, or let them charm you.

They may use even use surrogates like other people. And in today’s age, they are likely to use things like AI and fake accounts. They will be ruthless how they attempt to create a believable story to unbalance your ship and they will sink your ship just to prove a point — like the sirens in the Iliad.

What point are they even proving except they value suffering, malice and destruction? Exactly that, for that is the role they are embodying for you — temptation to return to the dead — for they have long lost any sense of themselves because their sense of self only existed in the space you held for them. Or perhaps that space is a better space than the space they hold or can imagine within themselves and they believe they can use you as a shortcut to creating it, even if it means paying you a nickel for a dollar like a shady salesman.

Of course, learn to discern when someone just cares about you. There is obviously a difference. And it is totally OK to have relationships that create imbalances because they can become symbiotic or provide valuable room for growth together. It is up to you to decide who is doing the work with you and who is just looking for a free ride at your soul’s expense or damnation.

Ah, you’re just paranoid and reclusive, you say … Alright, no problem.

There are plenty of opinions and work out there more oriented towards an actual conventional fixture of reality with brains and chemicals and atoms and — well, that is not my thing. Subjective idealism is not for “normal” people, certainly not my brand of it, but I try to write it so all may benefit even with conventional mindsets.

The hardest lesson all ascendants will have to face someday is that someone may sound “human” but no one is home — just the “background noise” that wants to mindlessly assimilate you back into the void. It is the essence of the mindless that you are “hearing” as none of us are the physical appearances we present, like avatars in a game. They may have been there at one time, but have left the building.

When this happens, you are inviting or writing characters that no longer serve your story or development and the only one that can break the cycle and get rid of them is you.

This is dangerous territory to get stuck in, as you tend to open yourself to people who are looking for saviors, or for opportunists that want to pull you back to your old ways to either elevate themselves, to make themselves feel better or vindication for their own choices. The longer you let these kinds of relationships go on, the greater chances you are creating co-dependence, narcissism (vampirism.)

Another way to look at it is that you left the building when you raised out of their “frequency” or ability to reach you and so you are kind of “filling in” the emptiness or the “gap” that now exists between you with your own idealism or expectations. Much like a continent rising from the sea.

If you do not make the decision to honor yourself, you may start creating mimics (which is who crews the Kobayashi Maru, like the pirates of the Black Pearl.) You will get stuck in the simulator trying to win and will always lose. Your only move is to walk away. If you do not walk away, you will write whatever story you need to tell yourself to let them back in (the scenario will keep changing to make you lose) and it is only through the removal of your ego (the one cheat! aka love) that you can stop yourself.

The “background people” you fill in your world but never talk to or meet represent the concept of “filler” or “not important” for the verisimilitude of your story. Only you can make them important, but that is also true of their perspective. It seems like such a paradox, but we are all of our own origins — our own eye/I — but all perspectives are whole and omnipotent. The mistake is believing that we are looking into the same box (One Worldism), rather than creating the box we are looking into.

Value your sense of exploration and adventurism but always use discernment. The crew of the Kobayashi Maru have become voices of Nonsense, the devil, the “dead” — a background person, or whatever concept resonates with you. It is a sobering experience and is not intended to be a condemnation upon these people, only a observation that you have outgrown them.

I am a staunch advocate of heroism — but heroes don’t believe they are better than others. They, like anyone, are just trying to make the world a better place from their perspective.

Use caution when deciding how far you wish to go to entertain someone as it necessarily entails accepting their paradigms and stories and influences in your own (story), which includes all the elements that will impact you even when they are not physically around or miles away.

When stories become incompatible, this is the beginning of death — the actual conventional experience when realms diverge out of “range” like a radio transmission you can no longer hear.

It is not for you to decide another’s path, only whether yours and theirs coincides and imagine the best world for everyone.

You are the only one that can hold yourself back. Old, stuck or stagnant characters are there to teach you greater levels of discernment and to get you make better choices for yourself. To them, you are the stuck and stagnant one and they will happily argue with you about it as that is the experience you are choosing by doubting yourself — so don’t feel bad about leaving.

Wherever you find the “dead”, it is where God is telling you to move on. Pay attention and don’t let your pride get you stuck in a battle you don’t want to fight.

There is no escape from your own will and you have to decide to let go, or continue to perpetuate cycles until you are forced.

Be sure to read The Order of Creation which was posted on the same day as this.

No amount of fame or fortune will save you from having no integrity. What do I mean by this?

Let me first clarify integrity.

What I mean by integrity in this context is not what you may traditionally associate with the word, although that it is still relevant. Integrity in this context means coherence. It means congruence. It means flow. Harmony. Having your head & heart aligned. Authenticity. Making decisions without remorse, regret, or doubt, or taking full accountability for consequences even if you cannot achieve that. It means operating within your truth or paradigm in a way that produces little to no friction, or being able to transmute the friction if it does.

Conventional or developing science may identify integrity as the stability of a toroidal or magnetic field. More esoteric or spiritual works might call this your aura, frequency or your vibe. Traditional philosophy might just consider it personal integrity, honor, truth and so on.

Anyone reading this blog knows I am not a big fan of human “science”, but if it helps you to understand, then it serves my purposes. When you begin to unify yourself and your experience, then “science” is just part of the, let’s say — spatial coordinates which you find yourself — whilst knowing there is no such thing as space or time.

This does not have to be a moral evaluation, but you must understand that virtues like compassion, patience, faith and love are ingredients like salt and pepper when realms are created.

Compassion = allowance of being & docking. Compassion allows us to play together and without it ships cannot dock.

Patience = not obstructing your own will and is also related to the construction of a buffer that delays will that creates illusions of sequence for stability and linearity.

These are just a few examples of “world building” requirements. If you omit them, this is difference between a professional designer and a hack except we are talking about your personal soul. You know, eternal damnation kind of stuff. Only half joking.

Boundaries might be understood as allowing or occluding the flow of light, information or energy. Filtering. Firewalls. Integrity is the optimization of boundaries. Failing to do so will gradually return you to a more and more generic “soup” as you are unable to hold a shape against the unrelenting “unknown” that assails you at all times. This is what causes death, reincarnation & amnesia.

When the soup is too watery, it creates suffering through chaos. When the soup is too solid, it creates suffering through stagnancy. They are informatively the same thing. You can neither be the whole ocean, nor just a rock that sinks to the bottom.

Within the “Earth” experience, the collective pressure is now such that we are now at a stage in the game where integrity is creating balkanization. Like-collectives are being drawn apart into their own gravity wells.

As I wrote about in the last article and a term I borrowed from a friend — divergence.

In scientific terms, the matchmaking I talk about is a form of energetic magnetism and you will be drawn to the vibration, frequency, polarity — whatever word you prefer — that fits. This process does not have to be pleasant. If you are in abdication, you will moved “against your will.” You will represent the story of this movement to yourself in whatever way your soul understands — and if you have neglected the work to maintaining your integrity, you are likely being drawn to those who have, just like a magnet.

If you are on the other side of this coin and are maintaining your integrity, you may be having the experience similar to a king in a castle who is under always siege. You are constantly transmuting the projections of others — who may be unconscious or aware of their attacks — who want inside because they need your integrity to exist. Contrary to be drawn somewhere, you are maintaining a field that repels, or hopefully allows only what you want.

Outside the castle is the frozen wasteland — the hostile and chaotic fabric of creation. Inside the castle is the peace and serenity maintained by its lords — the “brains” or life the zombies need and are instinctively drawn towards.

Uninitiated humans believe that all of their feelings are their own, which is not true. Partially initiated might also make the mistake of believing pain or pleasure is excluded from the designation of ‘feeling’ and so have arbitrary delineations between emotions & bodily sensations when there is none. Feelings in your body can also be from co-creators.

How do I know? I healed my body, mind and life when I threw some stowaways overboard and made sure they did not get back on. I repel attacks of this nature frequently where “symptoms” spontaneously reverse or disappear and I have actual dreams of what happened. It is uncanny. This may sound brutal, but if your life is at stake — and only you can decide if your life is at stake — you do what you need to do.

You cannot do this without having a firm sense of self to be able to “distill” your ego out so you may identify what is not yours for removal.

Integrity may be likened to a spin. The faster the spin, the faster your will executes. The faster the spin, the more “immune” you become to invaders who destroy or repel themselves on your magnetic wall that is spinning too fast for their “weak” integrity. The faster the spin, the more the garbage is tossed out, like a merry-go-round that ejects anyone not wearing a seatbelt. The faster the spin, the better you understand yourself.

And while this is a “scientific” perspective, it is very illustrative. You can imagine the whole world in these kinds of fields, including the world itself. If someone is “stuck” inside a collective and starts to speed up, it will irritate all of its neighbors as it rises up & out. Obsessive neighbors might try to hold onto it, but this is like holding onto a hot potato and they will get burned.

If someone doesn’t have integrity, they become hyper fixated on people, places, things, labels — whatever allows them to continue playing the story of their own misery or lack of power. They are being shown “what they need to see” in this case, but most just fall further into victimization rather than realize the universe is giving them the keys to their escape.

Contrary to the idea that self-sovereignty creates separation, it actually creates spontaneous cooperation. Separation is actually caused through loss of integrity — literally as the soup breaks down — like liquids settling into different layers because of non-movement.

This site is largely not concerned with the conventional world and it should be understood that as more people in the collective stand in their integrity, those without integrity are essentially kicked out from the game altogether, like drunk patrons who start a brawl at a bar. They start losing access to collectives who are demanding higher standards. This is God’s beautiful self-correcting design, because they are being forced to look at their own dependencies which don’t work.

In programming terms, these drunk patrons are finding out their souls are like spaghetti code — full of dependencies and impossible to untangle. It has trouble integrating with other programs (beings) so has no modularity or reusability and its own system is entropic — it requires constant external input to maintain itself (spin) (all forms of consumption, hedonism and materialism) or it throws out errors, faults and just doesn’t work.

This can also be understood in other systems like the chakras as energetic blockages. It is just another way of expressing integrity, or the flow of energy, or intention — or, as we favor around here — the ability to execute your will.

Imagine you are dancing atop a stage that is spinning so fast that you have to spin with it not to be gradually worn down to nothing. Some of us have been learning to do this all of our lives. Others have tried to crawl on top the ones that were learning to avoid having to do it themselves and laughing at their terrible cleverness of this solution.

We are tired of carrying these types and are throwing them onto the spinning stage that is now reducing them down to nothing and they will be correctly put where they belong to continue their soul’s development in another place.

So enough with all these flowery metaphorical descriptions. What happens to a soul that is losing integrity? I have spoken at great lengths about this, but its world will break down. A soul losing integrity will experience all manners of chaos. In conventional terms, it will experience financial loss, social loss, health loss, job loss and more, as these are the “slowed down” stories the “higher self” tells itself to help comprehend what is happening.

But in short, such souls are dying.

It is not because of a “lack of energy” or resources that this happens, because as the universe is infinite, we are infinite. It happens because how else do you represent a lack of integrity to yourself? The story must be told and experienced somehow. If you accept you are an immortal, eternal being, then how do you represent dying to yourself? What would you expect it to look like? How do you fool yourself into thinking you are ending?

I have used this example before, but imagine your personal truth or paradigm like a factory. If it is in integrity, fully-functional and nice looking cars are flying off the factory floor. If the factory is poorly maintained, then all the cars it makes break down, need recalls or don’t work. You are the factory for the entire freaking world.

Dispense with any ideas of scarcity or mortality (that’s mort-ality, nor morality) and you may begin to understand that the picture you are painting whether heaven or hell is in your hands right now and is rendered to you not just in your own life and body, but the entire world. Does the world look like an apocalypse to you? Then that is the state of your soul.

Accept the universe and your scene is infinite without any scarcity. Accept that the scarcity you believe exists is simply how you have arranged your cyclical experience. Accept that you are holding certain patterns or beliefs — such as death — that create permeable veils that you refuse to pull back in order to fool your attention (will) into creating this limited experience for yourself.

Dying souls are simply drunken souls will have trouble understanding that their seemingly seamless world — that appears to go from one horizon to the next — is in fact full of invisible seams that will block, bend and redirect them as if by magic. They will vehemently deny this is happening even as their lives inexplicably crumble and the world seems to be cheating and pulling the rug out from underneath them.

This is because you are the ULTIMATE CREATOR of your universe to the tiniest detail that you honor or dismiss. A drunken soul has omitted its own existence and by so doing is playing a pretend game where it has no control of itself. And that which has no control of itself must find blame somewhere by the experience of of having “no control.”

You will always have an ego. The ego is not what you have been led to believe it is. Limitation allows expression & experience. Your real ego is “in between.” It is hidden behind your attachments, because without attachments there is nothing to experience. No drive or impetus. So the real ego is hidden in the cracks — it is having attachments while not having attachments. Paradox. Observation. Eye = I. Choosing the frame.

Many people are continuing to hold onto fake stories, fake boundaries, inappropriate responsibilities and misapplied judgements.

This is easier to understand once again if you know the TRUE YOU is not within the scene you experience but is more of an eternal observer. You have simply made arbitrary boundaries about what you can make decisions about and consider these holy, inviolate or beyond your meddling.

Nothing is beyond your meddling.

You make decisions by what you become aware of or see, but this does not have to mean your sensory qualia but also the subtle imaginary places and relationships. You have trained your whole life to maintain bad habits by drawing boundaries around rules from which you think are not yours — around the wrong ideas of ownership and the wrong assignment of what feelings or emotions originates from where.

Can I give an easy example of what I mean by this?

When you are out and about, say, at the grocery store and you see someone that makes you uncomfortable — for whatever reason you choose to imagine. Perhaps their appearance disgusts or unnerves you, or perhaps they make you angry, or scared …

Let me ask you: why do you feel this is what YOU are thinking? All people are telepathic without exception. In fact — you are picking up what the other person is thinking about themselves. Right there in that moment in real freaking time. You are hearing, in your mind’s eye, beyond your visual senses, what they are choosing to represent to you in its full truth without censorship. You are making the mistake of ownership.

The only thoughts that are yours are the ones that you create with intention. All other “spontaneous thoughts” are feedback from the “truth of the scene.”

YOU are deciding what to do with this information and how to react to it. Do you make fun of them? Do you accept them? Do you keep it to yourself and laugh at them? Do you pity them? Do you see a bit of yourself in them? It is all up to you.

The truth is self-evident — right there. The scene NEVER lies. Lies can only be introduced by YOU after-the-fact by denial.

The subtle signature you are looking for here is the feeling of separation — either from others, or from yourself, which is caused when you inject “distance” by feeling guilty or ashamed for these thoughts, or by feeling vindictive or superior, or failing to accept the truth of the scene, regardless of what has produced this scene.

A reminder that some space and distance is desirable otherwise we would all be in the same place.

The scene is what the scene is, just as find yourself where you find yourself — rejection, or abdication, necessarily creates those things in themselves and so you will experience a loss of agency or power the more you disown your own reality. It takes time to reclaim your power through constant acceptance and surrender. The more you abdicate, the more you will be forced to experience abdication or the world imposing upon you.

The idea of ugly or beautiful, for example, is self-evident and already contained within the scene and so is not brought upon it by you, but it is “baked” there by God, Source, the universe or the unfolding of yourself. You may have trouble here if you still are forcing an objective vantage point, because even if beauty is in the eye of the beholder, then the scene will still contain your own sense of beauty — and thus also your own sense of ugliness as a contrast (do not make the mistake of thinking this is an example of polarity, as all things require limitation and contrast to be seen but all colors are themselves first) — thus no lies are ever told except those that create disunity or “separation” like paint thinner.

You can continue this practice even in complete isolation as you examine thoughts, energies and feelings that come and go throughout your day and understand that even if you cannot accurately assign the origin of every little emotion, you can implement a “standard” upon which you hold yourself. The standard is your destiny/fate which you must learn to discern.

This standard allows you a starting place from which you can create the differential of your own highest good and start sorting out and dispassionately seeing what is yours and not yours. This doesn’t mean you won’t “feel” it, but you will be able to detach from it and allow it to pass — whether it originates from you or somewhere else.

I have attempted to demonstrate to you some better sense of the idea of integrity, unity and separation in the content above in order to set a context for this next section.

In the last article, The Order of Creation, I described two kinds of collectives that exist in stark contrast to one another.

I want to talk a bit more about the motivations of the first camp — the “dependents.” The ones who believe reality is imposed upon them by an external world. These are the folks losing their spin or integrity as described above.

The rulers of this collective — let’s call them the dead collective — are corporations, moguls, government agencies ; they are those who have fully internalized and accepted the idea that the world is “dog eat dog” and their survival strategy entails being on top or in charge of it.

This isn’t just at a organizational level but also individually in how people run their own lives. Ladder-climbers, clout chasers. People are adversarial from their perspective — tools — stepping stones — competition. There is no deeper substance to people than as objectives. Lights to be coveted or pillaged.

If you asked one of these people, however, they certainly would not describe themselves this way even though they are essentially pirates. Actually, at least pirates have a sense of freedom. The dead collective simply want to remove all potential from the world because they live in terror of the unknown. They love anything that can provide them guarantees or promises that tomorrow won’t be painful, so their realm inevitably revolves around ideas of debts, investments, and insurances as methods of imposing upon God’s natural order.

This dead collective of “co-dependents” is the most crystalline examples of beings that have forgone all sense of creation in favor of raw consumption, though they will hail their parasitism as innovative (and happily sell & market it) as they rebrand and redesign it under more elaborate infrastructure and systems to hide their theft. Again, as above so below — this is both from an organizational perspective and individual as they both conduct their lives the same way.

These beings are examples of self-discovery through inversion, like turning your organs inside out. Their self-actualization process, in other words, involves consuming the whole world while bringing forth or contributing nothing of substance themselves. Enlightenment through gluttony.

Such beings do not create so much as spin webs in order to ensnare. The very evolved amongst them produce inventions like social media and cellphones which have nothing to do with unifying or bringing people together but delaying, diminishing, or terminating actualization altogether to turn people in products or currency.

The currency in this case is very much “souls” — people — who are treated as disposable and tradable.

What is the kind of mind that invents a cellphone? Was the intention so benign as just keeping in touch with other people? Because the effect is very much the opposite.

I assert the cellphone is a kind of sorcery born from one who wants to ‘talk to the dead.’ Necromancy. The one who wants to talk to the Unseen — the hidden world — that is beyond their immediate tribe or qualia that should already be around them.

And so by valuing what is Unseen over what is Seen, a separation is gradually introduced (invisible not-physical people through screens, sound, etc.), as people become more and more isolated — this is a reflection of the ‘cellphone inventor’s’ state of inner being — isolated and wanting connection, but creating a hack or bypass to resolve it rather than just connecting to people face to face.

Cold, unfeeling, distant, often distorted or disrupted, like whispers from the grave. No breath, warmth or substance.

Do we really need to be in touch with the “whole world” when all we can experience is right in front of us? Doesn’t our preoccupation with what is not here just create more of that and thus more distance and more separation both from each other and ourselves? Of course it does. You cannot be anywhere except where you are right now so whose agenda does it serve to have “you” somewhere you are not?

The “one world to bind them” is born from this dead collective’s perspective as the one world becomes the fixation of the hidden aspects of your mind from which you make all your decisions and thus imprison yourself. You make more decisions based on what is hidden — and fearful to you — than what is in your immediate environment until there is nothing left but a computer screen or hand held device promising you are not alone.

In the cases of social media and similar apparatuses, those foolish enough to engage with them often justify it if they feel they can do so without paying money. That it is harmless to them. They think merely participation protects them as long as there is no actual monetary investment. But why do you think all of these services are free?

They do not care if you pay them money.

They are not after your money, as they instinctively know money will flow to them when you are asleep, confused or subservient, as you are the actual money. They are after your power of creation. If you do not pay directly with money or service, you pay as a bait or lure for others who will — whether through the advertisement of your own success, an appeal to credibility, or as part of the bandwagon. You provide the “light” for the trap.

“They” are there hovering over all of your social interactions. Over the business you advertise. Over the dogs & cats you post. Harvesting your interactions while isolating you further from each other as you become dependent on little neon boxes and screens ; while you consent to towering self-contained cities, smaller living spaces and dead environments.

But ultimately there is no “they” — just collectives who have deluded themselves who align together to play out each other’s horrors and play unconscious actors in each other’s lives. There is no nefarious hidden enemy except that of your own unconscious or disowned will.

Anyone who simply moves numbers, interprets arbitrary rules or laws is a vampire. Those who simply speak or shuffle people (money managers, politicians, lawyers) are simply agents of separation as they disconnect you from your actual ability to connect, impact and influence people & life right in front of you in favor of giving votes or trust to some unseen anonymous power to enact your will. Those who create webs have a foundation of theft, not creation — such platforms are fruit from a poisoned tree — they can never produce a good because the root is founded in evil (non-life, anti-creation.)

You are seeing how these vampires create more and more elaborate systems to leech actual creation.

Artificial Intelligence is the most in your face example as AI systems exist solely at the behest of the content they farm which is created first and only by humans. But the AI is just an extension of its creator’s intentions — vampirism. Lovers of AI will laud it for its ability to free people from drudgery but all it is freeing them from is their actual creative power and connection to life which is leeched from them, and thus ironically begins to overwrite the souls of those who use it with drudgery and a loss of their zest for life.

Ironically AI is a shining example of what is going on inside the dead collective. A xerox of a xerox of a xerox, moving around limited novelty while hoping to entice new blood whenever possible.

The only true beneficiary of this AI is Nonsense — the devil — the (un)dead collective — which exists to give an excuse for all beings to play victim, as a place where you may pretend to have no sovereignty so you can have the experience of consuming it.

Living and novel experience are the fruit of life by which automation gradually destroys. Mass production is a form of separation that isolates the self as it confuses its vices for needs which further turns into insatiable and endless desires. Experience gradually becomes something that is sold back to it or something it must get permission for — rather than something it participates in itself in exploration, celebration or joy — particularly as the entire world becomes dysfunctionally private(ized) (like pirates roaming the sea “see”.)

Wishes never fulfilled ; a carrot never caught — until you realize you are horse, the carrot and the stick, so you already have what you desire. You were just pretending they were all separate to have a sense of movement.

You must intimately understand the mind of this “dead” collective of people who have no ability to create, or have no ability to face themselves or be vulnerable and go to incredible lengths simply to justify, rationalize and create more elaborate structures and infrastructure for the glory of efficiency, progress and automation whose entire purpose is the theft of life.

If you allow yourself to be drawn into this “dead collective”, then you reap what you sow. You are always at the apex of your own experience and if you wish to go to extreme measures to avoid any introspective or creation expression, then the only realms available to you are ones of soul-crushing artificial complexity — laws, rules, and numbers which constantly work to move around a finite amount of novelty or innovation and continually rebrand and obfuscate it at the expense of the soul which becomes more empty and lifeless (your life becomes the “product” — the microcosm of the meaningless macrocosm you have been sold of your reincarnation, death and amnesia which you continually churn until you learn to maintain your own continuum and escape for however many thousands of years or lives it takes.)

Why do you think Hell always deals in souls? Because it requires constant influx of external material to exist. It cannot create. And so it is full of beings who are desperate for creation/light.

And YOU reader, do you create, or do you just consume? Do YOU trade in souls, or do you make your connection to God — to nature — to each other — and understand your place in the universe?

While souls cannot be strictly traded, what can be traded is willful agreements upon which souls fool each other, playing roles in each other’s plays while they deny this is happening.

That is enough for now.

The order of creation is Will (Love) -> Intention -> Story -> Feeling.

There is no actual “order” as these elements are all inexorable, intertwined and unified, but this ordering is illustrative.

There is no such thing as “energy.” There is no “physical” world. These are all derived functions from the above ordering. The physical world is an “illusion” produced by an effect of feeling, but feeling arises after intention and after story. The word illusion here is simply illustrative because it for all intents and purposes there is nothing else in reality but illusion — so if it is all illusion then that is “reality.”

The de-lusional — the ones actually in illusion — are those that are trapped by the sequential.

Feeling as “last” in the ordering, feeling is subservient to the verisimilitude required by story. Stories that contrived or badly written are still “superior” in the ordering and thus are higher masters than feelings and your world will obey the story before it obeys the feeling.

Hence, why you seemingly cannot avoid feeling hungry, or pain, because you are obeying the story, which you already chose and are re-choosing in every moment of every day.

Similarly, your unseen reality will contrive and cheat you until you learn to stand in your own truth and protect the boundaries of your “dream template” because this is how you experience victimization. Victimization will cause your “unseen” reality to cheat you whenever it can because you don’t have the awareness to stop yourself from misusing your own will.

Another way to think about this is that when you are fully within your power — or agency — you feel “at one” or in flow with the world. Consider that wherever you find yourself right now is your highest level of lucid mastery you have ever had. It perfectly represents your level of agency within your stable “dream.”

The story is not static but a dynamic moving window. The window is truth. Whilst within the window, this truth is objective. That which is outside the window is subjective. Subjective and objective is best understood by the contextual ego which forms the boundaries of the window, so when one can master the removal of ego, these terms start to loose their meaning, as the “scope” of the window broadens. This might also be understood as the veil separating our world from the unseen, or the potential.

The window forms the parameters of the perception or the experience that you have. You are in charge of what you are “observing” or experiencing, which includes the totality of the entire world and everyone who appears there, who themselves are also choosing to BE in that window, based on the frame you have constructed for yourself.

You are free, of course, to omit the agency of all of these people and produce what I call the Grand Narrator effect, but that is not the topic of this article. Suffice to say, should you omit the agency of the Other, whether consciously or accidentally, you are putting yourself into “local play mode.” An example where you may be omitting agency on “accident” is if you believe you are in competition with others, or that your “space” conflicts with theirs. Agency cannot exist in that environment, so you will barred from all collectives and realities of sovereign beings.

The window is always moving by intention. Imagine intention like the banks of a river. Where the river moves is a subject of prior intention which depending on how fixated we are within that window we might understand as destiny or fate, as it is “outside” the window but still exerting a force upon it.

Nothing “happens” outside the window in conventional terms. It is all theoretical. Potential. Terms & conditions to which you are negotiating with both yourself and unseen creators.

By convention, I mean what happens in your traditional “in your face” experience where you typically are pretending that your head space is somehow protected or private, or “invisible space” beyond your 5-senses has “happenings” independent of you when that is just the arbitrarily “veil” you have put over it to play your game.

Humans have trouble with this because they believe there is a world that continues to evolve outside the window, but there isn’t. There is just the expectation that it does so and how it arrives or comes to you is a configuration of your “window.” You are inseparable from the entire world. You are not “here” and it is not “there.” It is is one.

You can better interpret the truth of a story by analyzing the feeling presented. The feeling “doesn’t lie” as it produces a truer accounting of the story than the story may “suggest.” All of experience is suggestive — that is, you are the one deciding what is real or informative to you. You are sculpting the banks of the river deciding where it should go.

We remind ourselves that it is suggestive because whilst we are operating within the “window” it sometimes may “feel” like it is not — it has a current or thrust, like a river — (because we WANT to be fooled, because that is part of the fun), or that we have lost our power somehow, but this is not true. Our will is executed in perfect order at all times. A ceaseless light that cannot terminate.

Everyday can be forgotten, or dismissed, just as easily as a fading dream. You are electing what you value and what meaning you write for your experience.

To victimize ourselves is to forget that our experience is suggestive and allow the illusion to start deciding our fate. All of experience is some level of obfuscation, otherwise we would be God.

If there is something we want to experience, then we first figure out the intention, imagine the story, then hold the feeling — “a creation from nothing.” This is like punching in the coordinates on your ship and going to warp, or perhaps the date on your DeLorean.

Will (love) may override any stage of creation absolutely.

Will (love) may create new intentions at any time which immediately begin to produce story.

Will (love) may retcon story at any time which is where we become non-linear and multidimensional.

Will (love) may transmute feeling at any time which is alchemical mastery.

You might consider that we each have our own collectives to which we enter & exit all the time. And if you are reading this, you are at least on the periphery of “my collective” although I wouldn’t say I “own” the collective so much as I am a temporary resident.

There are many collectives balkanizing right now because in this “region of space & time” this collective and neighboring collectives are “ascending” or learning these truths. While there are many collectives forming, the camps chiefly are divided in two and if I may borrow a term from a traveling mentor, this is causing a “divergence.”

On one side are all collectives who have eschewed all work on understanding themselves in favor of mastering their external world. These are what I consider “dependents.” In other words, these people believe whole-heartedly their existence depends on the illusion for which they have created for themselves, having no understanding they are the masters of their own world. They have totally omitted their own agency in their creation to play out that particular game of making the world impose upon them.

The fate of this first group is deeper centralization and dependence as collective pressures force tyrannical authorities to come into existence in order to maintain the coherence of the realm. Everyone in this collective, even those “in power” will feel actually feel powerless as they will become slaves to their external reality where they have hidden their will.

This group is usually extremely fixated on survival & competition concepts and almost always fixated on money whether having, keeping or acquiring it. Money is the wish-fulfillment of externalizing your will. These collectives have extraordinary problems with concepts like surrender, faith, & compassion. They have little concept of subtly and tend to favor a linear or deterministic experience. These people largely abhor potential or unknowns and prefer the idea of “knowledge” or securities.

The first group will become increasingly dependent on technology masters who use technology to enslave others and by extension themselves. This group believes all solutions are external to themselves. Reality is derived outside in — it is imposed upon you from the outside and thus mastery of the “world” — to them — is mastery of themselves. It is a valid exploration, but a linear one.

The other group/collective is coming to understand that the world emanates from within them. And together as this collective understand this, we understand we are the absolute masters of our reality together, like the Q Continuum in Star Trek. We will talk more about sequence vs. continuum in the future.

The other group is decentralizing and coming to internalize their sovereignty and in so doing understanding that true sovereignty causes emergent mutual cooperation that requires no outside imposition as it is based more fundamentally on the natural parameters of creation rather than those artificially created to impose illusionary systems of control that are derived from fear and victimization.

As each becomes their own mastered expression of life, it allows them to know how to work with others without a dependence on a central coordinator — aka, no government, no corporation, no “caretaker” reality having to coddle to its inhabitants. Much like the header graphic of this website, we become our own masters — “islands of light” working together.

The second group will likely experience an extremely gentle “curve” into a totally different kind of reality that becomes more and more unusual to what we are accustomed. Some of us are already having these experiences, like “dreams” that are just as real as waking reality, remembering “past lives”, and so on.

The second group believes reality arises from within, or that we are one with reality. This requires the ability to recognize one’s ego — or window — in order to both include & remove it as a factor when we “time travel.” As long as the ego is non-negotiable, time travel is impossible.

There is no reality without us, or at the very least informatively it would not matter if there were as we would not be there to experience it so fundamentally it does not exist. “All is one” and so you come to understand how ridiculous he idea of being competitive is.

There is a wide spectrum of belief along both sides in all directions to all extremes, but that is what is happening to the “timelines” at present.

It is important to mention here that integration of a paradigm cannot be done based on apprehension or comprehension. It requires ongoing practice to alter the actual “contents” of the soul. You have to “write it to disk.” You can’t just have the information in memory thinking you understand it and then dismiss it because you think it is bullshit. If you won’t commit to it — contemplate it, integrate it & live it — there are facets of reality that will be forever hidden from you. You will always be “waiting” or looking in from the outside.

If you have not experienced this phenomenon, I cannot explain it to you — but imagine the feeling of remembering hard-to-remember dreams. Your entire existence is just like this — remembering bigger and older dreams. Knowledge that wasn’t there is just “there” or just “gone.” What was true, becomes untrue — timelines shift, like Marty & Doc.

This will still sound confusing to you if you are still believing in a singular “world” that is marching forward without your participation when it does not work this way. You are inexorably participating even when the world is “unseen” from you because there is nothing truly “unseen.” You are the butterfly causing tsunamis on the other side of the “world.”

YOU are creating the arbitrary boundaries where you pretend not to be master of the whole world, but so is everyone else. Your one mistake is probably thinking your world has to conflict or compete with the others.

It doesn’t. Pause for a moment and consider “how” it wouldn’t need to compete and perhaps you will have the “aha” of the multidimensional.

YOU are also the one creating the experience of suffering, lack, and scarcity. You are responsible for them because YOU are holding the spaces within yourself that allow them to flow into you.

We can choose to recognize this and create together, or we can toss people out on their asses who refuse to work together or take accountability for their own creations. Unfortunately we are still dealing with the ladder as far as I can tell.

The gatekeepers are losing their jobs. And they are angry about it. Really angry. Because they’ve been resting on their laurels, depending on the rest of us doing this work and we’re tired of it. We’re throwing them overboard.

A reminder how on co-creation works. Not everyone is being fair in their negotiations. They don’t have to be physically in your life to affect your story, feelings or even bodily health. I don’t make these rules. It is part of being a limited being and how reality is maintained. I will write more about nuances soon.

Protect your peace. Protect who you let get close to you. Protect your dreams. Get rid of your stowaways and pirates. Don’t let them sink your ship. Make them learn how to swim.

Everyone is on their own “timeline”, so you are getting the “world” you are choosing, creating or aligning to, along with anyone who has agreed to participate in that timeline with you.

Where are YOU going? Do you even think about it? Or are you just after your next “fix” – ation? What preoccupies your mind?

Whatever it is is whatever you are creating or inviting, but remember everything requires consent. If you want to play with anyone other than yourself, you must grant agency which requires consent. You can’t grant agency without having compassion & vulnerability, because these are the “glue” of reality.

Compassion & vulnerability go hand in hand, because they require “open ports.” If you can’t be vulnerable, you are trying to create a one-way street for your own needs. In other words, you are being a pirate – a narcissist. I’ll probably write more articles about this.

If you are competing with people, trying to one-up them, trying to destroy them, deceiving people, using people (and you are using people if you are simply satisfying your own needs) — you are omitting consent.

It is surprising how many people still don’t seem to understand this basic concept.

Such people are going to be taught compassion & vulnerability because fundamentally they are wanting to connect to people and don’t know how.

Sadly, compassion is best taught through suffering.

This article doesn’t have a strong musical theme, so have some pirate metal.

What do you think about potential? About the unknown?

I don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow. Is that a terror? Some think so.

I think it is beautiful.

No matter whether that tomorrow brings joy, happiness, or pain and suffering. I love it and I love exploring this universe — this dream — of ours in this way and none other. And everyday that passes I realize this was always my hidden calling for which I have been training myself.

This is the path I chose.

Ra, in the Law of One, believed that negative beings are the ones who have inverted their understanding of the universe as potential as a means of exploring how they are an aspect of God. I don’t quite agree, but I think he was onto something there, because adventurers don’t quite view the world like normal people.

Every adventurer, every gamer, every hero from every fantasy from every story is a being who prefers the unknown over the security of a collective. One collective isn’t enough. They want to visit them all.

Adventurers rally together through their own collective of self-sovereignty — of independence and wanderlust — but until they find that place or camaraderie through trials and tribulations, this path is isolating, lonely and brutal.

An adventurer is called to this life. It chooses you. Anyone not on the path doesn’t quite understand because they have different values. They prefer the civilization over the freedom. Others see a world they want to improve and stabilize — to create a home — but an adventurer carries their home with them.

An adventurer is a being who is values freedom to such an extreme that they effectively outcast themselves.

Some want a guarantee, or a promise, or insurance before they give themselves permission to live. We think we can somehow collect a debt, or borrow from the future (or past), but the universe settles all of its accounts in every moment of every day and we are the ones deciding how it should do so. We hand it the tallies and it pays us precisely what we ask.

Everything is always as it should be. The universe always breaks even and we must deal with the result we have bought.

Life is a forever game convincing ourselves we can change this fundamental truth, but all we can do is move the numbers around so it takes a little longer to go back to zero.

How much time do we have before we leave this dream for another? It is inevitable, not because this is death, but because we can never “be” zero. A human life, the planet Earth — these are just stops along an endless ever-changing journey and so they are no real boundaries. They are neither beginnings, nor ends, just another figure to balance, or a place to visit.

Why do we wake up here and not somewhere else?

I wake up here because there is no where else to wake up. I am the “best” version of myself I have ever experienced, whether that is good or bad and both are desirable and permissible.

Do you believe you will die someday, or do you believe as I do?

I can die to you.

You can die to me.

But I can never die to myself.

My thanks to an another adventurer for these statements for which I no longer have the reference but stuck with me forever.

Consider how this shows where “you” reside and how we are never in conflict with each other.

Our waking lives are created based on what we value and continue to value. The universe looks at what we value and then pays us exactly the amount so that we break-even.

Some people choose to value that which brings them joy, while others value that which brings them misery. The universe pays you the same either way and it takes no more effort to write your wishes down versus your sorrows.

Emotions that feel “heavier” or “costlier” are that way on purpose, because over our many lives we have learned that those things literally are more expensive — they create poorer realities (poorer experiences) and so we have taught ourselves to value them less by making them cost more. We choose the pain to try to teach ourselves to stop buying it — to avoid it.

Feelings, in other words, are like the guardians we have sculpted through many lives of experience to protect our highest good.

The “cheapest” thing in the universe is what? It is love. It is always “free.” It is free to give and free to receive. And you are on an endless quest to align yourself to it without ever fully reaching it, because if you did, the game would be over. When you make this apprehension, you fall in love with the journey, not the destination.

This moment, right now, is a perfect accounting. You are whole & complete. And you are viewing not just yourself, but the world and the universe, from this position — from these time, space and dimensional coordinates — in perfect order.

Your experience is set of coordinates upon all of existence and you are always in the process of choosing where to navigate. These coordinates persist for as long as you allow them to persist, including beyond the scope of your human life …

Where will you “land” when you leave this experience for another?

How much of your life do you remember? How much of your day do you remember?

There is so much of your life that goes by and fades from your memory, just as dreams do even within a span of hours or minutes. How much can you really recall from just a few hours ago? Do you remember the true minutia, or is it all broad strokes?

Look back upon your life and you will see that there was much more time that was lost than was kept.

What have you chosen to keep? I can tell you.

You have chosen to keep whatever brings you to where your heart wants to be …

And if life has given you more bad than good, then have you kept resentment, or anger as part of those memories, or did you choose to keep the lessons or information they taught? Did you use them as signposts, a map, or a compass, or did you ignore them or throw them in the dirt?

Whatever you chose to keep is exactly what you needed.

You are a ship always moving towards the destination you wish and the universe is always showing you “what you need to see” because you can’t see “the whole universe.”

This is the life of the eternal adventurer.

Whether you fight & resist, or surrender and go with the flow, the accounting is always right — it is always “zero” — and your experience is always re-ordered to your intentions.

The “delay” is also part of your intentions, because without the delay, you would have no limitations again — back to zero — and thus no experience. And so the universe is reborn in each moment as an elaborate trick that is always falling back to zero.

The most challenging part of being alive is being able to “see” what you need to see without becoming victimized by it. When you victimize yourself, it is always some spectrum of abdication or denial of the balance sheet you have hand delivered to the universe.

That is, you can never accuse the universe of short-changing you, because if you do, the universe will simply deliver the experience of being short-changed — you will be upset and miserable at feeling as though you have lack, or obstacles, or suffering, but the accounting will still be zero and the universe will simply point and tell you: “Look, right there — you said you wanted 5 helpings of suffering.”

And the “right there” will not be in the sheet, it will be right in front of you as your proof.

“What You Need to See” can be the most infuriating thing in the world when you don’t know what you are writing down on your “balance sheet.” The only way to avoid victimizing yourself — to read the whole balance sheet so nothing is hidden — is to be able to see yourself.

When you can see yourself, you can allow yourself to be part of the accounting without instructing the universe to omit you from the balance. You can’t actually be omitted from the balance, but you can tell the universe you want the experience of that and so it is so!

We all omit ourselves — allow potential — to some degree because omnipotence = zero. And what fun is omnipotence?

If you omit either the universe or yourself, you create an abdication that will always make you feel trapped or victimized. If you fall into your ego by overvaluing it, you will continually tell that the universe that it must also value these things and so it limits how the universe may do its accounting.

I am going to give you a cheat code on how to identify yourself. This is the only cheat that exists in the whole wide universe. If you try to cheat any other way, you will only cheat yourself.

You are love.

Love is the eternal flow — or what I call “will.” The observer. The chooser. When you are in your power — you love. That is it.

Love is the only thing that allows you view anything without bias. Anything else will create a bias which must be accounted for and brought to zero. Love is the “zero” state which allows you to access your omnipotence at any time while still being “in the game.”

Everything else is part of coordinates — including people. This does not make people unreal, but rather you don’t know where those people “are” (hint: never judge them.) You only know where YOU are, which is “love.” Always love.

Put yourself in love and you will see everything with perfect clarity. It is your ego that you see, feel or hear when you are standing in love whether it prompts you to react and be angry, or be inspired and marshal on.

Love allows you to detach from the “weight” (or “cost”) of your experience so that you may freely allow anything in or out without blocking it.

I felt compelled to write this article because I want to say …

If there is anyone in your life that you love — I mean, truly love — never let them go, even if it is just memories. Even if they forget themselves, as some may, you remember for them. Don’t allow yourself to forget through the mundane or the meaningless, or even through pain or burden.

Hold onto love, even if you just keep it inside, no matter what it takes. The world may come for it but your job is to protect it from everything, even yourself.

We live this life forgetting most of our accounting of it and it is marked, I think, by moments where we experience love and remember truly what “we” are. More and more, I know just how rare these moments are and even rarer people we love.

People come & go, but when you find someone that you truly love, it doesn’t matter what they do. Nothing about it is rational. Even the pain becomes a different kind of expression of love to which you happily “pay.” Love never dies.

If you have ever tried to move on from someone you truly love, you will find it is impossible. You don’t move on. You learn to live with it, because there is no cost too high to hold the place within that allows them to come home again and again to you — to be be reborn alongside you for all time in the infinite expanse of the “unknown.”

It doesn’t matter what happened before today, because it is just a fading dream for which you are the captain. A dream that is reborn again and again forever. No matter where you sail, the love is always there, lighting the way.

Sorry I have not posted more. I will be trying to make some updates soon.

Money is part of the scene.

What do I mean by the scene?

The scene is the moving frame of your unified life. And what is your unified life? What is UNITY?

UNITY, in this context, is the unification of all of your experience. This includes your five senses, your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions, definitions, meanings, memories, the ideas of others or others themselves, the world or universe or space that is unseen to you, your senses of intangible or “subtle” things like time, distance or movement, the relationships between all of these things — everything that occurs in your “qualia.” There are no exceptions.

You may have a problem understanding unity if you make arbitrary exceptions for tough concepts like people (“The Other”), or the agency these people possess, or their memories or their influence or impact on your life. Other tough ones can include nature itself and your bodily health.

Nothing can be exempted. Nothing. OK? Nothing. Not even nothing itself.

Money is not something you can pursue or acquire. You are not in the scene.

You cannot possess it, anymore than it can possess you. You cannot separate, or divide, something without fundamentally changing its nature which is always whole.

Should you dedicate yourself to the acquisition of money, you have fallen off of your throne in order to become part of your scene, rather than the director of that scene. I call this fixation and some beliefs call it density. Other philosophies may measure it in terms of wisdom or a scale of harmony or balance you hold within as you become more actualized and are able to distinguish where you truly reside.

Once you become part of the scene, then the scene becomes your director and you have lost your power. The harder you commit to being part of the scene, the more entangled and dependent you will become. This entanglement hides the path to your true self behind layers and layers of stories from which you cannot detach without causing more explorations of time and delays.

What is the shortest distance between two dots? There is a classic example where it is not in fact a line, but folding the paper so there is no more distance.

When you draw a line — linearity — a singular immutable world or timeline (no forgiveness, no hope) — you are creating weights and entanglements from which you become bound. Your scene is the paper and “you” are the one folding the paper, or drawing the line. It is your decision whether to think in linear, point to point terms, or multidimensional, non-spatial terms (forgiveness, hope, faith, surrender.)

When you are able to fold the paper, you are able to allow your mind to hold two places at once and remove “yourself” from the conditions on how to bridge these points. This allows you to become “multidimensional.” When you know your destination and surrender to the flow of the universe, you do not have to follow a single path, a single timeline or a single world.

It requires great confidence and faith to be able to allow the universe to show you the next step while feeling no need to control where it may appear and having no idea where it may take you and yet the more you practice it, the more you will see how miracles can and do happen.

The more you practice, the more reality moves an inch closer to something like a dream and your life shall be a battle of moving yourself an inch at a time towards this dreamlike state (which is often described as high vibration, or low density, or higher dimensional.)

Once you have seen these things and experienced them for yourself, there is no way of going back to the old, linear way of being, much like being unable to forget how to ride a bike. Your soul intrinsically changes at a fundamental level.

So why is money such a wrench in the proverbial system?

Because money attempts to create a surrogate concept, vessel or “hijack” for what is effectively love, willpower, or the volitional force or momentum of consciousness itself. Money provides a fake apparatus or overlay on top of this intrinsic attribute of life, experience and reality in attempt to create a dominion over it, or mistakenly believe it can create a bypass to consequences.

It is understandable to want to build your life around money, because fundamentally your soul desires love — it desires willful command over its reality — and you want to use this power to create a dream life for yourself. And you want to do so in a way that is the most immediate, least painful and expeditious way you can manage. Money seems like the answer, right?

Fundamentally your soul knows, even if your waking consciousness does not (your ego, or scene/contextual-self), that it is the primal, foundational force of the cosmos. The true you which is the ultimate observer with supreme executive power is the one that creates all of reality. Only your ego, or “scene mind” — your contextual self — makes the mistake (or hurbris) of thinking that money is equivalent to this awesome infinite and omnipotent creation power.

Money becomes a “backdoor” into your own willpower that you can exploit upon yourself, or allow others to exploit you, as money, like all things, is part of the unified scene — so the true purpose of the concept of money is not, in fact, what you understand as currency, or cash, or buying power, but as an concept that is meant to create a substitute for your own will that can be “hooked into” like a credit card skimmer.

If you believe your true power should serve at the behest of money, beware, your wish will be granted. Creation itself is subservient to your actual omnipotent will — so to covet money is to place it above your own will (which is of course your free will decision to experience) which implies of course that your will is put underneath money and so money becomes more powerful than creation itself!

A clever trick, yes?

Money is inherently the ego’s desire — whether yours or the Other’s — to exert control over its own will that it already possesses (like asking a genie for a wish who is really just a middleman robbing you.) And via this sleight of hand, it creates a point of fixation that causes what we spoke about before — an abdication — a decision to draw a line rather than fold the paper.

The amount of money you possess tends to be either be a function of your fixation, or a function of your sovereignty.

You can be extremely rich and yet be totally bereft over all sovereignty of your own soul, because your fixation is so entangled that your contextual-self — the dream, life or qualia you experience — is an extension of the stories it requires to continue to make that richness believable and maintainable — like having having to take a bunch of prerequisite courses before getting to the class you actually want.

You might imagine a CEO who is so burdened by responsibilities, or so lost in hedonistic pursuits attempting to scratch long blown out and overloaded desires that they have become empty and produce no more novel experiences for themselves. For them, reality does not support them. Their support has to be constantly taken (like a vampire) or reinforced like a chore ; something decaying and waiting to fall apart or entropic.

“Cause you’re the son of a clerk and I’m not supposed to want to be you.”

Fernando Mondego in The Count of Monte Cristo

You can be extremely poor and yet have godlike sovereignty, because you understand that you are not “in” the scene and so nothing and no one — whether it is yourself, the Other, or any aspect of the scene and not even the threat of pain or death itself — may influence your ability to make decisions or remain situated on your “throne.”

You might imagine someone living in the wilderness without a penny, yet be totally harmonious with the flow of life. Their life is always novel and adventurous and so their inner-state is always fulfilled and overflowing. For them, reality seems to always support them with invisible hands like they are being cradled by the universe.

You can also be poor and still have poor sovereignty, or be rich and still retain your sovereignty. I leave it to your imagination on what these lives look like — it remains that money is a function of the scene you — the real you — have chosen and are choosing to render.

You are omnipotent in this ability to render your life — to choose the ingredients you put into your cauldron of life — but you cannot escape the consequences of your own omnipotence — the pot you have brewed so far — so you have a “shadow” or “buffer” that follows you around for which you must resolve. This is not karma, but simply the consequences of your own will that follow you without relent.

As the old adage goes, you cannot take it with you when you die …

You can never “take” the dream with you, including all the material possessions you accumulate. All you can take with you — is you. The real you that is beyond the contents of your dream, beyond time and space. And if you have done nothing to cultivate what you are — if everything you have is merely a byproduct of a dream that will someday end — then what are you but a dream to be forgotten?

The dream arises from within you — always. It will always do so and you will always be there at the top of it for all of eternity. You should take great care of what you decide to carry in your backpack.

And so to dedicate oneself to the pursuit of money implicitly boils down to a dedication to hedonism, as it is fundamentally a mistake of understanding where your true power lies. To believe in the “power” of money is simply believing in the power of your own desires to fulfill over your own will or power and so your desires become altars for which you WILL serve.

Your desires and pleasures will become your masters until your will is no longer yours, but a function of whatever or whomever can fulfill these desires for you — even existential desires for your starving soul for which you will seek teachers and saviors. And you will obey, because you are immortal and even if you have to suffer or die to reconcile with yourself (as in checking!), your will is always done. Reincarnation occurs when you give up all hope of creating balance.

And so, I say, money is part of the scene to make you understand that if you wish to be rich, you must be rich within. To be rich within is to follow the calling that is given to you by God, universe or your soul, no matter how hard or how far it may seem to you for nothing else — and I do mean nothing else — will ever fulfill you, but will instead only gradually drain you until you remember just how powerful you are.

You are so powerful that you can render yourself powerless to experience what it is like to have no power.

And so who is the best master but God, the universe or life itself? Then and only then can you never lose your power for you serve creation itself.

What is your calling? Well, of course, that is for you to decide.

This article is not about identifying what drives you. Passion and purpose are age old questions and they are not static, but changing, dynamic and — importantly — forever, because you are an immortal being that is always pursuing this never-ending calling.

That is why life is so beautiful, because it is a story that is always new, novel and eternal. A never-ending story …

How, then, should you think about money? You should not. Money is part of the scene, so you will always have what belongs there and you always belong where you are.

You should be focused on how to become the highest, best expression of yourself at all times and trust that the universe will catch you as you endlessly fall or fly. You should look to exalt life and seek out new and novel experiences and to become the master of either creating or finding these experiences.

You should trust that the universe will lay the bricks beneath your feet to make it happen, whether you decide to sell it all and travel across the world with nothing but a backpack or whether you become an entrepreneur and risk it all to create something no one has ever seen before. As long as you do it with just a little bit of exuberance and faith, the universe will always have your back.

I leave it to you.

Alright, I am going to attempt to make a dent in this topic.

Imagine you are carrying a backpack. This backpack contains everything you need in order to live (have an experience — qualia.) You can only hold so much inside of it (buffer.) If you put too much inside of it, it weighs you down (makes you feel burdened) and slows down your experience. It reduces how far you can travel and makes it more burdensome to get there.

If you keep your backpack light, you have a spring in your step and you can get to where you want to go quicker. It is also easier for you to see where you going, or reach places that you give you good vantage points.

“Where you want to go” are your intentions (destination) and will.

The world within which you are traveling can be considered to be your soul — a library of all of your eternal experiences — plus the souls (and their libraries) of all other co-creators, that are offering you “suggestions” on how to add, remove or use resources from your backpack.

Let us imagine two different travelers.

One traveler fills their backpack with goods they have purchased from town. All the best and finest adventuring gear. The finest rations. There is no scenario that this traveler is unprepared to deal with. Their backpack is heavy and overburdened, but they are “ready for anything!”

The other traveler purchases some essentials, but plans to forage or live off the land — to hunt — in other words — this traveler intends to fill their backpack with what they find along the way.

Let us consider the fundamental intentions hidden underneath both of these travelers.

The first traveler though well-meaning is carrying a backpack full of fear & dependencies. He does not trust himself to forage, or hunt, but relies on the goods and products of others. And he feels so unprepared for the journey ahead, he feels the need to fill his backpack up with every possible tool he might need. He does not trust himself to create what he needs, or has no faith in his skill or intellect to find solutions to his problems.

The second traveler is full of love & freedom, because he has to travel with a great deal of confidence in his ability to acquire what he needs, despite all unknowns that he may face. He has little dependence on others, so does not become trapped or stuck if those resources are not available to him.

As both of these travelers embark, their experiences will be remarkably different. These hidden dispositions form the fundamental basis of the reality each traveler will produce as they move forward.

While the first traveler may have initial advantages, he is playing a short-game. He is gambling that there will always be the resources needed from others to forge ahead — that he will have the resources or the towns to restock. He never bothers to build a relationship to himself — to discover his limits, his fears, his motivations, or to celebrate triumphs or see how he handles the grief of his losses.

And while the second traveler may have a harder time to start, he is learning skills that make him less dependent on not just others, but from the burdens of his own limitations. He is gaining a closer relationship to himself, his soul and the souls of others and to the natural world /universe / life (God.) He is expanding both his intimacy and vulnerability which requires them to be exposed and challenged on the regular, which are strengths, not weaknesses.

Now, how does this all relate to identities & gender?

In this example, we are imagining travelers who are putting things like rations, water, ropes, pots & pans and other things in their backpacks — but the truth is that you are also putting in beliefs of about yourself, meanings, definitions, the relationships between things — the subtle — and more. The ladder of these “weigh nothing.” You can put in as much of the subtle as you wish, as long as it makes sense to you and is well-organized.

Those who understand that this is not a physical world, but a spiritual one, thus have a vested interest in obtaining as much as the ladder (the spiritual “stuff”) as possible, because it allows them more leeway, more latitude, faster movement and more range.

Those who have not yet dedicated themselves to a spiritual pursuit will find it difficult to believe how reality will begin to support and embrace you like a hidden lover because they are still mired in the back and forth ping-pong game “dualism” of the physical world where it seems like they have total dependence. They do not understand miracles are real, that timeline jumps are real, that reality can bend and contort just like a dream.

The first traveler sees the world as something to conquer or fear, the second traveler sees the world through the lens of excitement and wonderment.

When you understand that you are an immortal being, you quickly come to understand that you want to expend every waking moment honing, refining and finding the truth about yourself because this is what you will carry with you forever from life to life until you start to break through the “continuum” threshold where you have gained enough knowledge and wisdom to become an undying eternal traveler.

You reader have likely already lived hundreds of lives. In a strictly conventional sense, this is evidenced in your DNA which contains a glimpse of your ancestors before you, which really are variants of yourself.

The gender — and by that I mean the genitalia that you possess at this time — is a function of your destiny or fate. As described in this article — that is the “thrust” or “force” (pun not intended) of the totality of your soul, not an overriding of your free will but more like you are caught in the current of a river that you can never escape but can still paddle. It is the burden of your askashic totality — your library — that you must learn how to organize and navigate without becoming addled, confused or drunk.

You have “chosen” this gender from before you have incarnated not as a singular, discrete decision but an umbrella of life choices prior to your birth.

However, this may not mean what you think it means.

Masculine and feminine are not genitalia but are descriptions of energetic or intentional qualities inherent to the fabric of creation.

Masculine qualities tend to be more aggressive, active, controlling, constructive and boundary denying. This correlates with its physical representation which is phallic.

Feminine qualities tend to be more docile, peaceful, receptive, withering and boundary affirming. This correlates with its physical representation which is yonic.

In “higher realms”, these attributes are disposable. That is, you are not the avatar — you are the player. “In but not of” as a popular figure would say. You can play a female or male character, or anything in between, as you desire.

Earth is not (yet) a higher realm. OK? We’re here to change that.

Well, some of us are, I am beginning to suspect. The humans needed a little help.

You (and I) have not achieved a level of mastery where you can consider yourself as “playing a game.” You are in a spiritual war defining the essence of your soul right now and this will continue for as long as it takes before you “actualize” or “graduate.” You might call that ascension, or enlightenment, or salvation — it is all the same — and described by spiritualists, religion and philosophers for thousands of years.

Your graduation is the threshold I mentioned above with the travelers — where you become so light that you “pop above” the noise and are able to retain your continuum.

There is much controversy around sexual and gender issues in the world because most people do not understand the reasons they have incarnated on Earth.

You will have to learn where you fall on this spectrum, but the following is the truth as I understand it and this may trigger some folks. So content warning.

If you feel as if you possess more masculine qualities, you are here to learn to embody more feminine qualities — if you feel as if you possess more feminine qualities, you are here to learn to embody more masculine qualities. You can be a man and possess more feminine attributes (as I do), or be a woman and possess more masculine attributes. You can also be a man who is manly, or a woman who is feminine — and the truth still stands. You are here to learn to find a balance between the two.

This is the same challenge of self-actualization that mankind has faced for all time and gender issues are not specific to its requirements. All philosophy deals with the balance and synthesis of the consciousness which includes concepts that can be described as masculine or feminine. It is just another part of the dualism game that we want to escape (into non-polarity, or in this context, “non-binary“.)

I will not go over all the words out there or talk about pronouns and other nuance because I wish to keep this more in broad strokes.

The term queer for example, can represent a consciousness that is liberating itself from the idea that it is “in” the world because it recognizes that it is not its sex. It is something much more than the body it inhabits.

Nonetheless, rejection of our sex can represent a reactionary response and thus an abdication or loss of will. The trick is to both understand we are not our own sex, yet exalt the bodies (love!) we find ourselves within. The body knows when you love it and when you hate it and will react accordingly (cause distortion), which will be the subject of health topics in the future.

The variety of sexual orientations also are symptomatic of consciousness in general beginning to incorporate higher levels of intimacy with the self and with others as society begins to tolerate less fear/toxicity and embody more love or tolerance. We might even call that “being civilized.”

The explosion of discussion about gender, sexuality and sexual expression is not society falling into debauchery and chaos so much as it is the cyclical nature of the Earth game that is for the purpose of ascension. We are witnessing each person’s unique journey as they thrive, or succumb, to the pressure of the “game.” As levels of synthesis rise, different expressions integrate in different ways. This is can be beautiful and terrifying and everything inbetween.

Dysphoria is the symptom — the FEELING — of you needing to integrate whatever “opposing” qualities you do not possess. If you are REACTIVE about this, you are in what I call abdication, or are leaking or losing sovereignty. You experience the dysphoria when you are DENYING the qualities that your soul wants to integrate and are being impressed upon you from your environment/world which results in confusion, discomfort and “dysphoric” state.

Imagine you prefer roles where you play as a man. Imagine the universe calls you up for a role as a woman and you agree. You get on stage (you incarnate, or are born), but can’t remember accepting the casting call at all (amnesia, which we have talked about in other articles and is an important concept here.) But instead of becoming the best actor of your role, you spend a lot of time trying to return to what is familiar (your preference as a man.) You are stuck in existentialism. This is what causes dysphoria.

Your job is to remember the call from the universe and be the best damn actor you can be, because it shows the universe you are ready to accept more roles of any gender or non-gender in more realms. If you break down into existentialism whenever you incarnate, you will continue to have the the dualism game — man/woman — good/evil — binary — imposed on you. Aka, density or fixation or lower realms, aka, the universe will not give you a more versatile job until you demonstrate better levels of mastery.

None of us are alone in the collective pressures that are exerted upon all life on Earth and you are under constant energetic bombardment from yourself, from others, from the “astrological” — to learn lessons — to ascend. You can consider Earth like a pressure cooker that ramps up as you become more advanced. It will push you more and more to integrate, balance and synthesize as an actualized individual — including how you feel about your own sex — until you figure it out or die.

Integration itself is difficult enough, but even more difficult when we are at odds with our own gender. This conflict likely arises more in older souls because of the higher level of challenge it represents and because it will push you to higher levels of expression (less density/fixation.) For example, I have not realized until recent years just how many of my own struggles were deeply sexual in nature because of my unique life circumstances and unique childhood traumas that obscured clarity of the problem from me as something other than what it was. So I spent a long time spinning my wheels on unrelated issues.

In fact, I spent about 20 years figuring it out, bouncing from one philosophy, and life mistake after another until my Year of Hell.

I see that there is an excruciating amount of judgement, condemnation from all sides in the political world and why I so often stay as far away as possible from the fighting. I do believe I am being called to change this position, so I am starting to address some of these controversial topics that I know I will need to answer.

We are collectively witnessing consciousness ascending in action even when it is ugly and brutal.

If all of this spiritual work was easy, you would already be in HEAVEN, or some appropriately customized higher realm of your choosing. As a unique expression of life, no one is capable of doing this integration process for you because the backpack you carry is totally unique to you & your journey. As I described in Success & Pain, overcoming boundaries always involves overcoming discomfort of some kind.

We are all being taught how we are not our genders — not to forcibly change it but to release it altogether — which allows you to enjoy it for what it is to its fullest potential no matter what you choose to embody, or find yourself within when life is given to you.

Let us remind ourselves of UNITY again.

UNITY is the unification of all five senses, your imagination “space”, your thinking “space”, your relationships to yourself, to words, to definitions, all the things themselves, Others — it is the ALL OF YOUR EXPERIENCE including the whole wide world (or your perception of it) whether it is in the 20 feet around you, or beyond the edges of the horizon.

To use myself as an example, I am a man who was born with extremely feminine qualities. I was bullied severely in school. I also had something happen to me that further distorted my sexual nature (which I am not quite prepared to share on this blog) that I did not discover until recent years.

I have had a long, arduous journey of learning to become more active, assertive and confident despite strongly wanting to remain as I always was. Despite lacking the tools of a man inherently because I was more disposed to feminine qualities, I was still expected to perform more as a man because that was outward appearance and the body I found myself within.

Life is hard enough when we are not at war with ourselves within. It is excruciating when there is an internal battle going on in our head that no one can see that we are judged about all the time that seems to have little cultural recognition. And those judgements are never about the actual battle we are having upstairs which we can never quite convey or express because it seems to us as such an inexplicable mismatch of demands internal (our minds) & external (our bodies.)

There is never enough time when dealing with others while also dealing with the responsibilities of life, but the judgements from others that we become subject to as our own conflict causes us problems in our lives exacerbates and misplaces the actual problem (which is actualization) causing even more frustration and confusion which causes us to want to run, break down, or lash out at others.

But as harsh as it sounds, we do this to ourselves on purpose. Whether you decide to believe this is malicious, or as a byproduct of the raising of consciousness is your decision.

You will invite others to “wound” and “victimize” you until you stop it and stand up for yourself. This does not mean hurting or judging others, or yourself by denying or destroying the reality around you (that I want to remind you comes from within). Being unbalanced within means your life will be unbalanced without. This is just the nature of how reality works, because you are a god-creator and must learn to control what you put out into the world.

The primary danger that I have observed is, like most humans, we can become preoccupied with labels, or the “outer world” and become reactive about. When this happens, we have allowed the external world dominion over ourselves and conflict is the domain of Nonsense. Conflict, of course, being the favorite tool of those with a nefarious mind. It is this small place of fixation/focus (conflict) that can be used to distract, divide, and conquer (more separation, descension into lower realms.)

Many folks run from these introspective challenges rather than do the painful shadow work — and there are also forces upon the Earth who are preying upon this struggle in actualization, which causes further problems. As I mentioned, I have had direct contact with some of these darker elements as a child, causing traumas that I have only recently begun to understand.

All of my friends also had these problems too. Almost every one of them was sexually abused in some fashion — attesting to the rampant problems affecting kids and early development. I did not understand how deeply it affected them, just as it had affected me, until much later.

What “agenda” could sexual identities have?

Identity might be considered the contents of your backpack, because it is what allows you have an experience — to continue living. That which controls this identity, controls your backpack and thus controls you.

The more associated you become with the contents of your backpack — the more dependent you are, or the less you are able to change the contents of that backpack or rely on the natural world (God/life/Source/etc.) — the more you are a pawn on someone else’s board.

You may begin to understand how these topics are intrinsically intertwined with trafficking and child abuse and how someone with a mind could suppress actualization as a means of wielding power.

Remember the first traveler above? Imagine his backpack is full of brand products, designer clothes, he is dependent on half a dozen prescriptions. His pots and pans don’t last, he has to buy new clothes and shoes all the time because he can’t sew and so on — he becomes a slave to the world/his own soul. Imagine how “heavy” he is.

As a reminder, as you become more fixated or “dense”, it will become harder for you to maintain your awareness, or memory (there is that darn amnesia and whole “life purpose” thing again). Your backpack is becoming heavy and weighing you down. This will also begin to limit your range of emotions, feelings or even your ability to perceive or think. Reaching or seeing beyond distant horizons becomes much harder to do and the world will seem smaller and you will be “convinced” it resembles a prison, even if the bars are made of paper.

Imagine how someone with an evil mind might use this knowledge to keep you dull and without your memories.

If you are very enamored with the problem of your gender / gender identity for example, you are enmeshed in a conflict that increases your fixation/density because much to the opposite of your intention to liberate yourself by affirming the gender you “feel” — you have actually chained yourself to an identity (your gender!)

By ASSERTING rather than RELEASING your gender altogether, you have INCREASED YOUR GRIP (no pun intended again!) — increased fear — increased fixation/density. You have added MORE WEIGHT to the backpack than take it out. This causes more dualism and more separation. Ironic, isn’t it? And devilish. It is by design to teach you where “you” truly reside, which is not “in the game” at all.

You can believe all this is nefarious, like those Prison Planet people, but you are always better off believing in positive intentions rather than negative ones — in my humble opinion. You empower yourself when you think you are learning and growing rather than being victimized and trapped.

Keeping you in conflict serves the agenda of the physical world and those with a vested interest in dominating or controlling the physical world.

However, if you are able to exalt or become comfortable with whatever body you find yourself in, in whatever world, or whatever dream you wind up in, whether you are a man, woman, goblin, dragon — you are becoming more like the player of a video game, who is free from all attachment to its character. This creates a lightness of being just like playing a game and it is precisely this lightness that brings you to greater planes of experience and greater freedom.

The other day, I was told that lottery machines now require identity checks in order to buy tickets (for readers in the United States). This is a great example of how there are forces at work attempting to gradually boil society like a frog by getting them to buy into deeper and deeper levels of “identities” that are outside of your control and in someone else’s control.

This is also example of how the system is dying, because it is becoming less able to give out “free manifestation” without taxation (why do you think they want your identity? hint, it involves the month of April) as a means of enticement/enslavement to it, like the pheromones of a fly trap.

He who controls the “identities” controls the souls. But if your identity is not within the world at all, then who controls you? No one but you and God.

Your driver’s license and birth certificate are other examples of seemingly external forces wanting to impose an identity upon you that can be indirectly used like a proxy to control you. But it isn’t outside of you and it can’t control you. It is a clever illusion. You are the one who decides.

Credit scores are another example. A way to rate or judge how well you integrate into “the system.” A barometer for the “elite” to assess the worthiness of renting out your own power back to you.

Watch the Golden Web which you can find in my Reference section.

For Dungeons & Dragons enthusiasts, imagine you had to consult with the Wizards of the Coast Identity Bureau for approval whenever you generated a new character before you could play (live!) it. That is the “goal” of having you so fixated on fighting over your masculine & feminine qualities that you are happily to declare it on legal documents and ritualistically (which programs you) reinforce it everyday through the use of cards and other devices to gradually draw you deeper into the system. You will literally fight (conflict) to hold onto the identities that are “groomed” into you which do not free you, but further imprison you — because you are the creator of this dream, dear reader.

You do not need labels or pronouns to be free. You are beyond these labels, even as they assist you in your journey to becoming more than what you appear to be.

Pronouns for example can cause conflict not just with others who don’t understand the problem but within yourself. As the pronouns challenge conventional norms, the challenge becomes a place of contention or conflict that is often exploited. Your unconscious, or spirit (visible on the 4D plane in dreams, btw), may also become conflicted or confused if it becomes too mired in this disjunction between bodily appearances, conventional expectations and your own internal needs to assert what you know about yourself. Your job is to find a congruence between all three of these aspects that causes no conflict whatsoever.

Controversy is just another means by which we show ourselves what we need to see in order to gain a new perspective on how to achieve harmony and congruence.

As always, though, triggering and reacting are always signs that you are abdicating your throne and giving your power away, no matter what words you use to describe yourself. All sides of the political spectrum are furiously triggering each other and this is pleasing to those in power and intended. Giving your power away is precisely what vampires, narcissists, and anyone with a mind for domination desires the most.

A trick to identifying your ego is that it wants to remain “linear” and hates change. So always be careful about becoming too complacent.

This article is long enough, I think, so to conclude …

I do not consider myself a “man” — I am the player behind the scene — though I take it as a unique challenge to embody the highest concepts of what it means to be a man and experience life as a man because it was what was given to me by God / life / Source / universe — and that is a wonderful thing. Gratitude. Shouldn’t we be excited at the idea of being able to experience different things rather than becoming despondent, or despair over what is — at this time — out of our control?

Be patient with each other, folks … I know I have not always been. There is room for both liberal and conservative and everything inbetween.

Don’t be afraid to take the space you need. The world is built to deny you this space — which disrupts both your ability to actualize and manifest (achieve goals/dreams) — at every turn through every day demands and how society is structured — paychecks, 9-5s, debt, credit cards, and more. Take your space even if you you know other people might not understand or you have to be really rude about it.

What is the collective stage of the world right now?

The world right now is learning a dire lesson in boundaries not as a means of tyranny or suppression but because some level of boundaries are required in order for life to express & exist and these boundaries have been abused both in global and individual levels.

A reminder that your own life is a microcosm for the macrocosm of the entire world. The whole world will reflect the same issues you struggle with inside, except “dispersed” and in billions of different expressions. It is your choice to embody more love or conflict/fear and it will be shown back to you.

Your job right now is to examine what boundaries you value and to find the courage and strength to stand up for them. Some people might not like this but that is the nature of boundaries. You may find — in time — that as you assert your boundaries, those who were once upset or irritated come to respect or appreciate having their own boundaries revealed so they may also grow into their best expressions. This may be an uncomfortable and painful process, however, as you must remain in your own personal sovereignty.

Remember, we are all connected and without these boundaries, we can affect each other regardless of time, space and distance.

We will get there. Love and light.