This is an article intended for someone, but may benefit others going through similar situations, so it may be read that way instead. If you think you are the person, maybe you are.
You are not alone.
People fulfill the roles of our own shadows. You invite what you are holding inside.
What are they so stubbornly harassing you about where I have been utterly silent persisting over here on my own?
Whatever they whispered in your ear, if I wanted it, I obviously didn’t need it — I didn’t even have a clue about until I received even more dreams over this crazy experience. I wouldn’t still be standing here and you wouldn’t be at a crossroads where you can either stay in Hell, or follow your intuition.
Have you wondered why it is an all or nothing decision? What does that reveal about them, yourself and me?
I suspect you were roped in out of what you perceive as your own decisions and probably fear judgement for your own role, but there is much more going on here than simply being conned. Much more which I think you suspect.
I have been suffering here with you. I am feeling this shit like you are here. I feel it in my body. I wake up with dreams and nightmares. They thought it was funny at first, I think, but the laughing I think has stopped when they realized I am not going anywhere — as in, still breathing or having a voice that seems to create continual contradictions and questions that become harder to address as time wears on.
Everyone can see the elephant in the room and everyone is shuffling the furniture around.
There are no guarantees in life. How do you learn faith, or value potential over security and determinism?
Do you think you are the only one dealing with deceit and confusion? I have dealt with bullies my whole life in some capacity. One in particular that was prone to spying, hacking and cheating and thought no one noticed. I wonder if these people told you the whole story or just their version of it.
Did you happen to come across three private letters? I wonder if you got the full versions. I will give them to you, if you ask.
These letters had nothing to do with money or desperation. I may not be Elon Musk, but I am proud of what I built. I have worked my ass off.
This is a public space, so I am not going to reveal more than that other than to say …
Everyone — as in all humans — are suppose to be family and that is more important than money, but not everyone gets it. They’d rather compete, eat each other and throw people on the street no matter what the circumstances look like or what they are going through.
If you want to believe that is just an obfuscation for being a bum, well, I’d like to think that this website and my business site proved otherwise. If you are intent on judging others based on their material status, I ask you to consider what that says about you.
Because I don’t use terms like non-binary, neurodivergent, and others on this blog doesn’t mean I don’t understand them or haven’t tried to encapsulate them here. This blog represents decades of being locked in a room.
All things I suspect have been either old outdated views or opinions put on me without my say — which by the way is a form of “black magic” that can be felt in the receiver and also received in dreams.
I was was still recovering from 2022. Have they been making fun of how I couldn’t sit? “Sit on a tire” is the latest message I got in a dream.
I was attempting during this time to ascertain who was a genuine friend just as you are. It was either make tough decisions or remain stuck. It is not so easy, is it?
I was attempting to heal issues regarding socialization and intimacy. The kidney stone and health issues which caused severe problems with the latter and made me feel existentially like I had been exiled from reality.
I have been here working on introspective issues my whole life. My whole life — learning about myself, about this universe and figuring out what was happening that went beyond the conventional/physical world which isn’t unlike conventional psychology or spiritual study.
My brand of it may be very woo woo because it deals with secrets that people really don’t want getting out that I had to figure out because it was a private experience most people would not believe or is not easy to translate to discussion or would be dismissed for something I knew it wasn’t but couldn’t “prove.”
So I sat here in silence working until I had the words to describe what was happening.
When 2022 struck, I had multiple episodes where I was screaming in pain (as in I could not stop myself from crying out) and there is no position that will alleviate a kidney stone. My parents got sick with me because I was in so much pain. In fact, my mother was so concerned she started sharing the symptoms.
And there were further complications that made it very hard to sit in place, including anxiety and fear around computers and spiritual information that was being given to me at the time. I was trying to get away from heavy gaming for years and after 2022 it became almost a primal fear that I had to overcome.
My body, my ability to think clearly, socialize and more all started healing much faster after I created boundaries around these people. Coincidence? Maybe.
My artwork and articles exploded since then. I have almost no blocks regarding my artistic expression, which requires the sacral chakra to be unblocked. Hmm. That isn’t to say I wasn’t creating before 2022, because I certainly was — but it is always an ongoing battle of us versus “the devil.”
I suspect that N, T & MD were all involved somehow, even if it was simply after the events of April of 2024 — thought this was funny, might have thought it was going to be a hazing and then would swoop in to “possess” me. I am certain N wanted to just “win” at all costs and I have seen dreams regarding him that would curdle your blood.
I had conversations with N that were just off like he knew something or planned something and it reached a crescendo I could no longer ignore. I had a conversation like that in April followed by a dream about you asking for help.
Sigh.
And there are longer-term issues with MD that I suspect, if you have come to know him, he has likely omitted. He may have thrown N under the bus for his agenda. I will talk about those issues, if they are even relevant, but only with you.
Hey, but you don’t have to believe this shit …
If you are reading this, though, why do you keep coming back if something inside isn’t screaming at you?
This site was built to air laundry, so here it is. I have nothing to hide and am done living in fear regarding my voice.
What I was learning about the events of 2022 to now disturbed me. Are they all accurate or true? Who knows. We each have our own journey to figure out. But the experiences were real, regardless of my feelings or dreams, and I made the best choices I could to move on in a landlocked life against people I felt would not move on or ever leave me alone or understand the spiritual experience I was having.
I was being forced to trust my intuition … just as you are.
I could not overlook concerns regarding a certain MD and a certain crew — a “KM” may also be important here if dreams are to be believed — and I was not sure if “T” was with them because we all grew up together and almost certainly had past life connections.
The human collective is awakening to these people throwing rocks and hiding their hands.
And you wouldn’t still be here if you thought my articles about vampirism, destiny swaps were bogus or didn’t resonate with your own experiences somehow. You heal others in a certain way and they may not appreciate that. They simply take and consume, as we all do before we wake up. That isn’t a judgement, but it requires an honest self assessment to decide if you are where you should be.
I imagine if if your life is full of toxicity, confusion and pain, maybe it isn’t the right place. I wanted to move on from my past life which was exactly that.
These people were inexorably intertwined in my story, as your people in your story are and only YOU can figure out who is “filling a role” for you to teach you a lesson.
MD, KM & T were all early childhood from my life. I wonder if it makes any sense for them to be in “your lane”? Hmm. That seems pretty bizarre. Maybe they aren’t.
One for all and all for one.
This is all past life things we are here to heal and move on from.
L _ R = Most likely N, given evidence. It was obviously someone who read the Twin Flames article. I am just putting that out there to know I am aware. Also AI is not as human sounding as you think.
And what was this? If you know, you know. –>
If you are worried I won’t stand by you, I can only say I will. But regardless of what you do, you will have to have faith, or choose to continue to suffer while the weight of all these truths — YOUR truth — continue to get heavier and heavier.
If you don’t read this blog, then I hope this message resonates with people going through their own twilight zones in some way.
If anything else occurs that seems relevant, I am just going to air it, including any downloads I receive from dreams.
My devils are free.